Just here to do what I love :)
I Wish I Could Say I Am at My Best
You used to be a good friend to me. My movie pal, my gym partner. When I got with someone that I had been close with for a bit, you weren’t happy. You’d start leaving the room if I got calls, you’d start being snappy with me and just downright mean. You never used to be like that with me ever. You were always careful with me because I’m often sick and frail. I never even neglected our friendship despite the relationship. It got bad, you got worse. You started shouting at me all the time, cornering me. I was scared, so scared of you. I never felt safe anymore and I didn’t know how to tell anyone. I ended up crying a lot. You got so mad the last night you stayed and you shoved me into the counter and raised your hand to me. I was terrified and crying. It was 2 AM and I begged you to calm down or the neighbors would complain. I was shaken. I finally managed to go to bed. You had a date the next day and I was happy for that. I always told you put yourself out there. I woke up to you touching me, and I tried to push you off and told you no please stop. You didn’t. You kept going and telling me how pretty my body was and it would be such a waste not to. I cried. I didn’t have the strength to shove you off and you kept me pinned. When you were done you fixed yourself up and left for your date. I had tears coming down my cheeks and laid there in silence. I curled up with a stuffed animal feeling so broken. I didn’t talk to anyone much at all. My partner didn’t even find out until later in the evening because of one of my roommates who I had cried to silently about it before passing back out. My partner was angry very angry. Authorities were called and you fled the state.
Fried Rice Hut
So this place was thrown to me in my Yelp recommended yesterday actually. I went over its reviews, looked through all the photos, dug around online, and despite even some of what seem negative or just okay reviews—this place had my eye. Here we are into the day after my looking into it; I guess right place right time, I've got to go there. It wasn't planned for today, but boy am I glad it found its place in my agenda.
Missing Sister Found!
Today I went out with family! Mom found my sister who was missing for months, and we decided to celebrate. She was not hurt, she was a bit dirty and looked like she had been hiding on the streets and stuff. Mom is gonna take her to get checked, and get her new clothes and stuff, and get her set up with an apartment!
Emblem Fire Adventures!!
So I got my students geared up based off personalities. Some of them are being punished >> like dis bish I am forcing to be a Pegasus knight person thingy. I do play favoritism with my students, however, Claude and Sylvain get spoiled. I sneak in and polish up their weapons and make sure they are in tippy toppy shape. I also am gentle on training with them, but seriously they are such good little fighters, makes me so proud *tear*
Lost in a World That Maybe Doesn't Want Me
How does one "talk" to a therapist? Like, I never understood how to unload on them with anything. I know I need to see one. I've needed to see one for a lot of things. Not being good socially, I feel makes it difficult for me to just be like, "Hey, this this this this." I don't—I don't know.
I am bound to you, my dearest My word, my deed, my very self. I want to adventure with you, be your ray of hope. Turn all your bad days into amazing days. Just dedicated to you. I Love you, the person you are, just everything, you. You make my heart beat ever so fierce. You are my light, like a beacon, a compass that ever leads true, a pointing needle, gravity pulls to true north. Your heart, you, are my home. i will always love you with all that i am. cherish you with every fiber of my being. I love you ever so much and i feel so blessed to have you in my life
Show me wildfires that escalate into majestic waves of infernos, asphyxiate me under the searing structures you conjure and take me as I am.
I count the days till we are together, My heart smiles with each passing day, I know each day I'm closer to you, My excitement is barely contained.