I write as a way to seek understanding in the world and within myself.
An Open Letter to the First Boy Who Broke My Heart:
To the first boy who broke my heart, I love you, and I think I always will. I never received any closure at the end of us. You were apart of my life for so many years. You knew every one of my secrets, no mater how big or small; you knew me through and through. We would spend hours talking about how much we loved each other and wished we were together again rather than on opposite sides of the country.
An Open Letter to My Parents Who Don't Understand My Mental Illness
To My Parents Who Don’t Understand My Mental Illness, Ever since I was young, I’ve always been different, you both say this endlessly. I’ve always been different than the rest of the family. Honestly, I’ve always felt like a bit of a black sheep even among you guys and my brother. Something about me has always been off though; I didn’t process things the same way you guys did. I took everything a bit more personally, my moods were more unstable and I lashed out more, I was your “rebel kid,” and I’ve always been impulsive; but at the end of the day, I always seemed like a relatively happy-go-lucky girl as I should have been. I come from a family who can provide for me financially and I have been awarded so many amazing opportunities in my life that I am very thankful for, but still, there was always this emptiness inside of me.
17 Things I Learned by 17
A lot of times, I am often pegged as the girl who has it all. And growing up that was a very common perception to the people around me mostly due to the fact that I always seemed so happy. I mean what could I have to worry about right? I had my family, two parents who are still married, an amazing older brother, we were financially stable to where my brother and I could have whatever we wanted and needed and I was heavily involved in school clubs and activities. People never believed me when I would say that I had it hard. But they also failed to realize, my family wasn't and isn't always like this; when my brother and I were young we didn't have any money, I watched my parents grow and develop themselves professionally in order to be able to give my brother and I better opportunities. They also didn't see that I had been struggling with major depression and anxiety since middle school. I am by no means saying my life was hard, in reality my life has been very easy and I am beyond fortunate for that, but along the way there have been rough patches and that's where this came from. When I was 17, during my freshman year of college, I decided to make a list of all of the major life lessons I had learned throughout my life, before becoming a legal adult. So, here are the 17 things I learned by 17:
- Top Story - October 2017