Hello my name is Haley, I am a bit of a rookie writer, but hey what's it gonna hurt, I'm very creative and love to try new things. Here I go, I'm gonna give it a chance.
Life Under The Radar: A Story About Mental Illness & Other "Invisible" Illnesses
I'm living in the world, as well as you are, and it feels exhausting to just exist. When struggling with any invisible ailment; life is exhausting. The world demands you to provide for it, or it won't provide for you. It seems like there are a lot of people out there who just can do it! how though? When dealing with extreme mood dysregulation or pain, due to mental illness or other "invisible" ailments, it makes going to the store for things you want exhausting. There are some people who can do things they don't want, and they seem to manage just fine.
In All Honesty I'm Fat and Unhappy
You know the saying, "well at least I'm fat and happy?" In all honesty I'm fat and unhappy - because I have been stuck in a repetitive cycle of anxiety and depression - which feeds my obesity. It's okay to be happy and fat, but once it brings on the issue where pain is a daily thing, mentally and physically, there is nothing to feel happy about. I am for one - going to be open and honest about what myself as an obese individual feels about spreading a message of what is called "body positivity." (specifically for individuals like myself).
When The Universe Changed
I've always observed the night sky with wonder and noticed, even with it's darkness, a little light always manages to shine through. The name is Jazzamine, I've never been your typical teen, but who's to say what the typical teen is? I grew up on planet Earth just like the rest of them, only I'm not what you would call a human. I know what you may be thinking, I destroyed the planet, but nope - that wasn't me. It seems so typical of all you humans to blame the extraterrestrial - but hey, I moved to planet earth because well, my family needed to relocate.
The Outcast Among Them
I never have felt like I quite fit in anywhere - I've struggled with mental illness since I can remember. I did not start out with the knowledge that I have had a mental illness, but I have always felt like there was something not quite right with me. When I was a child I had random fits that made me hit myself - it always seemed like I was throwing tantrums. It wasn't until later in life that I had found out about the mental health issues that were plaguing me.
5 Tips: Summer Vacation
It's summer! This is the best time to start planning a vacation with the family - especially with the restrictions being loosened from Covid-19. I recently went on vacation, and I wanted to have all of these plans set in place before I even got there. It seemed like the best idea to have every day planned out, because I wanted this vacation to feel like the best one yet. I ended up not making those plans, and I was not disappointed. Most people have an agenda filled to the brim on vacation because it seems like the best way to accomplish the best vacation ever, but it usually does not end up as fun as expected. When there is a time crunch it can cost you and your family energy and sometimes those plans fall through anyway. I will explain all of the reasons why this year you should only plan a destination, and make the trip something to remember.
5 Steps: To Understanding You're Valuable.
"I can do anything if I put my mind to it!" This is a true statement, but it doesn't always feel like it. When the world seems to be moving in a forward motion for everyone else and you feel like you are at a stand still; even though you have tried every maneuver to get on track. You some how seem to lose grip of the rails and can't stay on the path you were hoping to go on. You start to lose the motivation and the," can do attitude." You mustn't let the few obstacles obstruct you from living your life to the fullest. When you see a barrier in between you and the path you wanted to take, you must remember that it isn't permanent. You have to remember everyone crawls before they can even walk. If you feel like your life is of a lesser value due to the circumstances that keep you from gaining your goals, these five steps to understanding your valuable should help you maneuver through each obstacle obstructing your success.
The Day The Light Came On
In the midst of a world full of chaos, I was falling behind all the smoke. This life hasn't been quite that fair, but it gives me no reason to be bitter I swear. I see how darkness can consume a light hearted mind, as well as dig a hole in a whole hearted soul. A few walks around the bend I found a sort of gentleman who seemed to not see the pain in the midst of all the chaos. I asked him how he sees the world, and why he wasn't at war inside his mind. I thought that maybe this man was blind, but he could see, he just chose to be happy in this world full of misery. He doesn't care what people think, he seemed to be a bit unclean. He lives inside a hole most likely, at least who could be so happy? For the people who walked past, they scoffed at him and laughed. He may just be a bit dull, or maybe he just found a way to be full. I asked him if he needed help, he said he was fine. He then turned to me to say, " hey you seem a bit gray." I was just having a normal day, but it seems I did feel this way. A bit of pain in my life, a passerby who was not shy. To ask me a stranger of all things, how I could be so unhappy. Unhappy? Me? I'm sure you can't be this full of glee. He then said to me," how can you not see the beauty?" "Where?" I asked. "the beauty of the trees, and that of the bees in Belize." What on earth this strange man is to say he can see bees in Belize. "We aren't in Belize, there are no trees, were in the city full of chemical debris." I said with a scoff, an awful scoff. He said to me, " why can't you see the bees in Belize?" I told him I'm not crazy and that is why. He still kept trying to make me see those darn bees in Belize. I stopped him there and told him I could no longer share an explanation as to why there are no trees and how I just can not see those bees in Belize. I walked away into my shade, he followed me under the tree. He spoke to me and said, " I'm happy because I do belive this photo has the picture of the bees in Belize." He continued," I know you could not see these bees, because these are bees in Belize." He went on to tell me a story," These bees are pretty neat you see, they give happy memories." " I do not try to be happy I am happy, because I have seen these bees in Belize, I wanted someone to share this with, and you were the first person to speak to me about the things that I can see." He seemed so crazy at the start, that I had realized he was just full of heart. A soul not yet dampened by the sad things. He lived a life that was so free, this stranger who was so nice to me helped me see some greenery. Above me was a tree, all that I could see was the skyscrapers and painted streets. The light was gone, but now I see that kindness isn't quite lost at sea. This stranger could have been mean, but instead he shared a thing with me, a cherished memory, his trip where he saw the bees in the trees in Belize.
Christmas Thoughts: Tis The Season To Be Kind
This year has been a difficult year due to the pandemic, and this holiday season has been a bit more stress inducing than usual for the majority of us. Some peoples world has been turned upside down due to the struggles we have been facing through this pandemic. Even though there is a whirlwind of upset for all of us, please don't forget to be kind. There are people who are facing challenges that may not be seen from the outside, and when we are wrapped up in our minds about our struggles we seem to forget that.