Dekker Christopher
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Derealization
Imagine, if you will, completing a task. Let’s make it a very simple task: brushing your teeth—a very mundane, everyday task that we all do. You wet your toothbrush, squeeze out the gunk, and begin to brush. You rinse out your mouth and begin your day, or end, depending on when you brush your teeth. (You should really do both, but I’m not here to preach.) Now, imagine wondering if you really did brush your teeth. You remember being in the bathroom, you remember brushing, but the whole time you were doing it, you felt as if you were watching yourself do it. You were looking through a window at yourself, or watching yourself on tv. You run your tongue over your teeth. Yes, you know you brushed them, but it doesn’t feel like it was you. Yes, sometimes this happens when you are so used to doing something that your brain goes into autopilot. Imagine, from the time you wake up to when you can finally get some sleep, feeling like this. You have this feeling of being disconnected, of having a sensory fog over every aspect of your life. This, my friends, is derealization, something I’ve been struggling with for the past ten years. Now you get to hear my story. Well, at least, I think it’s my story.
By Dekker Christopher7 years ago in Psyche