Chandra Davis
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Opening The Blinds
How old are you? I ask myself, as I stare in the mirror, in ironic surprise, with my mouth wide open and hand on my cheek. I mutter I can't believe that I lived this long! I can’t believe that my children are as old as they are. Time flies. I laugh at myself as, I find myself calling my older sister who is 11 months my senior and asking her how old she is, and she, in turn, begins to laugh, saying, I truly stopped counting, until someone reminds me. Like you. We calculate and both say, Nooo! that can’t be! It even gets funnier, when My stubbornness to accept reality, leads me to call my mother. Every time, she lovingly scolds me by letting out a shame on you sigh and saying, “ooh”, you should know how old you are. My goodness, you know you are catching up to me." It opens the heavy blinds that were darkening my perception of the blessings of growing older, and it allows me to exhale and tease my mom back, while admiring how she remains ever young. The contagious laughter allows the light to come in. And that’s peace for me. Believe it or not, as I journeyed through my life I have come to realize starting around the age of 40, that I shut out the thought of aging, which began my moments of amnesia. While in all actuality what was going on with me was that I purposefully closed my ears and eyes to the confirmation of my increasing age. Why? What caused me to have certain years of regret or years of denying my birthday to come. Time? Yes, time. Time flies!
By Chandra Davis3 years ago in Motivation