Kyle Alexander
Stories (4/0)
World Suicide Prevention Month
Suicide - Let's say it out loud, it isn't an ugly or taboo word, yet as a society, we continue to make it one. Despite the move forward and the wonderful fact that we have a designated month to pause and reflect on suicide awareness and a day dedicated to suicide prevention, there are still too many lost to an ever-growing statistic worldwide. Not only do we keep making the same mistakes but the very people we put in charge of protecting us are also at the core of the world being unkind to those it considers damaged. Big call you may say? Let me share my personal story with you.
By Kyle Alexander2 years ago in Longevity
I nearly died at the hands of my own Doctors
If I could count the number of Doctors I have seen I would be a rich man. My BPD caused me to attach to the doctor I have been seeing and although she made mistake after mistake, she was kind and gentle and genuinely cared about me. In June last year, I had a shock diagnosis of Parkinson's Disease brought on by the years of psychiatric medication I had been on. Life got very tough, very quickly. I started to go downhill quite fast and every time I would see my neurologist he would increase one of the meds I was on and I would just get worse and worse, to the point where I struggled to walk or drink anything without spilling it everywhere. I also started to fall over, in the months from August to June I had fallen 34 times, requiring stitches in my head and was covered in bruises. I and my family all put it down to the Parkinsons' getting worse which was a huge concern for my future. So I had two doctors in the picture, one prescribing Lithium for my mental health and one for my Parkinson's Disease. I was taking around 15 tablets a day at that stage. Around the beginning of April, I started getting very forgetful and confused about things like what day it was and whether I had been to appointments or not. I also started to hallucinate about people appearing out of the corner of my eye and when I would turn they would disappear. I told both of my doctors about all these symptoms and they seemed unperturbed. I also started to lose my eyesight slowly, it became difficult to read anything even with my glasses on, I struggled to read emails and text messages and even went and got stronger glasses which didn't help at all. I didn't understand what was going on, I was so confused and my mind was so jumbled up that everything seemed like some sort of strange dream that I was stuck in. I was forgetting to shower, sometimes for a week at a time, thinking I had had one yesterday and my self-care just went out the window. I continued taking the medication hoping to god it would help in some way.
By Kyle Alexander2 years ago in Longevity
Living on the Borderline — An intro to Borderline Personality Disorder
I have felt so incredibly alone in this world, I feel like someone has to tell my story or it will get lost and let’s face it, no one else is going to! I hope to regain some control and to hopefully help others understand more what it is like to live with an illness that never really relents. It is with me 24 hours a day, 365 days a year and quite simply it is exhausting.
By Kyle Alexander4 years ago in Psyche