Well lets go back some 14 yrs ago when I found Out I was pregnant with child. As you can imagine I was shocked as hell knowing I had to tell my mother. Funny thing is when I walked into her house I said "Mom I have something to tell you" my little brother shouted at the age of 6 "mom Maggie's pregnant". Now how he knew is beyond me. You know how they say the innocent can see what adults miss sometimes. Well I was in a world of lost not only was my partner 20 yrs older than me. Yes - that's right I was 14 yrs of age when I got involved with a 35 yrs old man. Now I knew no better for my sake, but my mother on the other hand agreed to arrangement. CRAZY RIGHT?! I know what was my mother thinking? Or not for that matter. Yes we cared and loved each other in our own ways I'm assuming. Well I got sent to a all pregnant high school were teens like myself went to. Basically so we don't feel judged or felt shame from other students. So I still graduated earlier than my class, actually. Well getting closer to the day of delivery my child decided to come early and when I say "determined" I mean determined. Not only did I spend about 4 hours at an insurance claim agency in Labor. Well I rushed to the hospital and admitted myself. Well my son decided to push his way through. I mean to the point where they had to tilt my bed up side down practically to get him to slid back into place. Well then this child decided to play the hold my breath method like some kids who don't get their way. Well anyhow I was starving during this period right? So just as soon as the nurse left me with some ice chips to suck on, my water breaks just as she was walking out. It felt like sitting in a hot tub very relaxing for about 2 min given, then well you know the rest they prep you for delivery. Well that didn't go so well because I was afraid to push I mean there was no one standing in front of my to catch the baby, Not that it would be flying out or anything but you get my view. Right? So my body closes up tight, and then in a flash his heart dropped to the point were I ended up in the Emergency Delivery room for a caesarian. I forced myself to stay awake until I heard his first cry. When I did I hear it I passed out immediately. Well when I came too and was able to go see him in NICU. He was this 3lb 9oz with platinum blonde hair and green eyes and transparent as ever. Now given the fact that I was only 17 at the time and just gave birth a whole other human being full of life and having only me and his father to guide him through his entire journey on earth. That was scary for me for me because I hardly new how to run my life or where to grow from where I was at that point. How can I teach my child of life if I was still trying to figure out life myself shocked me to the point where I didn't want to even touch him for the fear that all this might be true. Well no matter it was straight reality of my life in that moment.
Ok so my criminal life began before I was 21, imagine getting your 1st DWI at the age the 20 and the courts not noticing it off hand. Me and a buddy were leaving a strip club called Maveriks, its located in El Paso, TX were I've lived 19 yrs of my life so far. We'll the elaborated version of this story goes like this. We left the club and I usually take I-10 to get home but for some odd reason I took mesa street which is one of the main streets in El Paso, and well it happened to be like this, I saw the red light but I didn't see the cop car in front of me. So what happened was he pulled forward after the light turned green and pulled to the side so I thought nothing of it, well until he proceeded to follow me and flash the sirens. Which my buddy seemed to jump out of the truck and bounce on me. So the officer came to the window and asked me to step out of t he truck, well I ended up falling out of the truck, and proceeded to ask me to stand up and blow, well me being dirty minded as I can be sometimes. So I said don't you think that might be a bit unappropriated for you to ask me to blow.... (I thought it was hilarious but given the situation the officer smirked but didn't laugh) . Let me tell you jail is no fun, I was so in for a shock of my life, The thought of never seeing my son again scared the hell out of me. I cried the entire time I was in holding. Being locked away like a dangerous animal is the worst experience I would never place upon anyone. One thing I can say Is I didn't learn my lesson a repeat offender is what you could call me. Each time was worst than the last on how I became to be detained. Learn from your mistakes or you could be looking at a long 20 yrs taken from you life. Life gets more complicated the deeper you get caught into the system. Some are lucky and get through and out of the system, others are not so much in good graces. The system states that your innocent until proven guilty, but coming from experience that is not at all what it seems like when your locked down waiting for court dates. In all reality you are guilty till proven innocent or we would not have so many people waiting to go in front of the job, so they sit there incarcerated until finial judgment is bestowed upon them. Think wisely about the choices you decide in your life. I wish I had someone tell me not to take advantage of freedom we are privileged to have been born being an American. Don't allow someone to dictate your future because you decided to take a chance that could possibly change your entire future and your relationships with family and friends. Everyday is new opportunity to make the wisest choices even if it is momentary. Life is to short and goes by faster than we can image. So take a deep breath when you wake up and be thankful that your in your home and not behind the clinking of metal doors closing and a small window if your lucky to watch your days go by. Each day is blessing for me these days, I may not be completely happy but I have my moments of happiness. Trust me when I say you loose allot more then just time when you get wrapped up in the system, it's easy to get in but a fight to get out.