When I was younger, I often felt like I was "too much" for everyone, while simultaneously feeling "not enough" for anyone. I was desperate for love and belonging, and assumed a lack of those feelings had to be attributed to my personal shortcomings. I desperately wanted to fix whatever problems were preventing me from achieving unconditional love and unquestioning belonging.
A Day on Martha's Vineyard
Crashing waves and summer sun on the stone-studded beaches of the Cape. The summer season just begun, children smiling, mouths agape.
Healing From My Eating Disorder
A few years ago, I was sitting through a stuffy Psychosocial Interventions class at the University of St. Augustine in my graduate occupational therapy program. We were taking turns leading simulated psychology groups with an assigned general diagnosis, and creating group tasks to practice interventions. I was participating as a pretend patient in an eating disorder support group, creating magazine collages about our experience with an eating disorder. As I was uncapping the Elmer's glue stick to paste the glossy cut-out of a scale onto my construction paper, I froze. Suddenly, my nervous system was in hyperdrive. I felt my pulse skyrocket as I became dizzy, shaky, and disoriented.
Wait, moms are humans?
When I was little, I saw my mom as super-human! She knew everything, she could do anything, and she had life all figured out. Wow! I could not wait to finally pass through the archway to adulthood so that I, too, could have these secrets and gifts bestowed upon me.
Headphones & Heartbreak
The year was 2003, and I was 13 years old, and on the precipice of my burgeoning teenagehood! My body was changing, my hormones were raging, and I was about as awkward as they come. Clutching the straps of my new ice blue Jansport and beaming through a mouthful of aqua and purple braces, I walked into my first day at Blanchard Middle School.
Living in Rainbows
Being so young, living in rainbows, Unaware of the critical, prying eyes. Singing and dancing and playing all day, Free in the moment, unknowingly wis