Khaleb Hudson
Bio
If I can write even just one story that someone can relate to or a story that can help someone, then my job here is done. Transman, 22, Cosmetolgy student.
Stories (4/0)
Breathtaking
Have you ever looked at someone and thought to yourself that they are the most beautiful individual you’ve ever seen? I have. I wish that was all I could write because I can’t find the right words to describe her true beauty. She’s everything and more. She’s the type of woman who makes you park out on a back road and look at the stars, one who makes you feel whole. She’s the kind of woman that listens to you and remembers the small details about you. Your favorite color, favorite food, the way you smelled when you left her house after a date. But she’s also the type of woman who makes you want to better yourself. She will help you in whatever way she feels necessary. By talking, hugging, or simply just listening to the things you have to say. The way I look at it is, she’s too good to be single. Better yet, why is she even talking to me? That’s how beautiful she is. Have you ever been talking to someone and started thinking, why is this person even attracted to me?. That’s what I was thinking about her and then I realized maybe it’s not my looks, maybe it’s the way I treat her, or my personality, the way I talk to her on a daily basis. We all deserve someone who is going to look past our exterior and look at more of what we have to offer. Not money wise, but emotionally, mentally, and sometimes physically. Everything about her makes me feel nervous and bubbly at the same time and that’s not a feeling I’ve ever been used to. Maybe many of us are used to that feeling. She makes me want to let my walls down, open up about my feelings, but also drives me to be the man I am. But what really gets me about her is that yes, she is absolutely beautiful, but the inside...is something that is genuine. Unique. The way she cares about someone’s feelings, how my day went regardless of how her day went, the thoughtfulness, all the way down to the way she sends me a text saying “Good Morning” every day when she wakes up. It gives me butterflies. The outside matches the inside and that’s something you can’t buy, not even for all the money in the world. It’s something that takes me to a place that I’m not even sure exists. No amount of money could take me the place I go when I see her. Her smile, her eyes, the way she dresses, the music she listens to, just everything about this woman seems so right. Almost like it’s too good to be true but I know it is because I talk to her every single day. I never really knew that you could get butterflies just by seeing someone’s name come up on your phone or hear it come up in conversation, but the feeling is real. It’s rare. I never knew it was possible to actually have another individual understand you so well. When people ask me about her I don’t know what to say I’m at a loss for words. I could search all day and night to find the right way to describe her but I’m not sure there’s enough words to do so. But I can tell you that her beauty should be composted to nothing less than diamonds and the stars in the sky on a clear fall night. Her natural beauty is something beyond me. There should be a painting of her hung up in a museum guarded by security, but her heart and feelings aren’t to be played with, they aren’t toys. I hope one day I get the chance to show her what it’s like to be treated right.
By Khaleb Hudson3 years ago in Humans
In loving memory
I wish you weren’t so far away. I’m not sure why you left. I’ll never be sure actually. I have so many unanswered questions but that’s okay, I’m not mad. I could never be mad at you. You’re my best friend. I told you from the very beginning that you will always be my best friend no matter what happened between us. Not even death. We were supposed to work the same job when I got out of college, we had so many plans, so many memories. But I’m still not mad at you. We had many late night conversations over the course of 7 years and they will forever be engraved in my head as you are in my heart. I guess I just wish I could come visit. I wish that I could see you one last time or hear your voice one last time. I wish that I could have said goodbye more than anything. Or that I’m sorry. I wish I could have helped you in some sort of way. I remember the day I got the phone call, your mom called my sister and my sister called my mom. I got the phone call on my way home from Lima (ohio) and I remember the way my mom sounded when she told me that I needed to pull over. She told me I needed to pull over because she knew I was going to break down. That’s not a phone call I ever wanted to get, it’s a phone call that I wouldn’t wish on my worst enemy. I remember feeling so helpless, like I couldn’t catch my breath. I still get that feeling around your birthday. There isn’t anything I wouldn’t do to get you back but I know that you’re not hurting and feeling the way you once felt anymore. I guess I find comfort when I visit your grave. I feel a sense of comfort when I see your pictures and your contacts in my phone which I will never delete. I carry the note you left me before you passed. It comes with me everywhere because that’s the last thing I have from you. I carry it because if not I feel like I’ve lost you completely and that’s not the case. I know you’re watching over us. I know you’re around. Some days when I wake up from having a dream about you I get sad and upset because they feel so real but I know there’s nothing I can do to bring you back. It’s the sad truth that you can’t love someone back to life. You can try, but it’s not going to work. I will forever do the things I do to keep your memory alive just like your mom does. Everything I do is for you because you helped me work on myself. You were there through tough times I went through. You helped me with things that I will never talk about again. You helped me gain confidence in myself. I just wish you were here now to see the things I’ve accomplished. I wish you could see the things I am going through and I want you to know that I will overcome any obstacle in my way because you helped me gain the confidence to do so. You might not know it but you helped me with so much more than you might have actually realized. But anyway just know that I’m not mad, I just miss you. I love you so very much. You can come visit me anytime, I promise I won’t be scared.
By Khaleb Hudson3 years ago in Humans
You deserve better
One day I hope you wake up and realize that you’re better than the things you let yourself go through. I hope you wake up and see your beauty through the eyes of the ones who love you the most. I hope that when you wake up and realize that you’re right where you are supposed to be at this given moment, that you gain some form of comfort. I hope and pray for this for you because nobody ever did that for me. Nobody ever sat me down and talked with me and made me feel comfortable in my own skin, and that isn’t something I would wish on my worst enemy. I wish someone would have sat me down when I was younger and told me that I didn’t have to settle for anything less than what I deserve. It’s the little things that people tell you or give you advice about something you’re going through. Sometimes you sit up late at night just thinking where you went wrong, where you could have done something just a little bit better or could have pulled back some, but the truth is that you’re not doing anything wrong. You’re going in the direction you need to be going to get to where you want. You don’t need to worry about the things you did in the past, it was either a dream come true or a lesson learned. You can’t change the past but you can change your future. The only way to do that is to change your outlook and your attitude about life. You can’t wake up every morning and say you can’t do something because then that’s your mindset about the rest of your day. That will be your outlook on things the rest of your life. You have to wake up and realize that only you can change the course of your life for the better. Stop putting yourself in situations that can put your mental health at risk. I say that because your mental health is where everything can start to turn on you faster than anything else. It’s worse than a physical injury, almost. It’s the same pain but it’s all in your head and you have the power to change that. Start doing things for you and nobody else. I get it, we can all be people pleasers and there is nothing wrong with that. There just has to be a time where you put yourself first for once. If you start putting yourself first and not last you’ll start to see a huge difference in your life. I’m not saying stop caring about others and how others are doing, just start caring about yourself more than what you think you do. Do better for yourself. Leave that relationship, job, cut out toxic people, yes that means family too. That’s also another thing that people tend to forget, family can be toxic. It hurts to cut them out, but you don’t have to do it forever. You just need to give yourself time and space away from toxic people. You have to be able to give yourself the time of day. You can’t make others happy until you make yourself happy and that might be the hardest pill to swallow. Please wake up one day and see for yourself that you deserve better.
By Khaleb Hudson3 years ago in Motivation
Believe in yourself
On September 3rd, 2019 I started college at a school near my hometown called Ohio State Beauty Academy. It was hard coming to a new place to learn new things. It was even harder knowing that I was going to be surrounded by girls who knew more about cosmetology than I did. I was only scared because being a guy in a female dominant career field can be overwhelming. At least for me anyway. When I first started I was so scared of being judged not only because of my ability to do hair, or the lack there of, but more of me being transgender. The inability I use to have of doing hair made me think that people would judge me and I was right but only to a certain extent. Only a few girls out of the 67 women in the whole school judged me. But now, I’m about to graduate from school and I’ve done everything from haircuts, to Balyage, to perms, to cornrows. Basically all I’m saying is that, no matter what you do in life, make sure you’re doing it for YOURSELF, and nobody else. Make sure the career path you decide to take, whatever that path may be, makes you happy. Don’t do something that isn’t going to make you happy, don’t do it because of the money, the money part of a job is just an added bonus in my eyes. If you take anything away from this let it be this: If you choose a career, make sure it’s one that you can see yourself doing 10 years from now. Not just 10 months from now. I'd be lying if I said that when I started at the Beauty Academy I thought it was going to be easy. I wanted people to stop getting on me about getting an education and I will admit that I was looking for an easy outlet. As it turns out it was the hardest thing, mentally and emotionally that I’ve ever done in my whole life. The beginning was 16 long weeks of nothing but book work. Long nights of homework, sometimes 4 chapters at a time that had to be turned in the next morning, flash cards, other workbooks. In hindsight I was wrong about it being easy. It was very challenging, for me it was a whole new world. I had never done anything with hair before and I came into this career field blind as a bat. There were times I cried during class, cried at night when I was home, I’ve had mental breakdowns in front of clients and even questioned if I was good enough to be a hairstylist. The answer, if you wanted to know is, yes. Yes I am good enough. I’m good enough because I stood my ground and kept believing in myself and pushing myself forward. We have to stop being scared of the things that could potentially stop us from living life up to our fullest potential. We have to start believing in ourselves and also have to start seeing the potential we have in ourselves. You are capable of doing anything, you just have to want it. You have to want it bad enough that you won’t quit until you make it. The truth is, for me at least is, it’s okay to be scared of things in life. Being scared isn’t always a bad thing, it really means that it’s just another obstacle I have the chance to overcome or turn around and run from it. Side note, if it’s a clown I’m always going to run from it. But when it comes to my career I will always overcome it. Without the people I’ve met at the school I would be the man I am or the cosmetologist I am today. Chase your dreams and never stop until you get them.
By Khaleb Hudson3 years ago in Education