18 // Newcastle, UK
Like many things in my life, I tend to easily fall out of love with certain things I used to be passionate about or have such a huge desire for. For some odd reason I've never had something I've fallen deeply for and thought to myself THIS is what I want to do for the rest of my life. Maybe some people can relate, I don't know. There probably is. When I first started school, I always thought I was heading in a direction where I knew I was going to be successful and I knew which path I was going to take. Once I got nearer to the end of school, I felt more lost than I had ever been. It's a weird thing growing up. You feel like you have to change your mind every day because you can't decide what you want to do. It feels like you're stuck in this cycle society portrays rather than what you actually want to do—the normality of finishing school, going to college, heading off to uni, and then being stuck in a 9-5 job for the rest of your life. It scared me. But deep down, I knew I had to start somewhere... right? Anyways, I was at a point in my life where I felt lost and had no desire to even do anything. All the things in my life that I used to love just didn't satisfy me as they used to when I was younger and I didn't know why. One thing I did learn, however, is deep down there is always something that a person loves more than anything. Sometimes we just don't know it yet.