Marisa Ferreira
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Depression
What can I say? All you feel is emptiness. You want to feel, you try so hard to feel something other than emptiness, but you can’t. You try to do things that used to make you happy, but all you feel is nothing. Are you a person or just a walking corpse? Neither, you don’t know what you are, you don’t even know who you are. On the outside, you act and look how you think you should just so people consider you to be normal. You don’t want to speak to anyone about your problems. You just want to be alone. But loneliness makes you feel worse. But you also feel more comfortable alone. Why are we programmed to be social creatures? Technology. You don’t want to use your phone. You go days on end with your phone uncharged. You lose friends because of it. But then again, you lose friends just like a tree loses leaves during autumn. Why's that? You do things you think will make others happy, you go to university and get your degree, you get a job, you get married, you start a family, but what if that doesn’t make you happy? What then? You become a social outcast, the black sheep, selfish, idiotic, a low life. You become unimportant.
By Marisa Ferreira6 years ago in Psyche