Resolutions? New Year, 2020 I want to stay lit! My subconscious I am wrestling with. Questioning, who is the Narcissist or Borderline personality that fills this room. Almost a year in and we still met up despite the truths, we choose not to question or answer. Who I fuck or who he fucks. We just know we commit to the pleasures we give one another. We are in our own created world. Unconventional, as it has been. City to City, Suite to Sweet loving caresses in the sheets that we own not. Never utter words of I love you. We still love bomb one another, when the essence speaks and we decide to listen.
She rode me until I hit the biggest orgasm, yet as I was feeling the tip of her sword on the back of my neck. I began to scream out in fear over ecstasy. I wanted to be released. I tried to rip her hand from around my neck but couldn’t. My arms, legs, and chests began to feel numb; heavy. I could not move and my scream became a muffling whisper….
Umi's smile was so infectious, I had seen it several times through comment/ pic post within the group. This semi- private Facebook group for local lesbians was a random place of interest on my Facebook experience; due to the fact most of topics of discussions are immature and just dull. I was rarely mentally stimulated with the discussion post but I would post a few pics out of half interest of the responses. However, Umi's pic released my cynical attitude and I gave in and commented with simple emojis, yes the silly one with the hearts and the other with the tongue poking out. Umi caught my attention. She was visibly much much younger; hmm.... the same age as Mateo; my recent Milk Baby. I had for the most part of my love relationships dealt with older women or men. Umi was closer in age to my daughter. Yet, I wanted to probe more to see what she was into and all about.
Mateo and Umi were my true adventures that I chose, to take on the whimsical ride. Polar opposite; yet they both spark my bi-sexuality and liberated my libido. Both were fresh and vigorous at twenty-six of age, almost half of my age. They were seeking to play the game of D & S, literally to metaphorically.