Everyone goes through pain in their life. It could be heartbreak, loss, abuse, or even mental pain from the ones that we think are our friends or family. In an average life, a person will deal with at least two of these. Personally, I have dealt with them all, and although that sounded like bragging, it wasn't.
A lot has changed since I wrote my last post. After leaving in January, my life had more ups and downs than I could have ever expected. To this day, I am still not divorced, mostly do to financial needs. I have moved back into the same town as my ex. For months we lived as roommates and tried to get along, thinking it was best for our kids. I watched him date and try to rebuild his life. Some parts didn't hurt me. Others made me feel like I was not worth very much. You would expect jealousy and pain from being close to him and not having him, but that is not what I experienced. To be honest, the biggest thing that hurt me is seeing him do amazingly sweet or romantic things for other women that he never once did during our seven years of marriage. The worst part, though, was him thinking that because we were now friends, that he could tell me all of these built up secrets about the time we were together and married that were horrible. Such as having crushes on other females, flirting, dreaming, and even wanting them in a sexual way while we were together. In the last month, I have moved into my own place and see my children as much as I can. I am preparing all of the paperwork and knowledge I need to file for divorce. The hardest thing I am doing though is playing nice.
No one goes into a marriage hoping for it to end or even expecting it to end. At least not when you are getting married for love. So when it does end it stings, breaks, devastates, and shocks. This was me. When I got married I had seen marriages be torn apart, I had seen the fighting and the hatred that came from something that was originally so beautiful. I went in thinking that our love would over come it all and made sure everyone knew that I was marrying for life no matter what happened. That was about 5 and 1/2 years ago.
There are a lot of really good movies expected to come out in the upcoming year of 2018. Below is a list of the most anticipated movies coming out. Whether they have been expected since I was a kid or the first one was so good that people are truly excited for a sequel.
With the way that the economy is right now in the US, going to school is no longer enough to guarantee a job once you have graduated. It is all about experience, references, education, and connections. Having just one of these four things is not enough, having two is rarely enough. Because of this fact, when college kids choose a college, a lot of them have begun looking at schools with job placement assistance for their graduates. I know I did when I chose my college. The problem is job placement is not guaranteed, no matter what their supposed success rate with it is, and there is a lot of small print attached to it that they do not disclose.
It's a part of life for people to die. No matter how much they are loved, no matter how much they are needed, it will still happen. I personally hate this fact.