Marcy Angeles
Bio
Marcy Angeles is a Disabled Two-Spirit Nednhi Apache & Guamares Band of Chichimeca writer, painter, musician, dj and freelance journalist from Southern New Mexico.
Stories (18/0)
The Monster You Are When No One Is Looking:
In the modern age, the general population often overlooks the power of anonymity and the temptation to show an even harsher side of ourselves than we would in an in-person public setting. The screen name is the modern-day mask and the chatroom is merely a masquerade ball. According to the American Psychology Association, 20% of teenagers have considered suicide. The Suicide rates of Trans are very high among both Trans Adults and Youth, despite accounting for a smaller portion of the population. The majority of Hate Crimes and Murders of Trans People are Trans of Color.
By Marcy Angeles 9 months ago in Journal
The Truth & The Teller:
She is the Angel with the bald head, the poster child of the outcast. The people watched her struggle and heal for years. It was almost as if they were waiting for her downfall. Celebrities and pundits who mocked her love driven rebellion said kind words about her when it was much too late. Why does society wait to acknowledge the work of the truth teller only when they’re gone? Sinead was a protest singer who never made a statement for the sake of controversy. She moved the way she needed to so that she could create positive change. The truth is that we all have our time and our day will come. We all eventually meet our maker and will be held accountable for the harm we’ve done. Society is a lot more malicious than they let on, especially the “ normal “ ones who go to Church every Sunday. The ones who gaslight you and condemn you “ out of love. “ The “ normal “ ones because through their cookie cutter lives and ability to never disappoint, they live a life of privilege and power. It is the “ normal “ ones that normalize marginalization. Who other, dismiss and disregard those that just don’t know how to be like everyone else. Sinead didn’t belong to the “ normal “ ones. She was one of us. She was a black sheep with a mission. Although often times truth tellers are treated more like a spectacle until they’re gone. She was a broken person that selflessly would mend herself and healed publicly for those who were suffering silently.
By Marcy Angeles 10 months ago in Art
Spirit Transcends The Body:
The body, a vessel, a car that our spirit moves in the physical realm. The Body, where our intentions become kept promises and kisses are candle wax that seals the envelop. The Body, the hair that connects us to our common Mother. The Body, the mouth that is the cave in which the melody of our magmatic souls becomes a song in the world. The Spirit, our essence, a smoky string of divinity - a gift from Creator. The Mind, the emergence of Magick of the Soul meeting the Body. The Universe, The Great Mystery to which our Spirits are Trees sustaining the forest that is one giant network.
By Marcy Angeles about a year ago in Interview
Are Disabled People Allowed To Dream?
There is nothing I have ever wanted more than to have control over my own life. The only thing I have ever wanted is stability and certainty. To be able to have my needs as a disabled person met and all of my medications. It is downright exhausting to always be at the mercy of other people and other agencies. People in these agencies, whether it is allowed, have a tendency to let whatever authority they have go to their heads. I have encountered so many workers at federally funded agencies that have had no issue playing God with someone’s life. I live my life with medically Diagnosed Complex PTSD, Bipolar Disorder, Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, Seasonal Affective Disorder and Asthma from the stress. Being Trans has only magnified the direness of my situation because it has removed my humanity in other’s eyes. The others that work at federally funded agencies meant to help disabled people like me but rather have denied my needs and accommodations for these disabilities simply because they do not like that I am Trans. Being Trans and Indigenous has made me completely disposable. Throughout my life, I have searched for love and a partner that could save me from my situation. I have naively lent my body and heart to men who at a time fulfilled some fairytale fantasy that I could potentially be so happy with someone, that all of my disabilities and struggles go away. I don’t want a fancy car or a mansion, I just want to have control over my own life and to have all my needs met.
By Marcy Angeles 2 years ago in Journal
No Turtle Island Without The Tribes Of Mexico
“ The issue with denying and refusing to see Indigenous People, despite their color, is not about my personal feelings. It is that Indigenous people are dying. If you erase our Indigenous identity. Then you are literally erasing the same struggles you are fighting up North for Land Back, for water, for culture, for language and everything. You are literally denying that. “ These are the words of Tais, a Nahua Two Spirit originally from Xochimilco, (Field Of Flowers) Mexico. Tais is an Activist and Historian with a Masters in Refugee Studies. Today, on the day of Indigenous People’s Day, formerly a tainted day known as Columbus Day - Indigenous people in America mourn the genocide that began in 1492. For Native people, we have long known Columbus as the one who brought in “ The Long Winter “ that is responsible for millions of deaths of our people. We are lucky that any of us have survived.
By Marcy Angeles 2 years ago in Interview
The Mysticism ov we be echo
From the belly of South East London, we get to learn more about the artist we be echo or as I know him, Kev. wbe is a multi-instrumentalist & sound artist who is currently residing in Ontario, Canada. “ I don’t think of myself as a musician “ said wbe while we engaged in an evening conversation. Like many musicians and sound provocateurs (myself included), we struggle with the term musician. “ I’m very surprised sometimes by the way the sounds come together. To be honest, I’ m really quite astonished “ said wbe. That is a completely relatable statement. As experimental musicians and sound artists, often times what we create is a one time experience that can not be redone. It’s quintessential to almost always record your music session when you have more of a sound art approach. Although somewhat modest, Kev doesn’t ever seem to appear to let his talent go to his head. wbe rarely listens to artists outside of himself because it can be a bit overwhelming. As a creator, we often times know exactly what we need to hear, release and experience.
By Marcy Angeles 2 years ago in Interview
From The Loveless to The Legacy
Barb Morrison is a professional music producer, film score composer, multi-instrumentalist, music mentor, Top 5 Billboard dance chart songwriter, innovator & Platinum record producer. They are non-binary and although they have brought much visibility and pulled in empathy for the Trans community, they have not always received the care that they need. Barb’s pronouns are they/them and they have unfortunately had so many experiences where they have been “ she’d “ by people they care for. It is one thing to be misgendered by a stranger but there is a different kind of sting when there is someone who is familiar with who you are and especially what you have been through doing so. For many in the Trans world, being addressed by the correct pronouns is not just basic care/support but it is also suicide prevention. “ It does hurt when someone misgenders me. It feels like their vision of me is more important than my vision of myself. It hurts a great deal, especially people that I’ve reminded many times. It makes me think they don’t see me. The thing that is insidiously hurtful is the people that are not seeing me “ said Barb. At times they have gone by the name Morrison because Barb feels that there may be a perceived female attachment to the name Barb. That is something they feel could possibly influence the way others address them. There is no one way to be a man, no one way to be a woman and certainly no one way to be non-binary. It speaks volumes that even a Trans person who is so well-respected can’t have their personhood honored. Barb deserves to be seen and not just for all that they have accomplished but just for who they are.
By Marcy Angeles 2 years ago in Interview
Sacred Awera
In 1492 began an onslaught against the Indigenous People of the Western World. The modern perception of the “ Western World “ is that it is the White World, it isn’t. The real Western World is the Indigenous People that have long occupied these Sacred Lands, the Natives that are as Indigenous to these areas as our mountains, creeks and plants. Like America, Colonization also runs deep in Columbia. In fact, it runs so deep that the name “ Columbia “ is a homage to genocidal murderer Christopher Columbus. Justified by the Church and Spaniard Monarchs, Columbus referenced Manifest Destiny as a means to eradicate Indigenous People or proselytize Indigenous People to create a home for Christianity. It is the largest genocide to ever occur and the one genocide that no one ever wants to discuss. All of the tribes of our lands have distinct tribal cultures with distinct customs but there are also many similarities. One of the biggest similarities is that most tribes had multiple genders before having the Gender Binary forced on us via forced assimilation and colonization.
By Marcy Angeles 2 years ago in Interview
