Angel Allsop
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First Time Mom Chronicles II
Just like that time has flown by and my little girl is already 6 months old. It has been quite the roller coaster but I wouldn’t trade it for the world. I am truly blessed to get to stay home with my baby girl and watch every milestone and see her grow each and every day. Some days are definitely harder than others but one good day makes up for the previous bad days. I am starting to get the hang of this mom thing.
By Angel Allsop4 months ago in Families
First Time Mom Chronicles
Two pink lines Growing up I was one of those people who enjoyed taking care of older people probably because I helped take care of both my great grandparents. I never really had baby fever or saw myself having kids but that moment when I missed my period and went out to by a pregnancy test I knew my whole life could possibly change. Once I saw those two pink lines I was flooded with emotions. A little bit of worry, excitement, and terrified. We were not trying but we also were ready if it did happen. We were both in shock but also overjoyed. We knew our lives were about to change.
By Angel Allsop8 months ago in Families
Postpartum and Month 1
Hello mommas, you now have blessed this world with a beautiful baby. It is a bitter sweet moment when they place that baby upon your chest. In one hand you feel excited that you are finally meeting the little one you have been growing for the past 9 months and then on the other hand you realize you now have to share them with the rest of the world. Those little movements that only you could feel connecting the two of you is now the hands you hold. If you are lucky enough to have great nurses your hospital stay will feel like time has stopped. Days go by and it is finally time to bring the new baby home. You will never be so nervous and more aware of your surroundings like you are on that drive home. During that first drive with your baby in the backseat is when things finally hit you. The world clock has started again and we are back to real life. It was a little overwhelming to know that it is all on me now and that I don’t have nurses to help me when I am unsure. That moment was the first time I cried since baby girl was born and believe me it wouldn’t be the last. As you continue to read my postpartum story please remember that every women is different and have different experiences when it comes to anything postpartum.
By Angel Allsop9 months ago in Journal
Pregnancy
A part of many women’s lives is pregnancy, growing a human inside of her body for 9 months then nurturing it to adulthood for the next 18 years. The circle of life. Many people say pregnancy is beautiful and others will disagree but we never know what exactly they mean. Each pregnancy is different just like every child and mother of the world is different. The things everyone doesn’t like to talk about are the hardest parts of this journey as a women and now as a mother. The constant worry if we are eating enough or eating the right foods, or if we are getting enough or too much sleep because everyone tells you, once the baby is here say goodbye to it. The worry of not feeling your baby move or kick when they are supposed to or checking the toilet paper every time you go the bathroom just to make sure nothing is wrong. Most people will say it’s understandable, you’re growing a baby and it takes a toll on your body but we never talk about our minds. The amount of uncontrollable emotions is tremendous. You can go from laughing to crying within seconds and not know why. You can also go from feeling loved to feeling completely alone. Unfortunately no matter if you have a wonderful partner or supportive friends and family it’s inevitable to feel alone at some point during your pregnancy.
By Angel Allsop10 months ago in Journal
What’s the dream?
When do you first decide what to do with your life? When you are little every teacher you have must ask you the question of who do you want to be when you grow up? Unfortunately, our small little brains either say what our parents do for work or go way out there and say we want to be a doctor or a pilot. I wish we still believed in ourselves as much as we did when we were younger. As we grow up and get older we start to think about the things we enjoy doing most like hanging out with friends, playing our favorite sport, or watching our favorite shows. We don’t think about our future until towards our last year of high school. In high school there are many programs you can apply to including medical, auto, graphic design, and so much more. Here is where you decide what field of work you would enjoy.
By Angel Allsop4 years ago in Journal
Self Love, Passion, and Depression
About six months ago I thought I was happy, I thought I had found what I wanted to do in life. I had just gotten into EMT school and that was the first step in the career I wanted to be in, so I thought. Then once that semester was over I got a job at an ambulance company and that was my second step in achieving my goal to be a flight medic. I worked at that company for about three and a half months before I started to get this depressed feeling. Now by this time I had failed my national exam to become an EMT and was only a first responder at this company which means I was just a driver. I thought that this job was not right for me and sitting around for twelve hours a day waiting for a call was the source of my depression and the reason I was so unmotivated to do things. After I quit, I started to figure out that the job was not the source at all. I went back full time at the restaurant I was working at and thought that feeling of depression would go away and for a little while it did until it came back. I started arguing with my boyfriend a little more and was negative about a lot of things. I finally realized that the source of my depression was myself. I found that I didn’t really love myself and who I was anymore. I didn’t tell anyone about the way I was feeling until recently. I want to take back my life and get back to loving myself again. When I talk about loving myself I don’t just mean physically but mentally too. I have let my mind go and it is a constant battle of what am I going to do now. I feel as if I have no real purpose in life anymore and no I don’t mean that in a suicidal stand point but in a stand still point of view. I need to step out of my comfort zone to somehow find my motivation, courage, and drive in life. I sit back and really think about what I have in life and I mean I am thankful I have a roof over my head and food to eat but the only people I really have is my loving but small family, my best friend, and my boyfriend. I don’t talk to many people, so I guess I’m more of an introvert and I haven’t found any hobbies that I am passionate about. I write every so often but it’s mostly to get things off my chest and mind. I am not sure what to do anymore. I think I need to get away from life for a bit and focus more on my selfcare and really learn to love myself because how can someone else love me if I am so stuck in my own pity world. I can’t even express how I feel anymore I just end up crying about everything because I feel that there is so much pressure in my head that I can’t even explain why I am feeling the way I do. For the past few days in the morning I have been listening to speeches about selflove and passions and it has opened my eyes quite a bit, but how am I supposed to achieve that. I feel like this is my first step, acknowledging how I feel and getting it out of my head because it feels like I am drowning. I want to find my purpose, my love, my drive, my passion, and learn to love again. The only thing, is that it all starts with finding myself first.
By Angel Allsop4 years ago in Motivation
Mornings
Morning People I never quite understood what makes someone a morning person other than that they like getting up before the sun and feel good doing it. I have watched countless videos on morning routines, how to wake up early, and how to have a productive morning and yet I just can't do it. The few mornings that I have gotten up before the sun, I love the view of the sun rising into the sky while having my coffee, but it doesn't motivate me enough to do it every day. In many of the videos that I have seen of people getting up at five in the morning and accomplishing a list of things makes me want to do the same but why does it have to be so hard.
By Angel Allsop4 years ago in Motivation
Goals for the New Year
The Look Back First and foremost, you have to look back on everything that had happened this previous year. Decide on what things, routines, and people work best for you and what didn't work so well. Jot things down on paper and see what this past year was like. No matter if it was the worst or best year, you need this look back to set a foundation for a better year.
By Angel Allsop5 years ago in Motivation
Make Yourself Happy!
I keep telling myself that life gets better and everything happens for a reason, but most days I'm not so sure that is true. I have been through a lot throughout my childhood and I do believe those tragic moments in my life made me who I am today. Sometimes that is enough for me to be happy but how do you really make yourself happy?
By Angel Allsop5 years ago in Motivation
What Is Life Really Like After High School?
High school is and was the most social part of my life. In high school, you were able to make friends in the matter of a couple seconds of entering a class. Some friends you make freshman year stick with you until senior year. But others move on to better or worse things. You think that life is difficult now, just wait. I know the last year of high school is stressful; having to apply for colleges, and the waiting for the acceptance, and working to pay your bills but it all works out eventually. That moment you walk across the stage at the end of senior year on graduation night, your entire life changes.
By Angel Allsop6 years ago in Education