Have you ever woke up surrounded by mountains of bills and debt that you have no idea how you're going to pay? Have you ever looked into your own future and thought there was no way you would ever be out of debt, or buy a home, or live comfortably in your retirement? I had that moment not long ago. My life needs a total money makeover. I am 35, my husband is 37, we have 4 children, ages 15, 13, 5, and 3. We are in debt to the tune of $111,000 with student loans, medical bills, and a car loan making up the vast majority. We, unlike many Americans, have 0 credit card debt so at least that is a good thing! We don't make a ton of money our combined income is just over $42,000 a year. Upon having this realization I felt like getting out of debt will take forever, years and years making minimum payments every month.
Cheesecake is second only to my husband in things that I adore (and the kids... of course)! There are about a million different things that I can do with a cheesecake, but I didn't always love making it as much as I do now. I believe that food is one of the few things that has the ability to connect people of all different walks of life. The porn star and the preacher both love a good piece of cheesecake!
Nine short but long months ago, my husband and I embarked on a journey that I never would have imagined that we would ever begin. We started working nights as internet cam models. It was a lot of work to get everything started and it was a little intimidating to begin with, but after a couple of weeks and many kind words from the loyal following that was beginning, he and I were both more comfortable in front of the camera. There were even opportunities for me to do side work writing stories for certain customers and do personalized videos, for a special fee of course!
That adorable couple in the picture above is my husband and I. We are just like every other couple. We work hard to pay for our home and take care of our kids. We both work full time 40 hour a week jobs, we are both college educated. Average, respectable people living an average and respectable life. There is just one small difference, we are also online sex cam models. Yeah, you read that right; hard working, college graduate parents are working nights in the adult industry. I want to share the experience with people. It's not at all what I thought it would be like.
My heart will always miss you. You read it like a book. With you there was no mystery no need for even words. We walked each other through a lot, the hardest of hard things. Divorce, loss, and sadness we gave each other wings.
I love the beach. There is something so amazingly calm about the feel of the sand between your toes and the sound of the water. Calm isn't something that I have honestly had much of in my life. I keep saying life is like a roller coaster full of ups and downs twists and turns. As much as everyone's roller coaster is different they are all the same.