Emotional confusion
Its hard to fall for you when my heart is torn, torn into something.. a feeling, ive never felt in my life. I thought I loved someone who tore me into a million pieces all for their own selfish games. Found an ammusement out of it somehow, watch me fall further and further into the darkness and they were the evil smile i saw while walking further into the shadow who was swallowing me whole, everything i had, was gone. For a moment i thought he was my light.. but in reality, he's the one who destroyed me. I am not this weak, insecure woman he pounded into my brain but yet an exhilirating woman who is strong, independent and trusted by many. I am others light in this dark world, when all falls i am smart and resourceful, i am forgiven and protected by my own love for myself.. I am my own hero, warrior and knight. For a moment i was lost in your eyes and everything hemade me feel , drained away but when a small amount of information of you surfaced up, my version of you crashed and nothing felt the same. I began to get in my head, focus on the negative, get distant when i just wanted to crawl into your arms and have you be mine forever, what is wrong with me? but then i look at you and i get lost all over again.