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Writing Sucks

Why I Write

By Justin HigginsPublished 7 months ago 3 min read
Writing Sucks
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The writing process is exhausting. Do not get me wrong, I love to write, but many times I get the impression that I am not good enough. I have been told by friends and loved ones that I am a good writer, so why is that not enough? This is a question that I constantly find myself revisiting.

Writing is most authentic when it is done for oneself. I do write for myself, but there is always a haunting voice in my ear, “Will others like it?” When I post stories to my page without obtaining much recognition it hurts my confidence. It should not but it does. When I enter my stories into contests and I do not win, again, it hurts my confidence. This is not meant to complain about not getting what I think I deserve, but it is more to notice just how difficult the writing process is.

I will always write about what I love and know best, but when others are not connecting, what is the point in continuously expressing myself. This creates in me a posture of overthinking, and when I start to overthink, I begin doubting myself, “Should I write about something else?” In this way, I start to believe people will only listen to me when I write about something that society expects me to write about. I then hide my true self for the fear of being rejected, while becoming submerged in pessimism and negativity.

Becoming stuck in my head is precisely where writing has become challenging and not fun. Though life is full of challenges, delays, and confusion, many humans are not comfortable sitting in their pain. Most people, including myself, do everything they can to run away from their distress. However, that internal discomfort is where healing begins.

I write about the pain I feel, and it does bring a certain amount of peace even if it is fleeting. Surprisingly enough, over time it is because I have written about my pain that I have been able to see the sun again. This has been an arduous process where I have encountered loneliness and discomfort. Yet, organizing my thoughts through words is where the healing has occurred. I write about romance, music, and history as well as my experiences, thoughts, and feelings. I write about these topics effortlessly by leaning into the joy, stress, anxiety, happiness, fear, ambition, confusion, guilt, and tension I am experiencing.

Even though writing can be a powerful tool to transition out of pain, it can also serve as a deterrent to the writing process. Many times, it has been difficult to write about anything other than how I am thinking or feeling. Usually, this takes the form of journaling or poetry. I have not written a short story, a form of writing I enjoy immensely, in more than a year. I too have not thought of any concrete storylines for future projects. When I mention the “writing process,” I am referring to the collective development of a project from its initial conception to its conclusion. This includes free association, grammar, and the editing process.

When it comes to writing, it is best to simply start. If anyone is like me, one’s head is filled with many ideas, and if one does not start nothing will get finished. Therefore, the idea is not to worry about structure or flow. It is only to start getting thoughts out of one’s head and onto paper. When this happens, one can usually begin to find a direction they want to go, but that only happens when the first step is taken, writing.

The best way to learn grammatical concepts is to read and write. It only becomes habitual when one makes a consistent habit out of reading and writing. If one wants to get into better physical shape, then slowly building up exercise routines is a great starting point. It is the same with understanding grammar. Start by reading books, enjoyable ones, and not just skimming, but actually reading them through. Then practice by journaling or free associating.

Editing material, I think, is the most difficult part of the process. Once again, the more it is done the better one becomes. With a combination of reading and becoming more confident in understanding grammar, one begins to recognize when sentences are too wordy. When paragraphs can be removed altogether or moved around to support another section.


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Justin Higgins

Hey everyone!!! I’m looking forward to being inspired. I have always enjoyed the creative aspect of writing but only recently over the past two years have a seriously started engaging in it. I write short stories & poetry.

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Comments (3)

  • Zayn 5 months ago

    How can I contact you?

  • Christian Bass7 months ago

    At the beginning you mixed two different tasks/jobs. Writing ends after the first revision, the first editing is done. With the final editing process, comes the publishing process, that has nothing to do with writing (yet without writing before it is impossible to do). Do not mix up writing and publishing, then writing becomes much easier. The reader can be the devil for us. I mean, we enjoy good reviews, but we also fear the bad ones. Things get easier, when we focus on the purpose why we write and what we want to archive with it. Tbh, at the beginning every readers review got to me, the bad ones destroyed me in many ways, but I learned to accept their opinion and I also learned, even when only the bad ones come out of their shell, I need to focus on the total number of reads/sells and put that into perspective. And it seems to be human nature nowadays, that we prefer to be out loud when we have nothing good to say. Destroying seems to be more joy, than supporting or building. Writing the first draft should be free of all rules. Then writing comes along more easier. Especially with the publishing process and the readers in mind, it will kill the flow and makes everything harder. That is why I said, both writing & publishing should be thought of as two different jobs.

  • Rowan Finley 7 months ago

    Yeah, sometimes writing is exhausting for me too, but if I didn’t write, I’d surely explode 🤯

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