Four years you’ve both been gone. Four heart breaking years. Even though I promised to be strong for mom and grandma, I still to this day, break down. I can’t listen to certain songs because they remind me of you, and I break all over again. You left the biggest hole in my heart behind when you left this world, and nothing can fix that. My children don’t have a real grandfather or great grandfather because you’re gone. Only my first and second child got know you before you left.
What do you do when the person you knew all your life turns into a cruel person who verbally attacks others on purpose just to make you angry? You can't do anything because you know its not them anymore. So, you’re torn between reacting or forcefully brushing it off, knowing either way there’s going to be a fight over it. Nothing you do or say will change their mind. Nothing you can do or say will make you good enough in their eyes.
I wanted to go through some song lyrics that I’m personally attached too from one band. I would like to give my incites into these songs and give the why I’m personally attached to them. Starset is a cinematic rock band. The amazing sound, lyrics, and vocals harmonize enhancing each other perfectly. Its also hints at futuristic themes.
That feeling the you get when you're sitting alone in the dark. It wells up in you. Choking... Constricting... You can't breathe, but you keep it to yourself not wanting anyone to know. Its the voices in your head telling you; you're not good enough... You're not strong... You can't handle this... Its something everyone deals with, but nobody talks about.
Cancer the word no ever wants to hear no matter how small it might be. The disease is a poison that consumes the ones closest to you or you yourself. The new cancer estimate for 2020 is 1.8 million people with estimated cancer deaths of 606,520. (Taken for cancer.org) These are some scary numbers to look at for anyone.
I feel drugged by the lies that have been pushed down my throat. Forced to obey and adhere to the lies of a corrupt lover. Poisoned by your words. Your sweet nothings that actually meant nothing at all. You just wanted me under your thumb, you just wanted control. You thought I would never walk away. You thought I would never leave because I was so in love with you. I'm surprised you didn't use the children in your quest to keep me with the lies you told me.