Darrell General II
I enjoyed reading and writing as an adolescent, but I found myself astray from my passion as I grew older attempting to appease others and be amongst social groups I had no place. I'm getting reacquainted with my roots; times are changing.
The past won’t anchor me I will live out my dreams. My hopes will blossom into blessings, believe in me. Who will be walking with me? I wonder who will be by my side.
The pain of my past has no business in the present. I can’t live with hope for the future if I can’t allow myself to let go of the past. Growing is the byproduct of shedding the hull of our former selves. Letting go of our former short comings is the only way to allow ourselves to be uplifted and see that we are greater than our faults. Reconciling with myself is a healthy practice, restoring inner peace and harmony. Love for myself is paramount to have external healthy relationships for if I can’t love and respect myself how can I with just consciousness extend this grace to others. I take several moments out of each day to sit with my thoughts and circumvent my habits and practices. Placing myself under scope with the same lens I use when scrutinizing others, I must hold myself to the same accountability that I seem to condemn others to. If I feel sorrow from chastising myself and don’t wish to feel this despondency, why should I subject others to its influence. I make plenty of mistakes because like others I am no perfect being, I am no greater or less than the next. I make effort to repent and rectify my mistakes, with the practice of seeking clarity I am growing closer to be the best version of myself. What do I stand for? Without sound principles I will allow myself to be susceptible to unjust notions. What efforts will realign peace and harmony to be the cornerstone of our lives? Do I uphold respect and consideration for myself and others? I love the peace that great bonds bring into my life, the rapport supports stability mentally and emotionally, being a part of a group having others to share with and seek advisement from for ordeals that may arise so that trying times may not claim me and hold me a victim of stress and depression. People who hold me accountable for my mistakes without chastising and belittling me, but with encouragement to improve, grow to be better and make more suitable decisions for a prospering lifestyle. I make strides for understanding, to not pass judgement on dissimilarity, I encourage within myself and others compassion to be more empathetic and patient towards others. Like those who came before and those after me in this lifetime, I have been through many trials & tribulations and they will continue as I progress through life. I seek God in my times of need, sometimes forgetting that he is always with me. I work through my hardships with the Lord by my side whether I acknowledge him or not. I am growing to keep his grace and support in the forefront of my mind and give him thanks and praise daily for everything that he has blessed me with.
Should I Believe
The due date is arriving It’s time for something to finally change Feels unusual, theirs a slight discomfort in my brain
Moment in Time
Felt like a fight for my love I was working in a club Everyday a new face lusting after me wondering what my intentions might be
Room full of growth but the walls barely know Painted my story on the ceiling as if a mirror hung above My art's a reflection of my feelings an escape from all my dealings
Lines Have Edges
Feeling like I’m on a peak but my body isn’t where my mind sees Wishing that the energy would comfort me Trusting something you haven’t seen is hard on belief
Alive but feeling like I'm deprived of a life Wish adventure was etched in my chest Light makes my heart grow, at night I get so coldBeds aren’t as cozy when you’re left all aloneHad my mind in triathlon chasing after youNow I’ve switched, realigning my moodBrains in tune my heart got the newsWhen we’re speaking do you get the proof?You still make my heart moveBut it doesn’t beat for youWrong tune momma sad newsI’m no longer blind paying false duesTook some time to breakthroughIgnored every clue despite the bluesHeart still takes care I share love with youThat’s what best friends do.But I'm fiending for a new mood
I’ve been burdened with a big heart or, so it has felt for so long I have genuine love for all, I help lift them up and yet I fall Sometimes afraid of communication but I wish I could open and divulge it all I’ve always been more vulnerable than I should allow Love is a powerful mating call My mouth can be an intimate spout, hand me a cup while I’m pouring it out I need something real, erase all my fears I can’t live with the doubt One day shall a heart take a leap of faith with me We’ve all acquired baggage from lowering our guards I understand the hidden query but my pursuits not a game Playing hide and seek, your truth doesn’t speak Ease my curiosity open for me Let your thoughts flow with the breeze I’m praying your heart doesn’t leave Taking emotions in but won’t thieve So unpredictable like the leaves when autumn sneeze I try to keep my heart in the right place Tired of judging others by the things we all display I can’t be the only one willing to live out a dream I’m patient but my faith still wavers on attaining my Queen You can have your freedom and be on a team We can be in different places, work at different paces My heart and mind have been through changes I’ve welcomed growth and appreciated the phases Who shall truly understand, unless we switch places. Silence my mind Abolish my troubles Rest my weary heart I want love Nothing to fancy Something real Something natural Effort shown undemanding Time spent uninviting desire shared coinciding I’ll boldly share my life no more hiding