The worst kind of heartbreaks in life are the ones that will not leave you alone. My biggest regret is how I chose to manage my time in the past. I find that I have been given every possible oppurtunity to enjoy life only to suffer further. My descions have led me to conclude that the way I chose to live before was incorrect and that I need to make the necessary changes in order to salvage and rebuild another life in this plane of existence.
I used to take my gratitude for granted. My parents provided a safe and nuturing enviroment for me and my two siblings at home growing up. It is now that I can appreciate the lengths that they went to and everything that they were patient with for putting up with my shenanigans.
I am a greatful recovering addict, that much I am sure of. This is the most amount of clean time I have had in the last 15 years or so (170 days alcohol 120 days all drugs and counting). I only was able to achieve this by taking my recovery serious, one day at a time. I had a “slip” in the early days of my sobriety but I was able to tell on myself and get back up. Looking back now, I believe it was best to get that mistake out of the way and that I was able to handle it correctly.