I am most thankful for you this year. Why you ask? I finally have found an answer. I am thankful for you.... Not because you sucked me down deeper and into your hole that filled with thoughts of no longer wanting to wake up and face he tomorrow that will continue to come even when your at your lowest of lows, not because you laughed at the sight of my tears after losing the only parent I had left to a non curable evil.... cancer. Not because you’ve introduced yourself into the homes of my fellow neighbors during this time of deadly virus, not because I have lost so much as many of us have, my home, my steady income.... and the one thing that led me to you, my mind.
Ok so it’s no big secret that from time to time a woman will fall head over heels for a man before realizing that his mother is what every woman dreads. Don’t get me wrong, not every situation is the same because not all mothers are this way. But then there are those who are. Thankfully my current mother in law is absolutely amazing. I would be lost without her and I never thought it was possible. Every single mother in law before her were the polar opposite. They were nosey, overbearing, rude, judgmental and narcissistic. They loathed me and im all about giving back what is given. After awhile, I was a mother in laws worst nightmare right back.
Growing up as children we see movies that put an image in our heads of what love is. We see princes rescuing a damsel in distress and sweeping her off of her feet then they run off into happily ever after. But as you grow older and your exposed to more of the worlds reality, you see that indeed most of what you’ve seen was a fairytale. In today’s world, loving someone with no infidelity or lies or lack of communication seems like a far away reach. But we were all brought up in such different environments, so this will most likely not apply to everyone. While some women will grow up and marry a childhood friend, or a police officer, maybe a lawyer or school teacher... I found attraction and love in a man most people would label a criminal. My entire life I was growing up in an environment that was surrounded by the gang life, guns and drugs, alcohol, sex. Parties and getting into fights was just another day in my world, this was a normal thing. I was covered in tattoos, my arms, my face and my hands before the age of 20. And as I got older I began to see how others who were different from me, from us.... would look at us or what they would think. And this was the beginning of a new life for me. I told myself, even bough his is all you know you can still do great things and still remember where you car from. I went to school to become a dental assistant. Even with people telling me no one in their right mind would hire a female full of tattoos, but thy were wrong. The appearance of my body did not change th person I was inside. Th professionalism and people skills that I had. And I got a job and have been here for many years. All I was missing was a good man.