Have you ever found yourself on auto pilot? Have you submitted yourself to just going through the motions of life, but not actually living?
2016 was a year of emotions. It was not the best. There was loss beyond comprehension and sadness that still lingers. November is the month people take the time to say what they are grateful for; this is great. It gives inspiration and happiness to many but in 2016, that didn't seem to be the case. So many times I saw these memes talking about how horrible the year was, and no matter how accurate this may be, I did not share them because even though it was not the best year for me, I have a few things that I don't want to forget about from that year. I saw happiness in friendly gatherings to celebrate life and death, and I witnessed friends begin mother and fatherhood.
Try as I may, I have to wonder, does the pain and darkness ever end?
To the people that do not understand. When a person is suffering from a condition such as an autoimmune disorder, it is easy to label them as lazy. Laziness is defined as; disinclined to activity or exertion: not energetic or vigorous. Well as you can see this would be the correct label except we are not disinclined, we want to go places and have fun and even go to work on a regular basis (for those who can not). Basically, we are stuck in a body that refuses to work, all your energy is put into moving your body and not at a pace that is considered anywhere near fast. Morning activities wear you down, believe it or not, for a man or woman that has one of the many autoimmune disorders out there, just taking a shower can make you fatigued and uncoordinated. Simple tasks like laundry, dishes, walking the dog, and making a bed sometimes seem like you are Sisyphus, always pushing that boulder up hill and never making progress, but instead of being bound to hell, we are bound to a broken body.