From feeling blue to full-on depressive episodes, everyone has felt some sort of negative, sad emotion, though the difference between being sad and depressed are very great. It's not just depression either, it's anxiety, it's bipolar disorder, it's obsessive-compulsive disorder. I've heard from countless people, time and time again, about their problem with being taken seriously when it comes to them having a mental illness. I've also had this problem, being a funny, outgoing person, people didn't think I was depressed they told me "Oh, it's okay, it'll just pass!" It, in fact, did not pass. Let's just start with a little background story.
"I want to know you, the real you. I'm sorry for acting like this but I don't know how to act in this situation, and I know it seems weird I took you out of the office for this but this is new and if this project doesn't work out, I don't need the disappoint from my employees," he looks down, disappointed in himself even.
There's this huge stigma around losing your virginity and how you need to save it for that right person. Who ever said that you need to be with the person you're going to have sex with for the rest of your life? Why is a thing that women are to wait for the right person but for a man it doesn't matter? People always told me to wait for the right guy, that my virginity was something to be won, that the guy I chose to take it had to be important to me. Being a teenager, of course, I did the exact opposite of what they said.
When someone doesn't feel loved, they might go looking for it. They could even make the mistake of looking for it in the wrong places with the wrong people. It just happens that's exactly what I did. Everyone makes mistakes and mine was falling for a person l knew I would never have. What is it with feeling a rush when you do something wrong but exciting? Why do we feel so powerful while doing a thing you know you'll eventually regret? It's these questions I ask myself to this day. I no longer feel anything for what happened, but I still wonder about it.