This past week brought up something that I haven't experienced in a while: a panic attack. It felt like my entire body was on fire, I was short of breath, and I felt like I couldn't move or think. It had been a long time since I had a panic attack. Since it had been some time, I didn't really remember how to handle it. It was an experience that felt so foreign, yet so familiar. So what did I do? I dug up some old notes I luckily had on my phone and mustered up the energy I had left to try and come down from what I was feeling. It wasn't easy, but eventually it all worked out. I thought that since I'm sure I'm not the only person experiencing this right now (or ever), I'd share my 5 simple ways to soothe a panic attack that work for me. I hope they work for you, too.
It’s not easy to talk about depression, but here it goes. Depression is seems to be such a taboo topic in the world, and it’s about time that we make it easier and more fluid to talk about. We have an entire month dedicated to mental health awareness. If only people were open and honest about what they're facing. I've decided that I've had enough of hiding my mental health issues from the world and that now is the perfect time to talk about them. I have gone through some serious depressive moments during lockdown. Whether it’s waking up feeling like it’s “Groundhog Day” again, or having it be 2pm on a Wednesday and feeling like I don’t have any purpose. This is a time when feeling our emotions can get too heavy for us, especially when we really haven’t been able to do much. Being in isolation can be extremely difficult as well. I've become so much more of a social butterfly since moving to California that reverting to being in my home alone has become increasingly hard. Recently, I’ve felt this depression set in. I was sitting on my couch and started looking around. I had laundry everywhere, dirty dishes in the sink, and hadn’t washed my hair in three days. I realized then that I was depressed. I was sad that my life felt like it was going around in circles. Everyday has the same routine, but that’s not how “normal” life works. I started crying uncontrollably and didn't know what to do with myself. It was such a crazy and emotional moment, but also a massive breakthrough for me.
The new moon is upon us! Just like it does every month, the new moon has it's phases. One very important moon phase is the New Moon. Now, I know what you're thinking: "Al, we know you live in California, but did you really have to go all 'California' on us"? The answer is, what does that even mean? Well, when it comes to the people who have asked me this genuinely, it's that I'm getting super in touch with reading about how the moon can affect our attitudes and our lives. It's actually pretty eye-opening and I recommend you read into it. However, if you're reading this then I also think you're already aware of what I'm talking about. Anyway, when there is a new moon, I like to do some different rituals. I'm not sacrificing anything or sitting in the middle of my apartment, surrounded by candles and speaking in tongues. A new moon signifies a time for new beginnings and to take a deep dive into our inner selves. If you're interested in trying this out, here are five of my favorite New Moon rituals.
Let's face it: all of us face some kind of bullshit on a daily basis. It's either from being at work or getting a super weird message that throws off your whole day. I've been there way too recently than I care to admit, but hey, bullshit happens. It's how we deal with it that really makes us be able to move on from it and continue to live our lives. It sometimes blows my mind how I can hold onto something way longer, or think I'm completely over something because I told myself to be over it, but it pops it's ugly head up six months later. I used to think boxing up the bullshit and pretending it didn't affect me would work. Compartmentalize and deal with it later. Guess what? Didn't work! So what is there to do now?