Makayla Williams
Stories (2/0)
Giving you up
Just sitting here, pretending to be the main character... Oh how I wish I could be, because at the end of the movie the girl always gets the guy. But here I am sitting here, wondering what I did wrong and wishing I could fix it, wishing I could fix us. Are you happy? because I'm not... Do you miss me, the way I miss you? All these questions and no one to answer them for me. I need to give you up! I need to let you go! I can't let myself heal until I learn to let you go... until I learn that letting you go is going to be the best for me. Am I ready to let you go? Am I ready to be happy with someone else? Am I? How do I answer these questions, how do I know that by letting you go won't be my biggest mistake... How do I know? I don't think that's the problem, I don't know and I won't know until I do it.. It sucks not being able to be the main character...It sucks not being able to have your happy ending. But Life is not some chick flick or a fairytale. Heartbreaks are just part of life and I have to go with it. Hopefully we find our way back to each other and we can learn to love again and maybe next time we can grow old together and have a family.
By Makayla Williams3 years ago in Confessions
My Open Dairy
I have always had a problem with being me. I have been bullied although my school life, I've been called "Fat" "Ugly" I have people tell me that "I should just kill myself" or "No-one will love me" I would say my life has been horrible, but it hasn't been. Some of what I say will be personal, but I'm ok with sharing and telling my story. Like for starters when I was 4, my mom had open heart surgery. She died twice on the table and once in recovery. She had 2 blood transfusion's and everybody in that hospital thought my mom would never come home to us. I have grew up in a fatherless house-hold. My dad has been doing, and choosing drugs over his kids. I was 6 years old when he came home with track marks on his arm, I was also 6 years old when my own cousin rapped me and my brother. I had a speech impediment so CPS didn't understand me so they didn't investigate. When I was 13 we moved away from my home town and within 6 months my mom hit a hard spot in life and we became homeless, we lived in a woman's shelter for 5 months before we moved back to Graham Tx. We moved in with my Grandmother we lived with her until I turned 15. When we moved to Baird Tx I had just started my second year of high school, so it was difficult to make friends. I quit school for 3 months and then I went to Clyde Tx, and in my third year of High School around then end of year, going into summer. My mom went back to the Hospital and her lung collapsed and her kidneys were shutting down, my mom fought for her life and she came home to us kids. I was 17 at the time. I am know 21 and we own the house we live in and the property. My older brother who is 24 has a daughter, he tried to kill himself 5 times, he is a cutter and a drug addict. He has been clean for 4 years and he is the strongest person I know. My little sister who is 17, is a step mom to 4 and is pregnant with her first baby. I know thats a young age to start a family, but its her life and she can decide to with it. My mom is 42 and is alive and breathing because she fought like hell to be where she is today, with all of her kids. My life is complicated, messy, weird, overwhelming, but most of all it has been epic. I found the love of life and he broke my heart into a million pieces but he is willing to fight and fix what happened between us. I am so thankful for the way I grew up and I can't thank God enough for the family her gave me. So welcome to my Life! My Name is Makayla Willams, I'm 21 and I love Harry Potter and Halloween. I have blonde hair and blue eyes, I'm 5'4 and I'm a pot-head. I live in a very small town in the middle of no where called Baird Texas, I graduated May 25, 2018 from Clyde High School. Enjoy my Life Story.
By Makayla Williams3 years ago in Humans