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Why you should play Escape From Tarkov
There are a LOT of video games out these days. And because of that, there’s a game for practically anyone and any taste. Whether you’re just getting into games, or you’ve been playing them since you were little, there’s no denying that video games are wonderful addition for anyone who has time to kill and wants to engage with a media, instead of just watch one. And while it’s always awesome to find a game that’s exactly what you’re looking for, sometimes it’s good to branch out and try other genres or types of games that you may just overlook entirely. Even if it’s games that are notoriously difficult. Some people would look to the Dark Souls series as an example, but what I’m talking about is a game that has blown up in popularity at the start of 2019. Escape From Tarkov.
Mistakes of the Mind
A lot of people overtime have talked about whether or not mistakes they make linger in their minds for long. Which is crazy, because for me personally, mistakes, both big and small, stay around in my head for way longer than they probably should. And I don’t have a good answer as to why.
A Stranger's Assurance
When I started my job before the pandemic in 2020, I remember being extremely nervous about some of the nuances that came with the role. The job itself was fairly straightforward in nature. But, there were some elements to it that I wasn’t one hundred percent on. One of which was the impressively large copy machine they had in the mail room. I had used other ones in the past but this one was much different and I hadn’t gotten a chance to learn a little about how it works in case someone needed something from that machine and I was the only one around in that moment. Well, not to far after I started, maybe a week or so, it was a weekend evening, a little over halfway through my shift, when a gentleman comes in with some papers in his hand. He greeted me with a big smile and asked me if I could get a couple copies of the paper’s he brought with him. At the time, that was my biggest worry; not so much the copy process, but in general, not having the answers for someone in a hastily fashion. So, I clamed up super hard, and began to freak out. I told him I wasn’t proficient with the copier we have. He looked at me and simply told me that’s okay, let’s go to the machine and you can give it a try, because he wasn’t sure how to do it himself either.
I Still Feel like I'm 17.
I still feel like I’m younger than I actually am. Anyone else feel the same way? I can’t speak for anyone else, but for some reason even after graduating high school and then going straight to college, some things still feel the same way. Honestly, this doesn’t, and hasn’t been a good thing for a long time. The reason it’s specifically 17 and not older or younger, is that’s the age when I became acutely aware of my surroundings. How to perceive people; gauge their emotions and whether or not they were having a bad day or not. Putting others ahead of myself. Whether that’s really simple and mundane things like making sure they have a fresh dry towel for a shower, or making sure their drink is topped up. It’s that level of perception that really gauges how I interact and engage with individuals these days. And it’s been that way for years now. This is used particularly for the bad situations, more so than the good ones. I guess I would even go so far as to call it some kind of defense mechanism. And no matter how far ahead of the curve I am, or how many steps ahead I am of a situation before it even becomes one, sooner or later, I mess it up and the end result is always the same; me, burying me head in the sand, wondering how I didn’t foresee that one tiny minute detail, which lead to the whole situation falling out of control. And all that does is perpetuate this cycle of always trying to be ahead of the problem. Which, in reality, you can’t do. It’s impossible. And I know that. So, why can’t I stop?
What made you smile. Those silly, stupid voices I did for you all the time in between classes; where we only had roughly five minutes each break so we had to make the most of it. Running to find one another in the shortest amount of time possible. I remember how neither of us were people pleasers; we both had that default look on our faces that just screamed ‘don’t talk to me’. But then if we couldn’t find one another, we would just pass by each other and give the warmest smile to you and I. It only lasted for maybe a second at best, because we walked just so quickly. But I can still see the moment in my head if I close my eyes. We’d turn to each other, exchange smiles and maybe a little wave, and then back to staring down whatever was in front of us with that death stare. I always laughed to myself whenever it happened because I hadn’t done that with anyone else before.
What if: 6 Years Later.
The ginger ale was flat. Again. It always seems that the far-right soda gun at the bar produces a pitiful example of what a soda should be: cold, crisp, and fizzy. It was only cold. But my mind doesn’t want to focus on asking for a new one. No, there was something significantly more important looming on the horizon. And not just something, but someone. An old friend, with whom I somehow managed to muster up the courage to seeing her at this local little chain restaurant to catch up. Six years… how time has flown. So many memories between now and then. All mainly during college, but those four years blew past without anyone asking how or why. My mind begins to race back to the time right before college. To a much simpler and safer place: senior year of high school. Specifically, the second semester during the winter. Where all the pleasant times occur because of a single person’s kindness and desire to be around me.
Bloodborne - A Magnum Opus of Gaming
Let’s talk about one of single greatest culmination of all things gaming. Coming out in March of 2015, this game is the achievements of three previous iterations in the same genre, by the same company. FromSoftware’s Bloodborne, is not only one of my favorite games to ever be released, but is also one of the single greatest games ever created.
What do Videogames mean to me?
What do video games mean to me? Well, that’s a complicated question that will require a complicated and potentially mushy kind of answer. So, bear with me. I’ve been playing games since I was four years old. My first console was the Nintendo 64, and my first game was Super Mario 64. From there, the love was born and a whole myriad of fantasies and wild imaginations followed suit. My tiny little brain couldn’t comprehend the complexity and was always awestruck by what they could do, especially for the times.