I get asked regularly what it’s like to live with anxiety and despite how much I try to explain it there simply is no short answer. Anxiety is not the same in every person, it is also not the same everyday, every hour, every minute and every second. I have been living alongside my anxiety for years so I can’t remember a time where I was living without it. My anxiety is such an essential role in my life and when I get asked “What is it like living with anxiety?” my first thought is always ‘ I don’t know, it’s the same as I’ve always lived’ which can be a bit confusing at times even for me.
It started off as a normal day. I woke up, got ready for school, grabbed my keys and started my car, picked up one of my close friends from her house right up the street, then we went down the same street to pick up another friend. Soon, the three of us headed to school; what I hadn’t realized was that I needed gas. When I did realize it, we decided to stop by for gas. If I had known what it would bring, I would’ve let it run out instead.
While you were the one who made my heart hurt at forbidden hours of the dark night, you were also my comfort when I couldn’t stand to be alone with my own thoughts
One of the best things in life is not simply a thing
You can’t tell me kids don’t have it hard, too. Sure, our struggles are different and almost nothing compared to the average adult struggling to pay taxes on time and making payments before the end of the month, but our struggles are still valid and our struggles are very real to many of us, regardless of how others may perceive them. I and many others like me will face many hardships where we are. These hardships range from stressing over next Friday's quiz or asking that cute boy for his Snapchat to worrying over prom dates or submitting applications and resumes before deadlines. At least that's what we all want you and want many of our parents, friends, and doctors to think and see.
My heavy heart, with every heaving breath