New Fear Unlocked!

When I was nine years old, I was certain about so many things. My ideas felt solid, unshakable, and clear. But as I grew older and stronger, I began to notice that my once "iron-clad" state of mind was slowly starting to melt away.

I used to believe that the most intelligent people lived in America. I had a firm mindset that grades were the only thing that mattered to a student’s success. I told myself that if I ever had a career in the future, it would be as a doctor.

I also believed that dogs were the only creatures capable of making my soul vanish if they came near me. I was terrified of them, convinced that nothing else in my life could scare me as much as dogs did. I used to dream of dogs biting my leg, waking up screaming for help. If I saw a dog on the street, I wouldn’t dare pass through. It became etched in my young mind:

Dogs are my biggest fear.

I soon turned 10, and before I knew it, I was 16. So much has changed in my life—people have changed, and new faces have entered my circle. If nothing else remained constant, my fears changed too.

Even now, as I write this, I’m still terrified of dogs. But over the past few years, I unlocked a new fear:

The fear of losing my relationships.

The fear of losing my loved ones.

You might have read books of many different genres, but I’ve met people of different genres. I choose to stay connected with those who truly deserve a bond, no matter their “genre.” I’m even friends with people who have the shortest temper—it doesn’t mean I don’t value them.

Anger, love, hate... these are all human emotions.

So why don’t we allow humans the space to be human? I often see people ending relationships just because someone has flaws or doesn’t meet their expectations. But for me, it’s not that simple.

I fear losing my relationships, my loved ones, just because of imperfections. That’s my biggest fear.

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My family, my friends... These are the people I wanna spend my life with. Life changes! Sure, it does. But I want the change with them.

As much as I feared dogs, one never bit me.

I almost want to hold on to this fear, as if it could somehow ensure that the people I love will never leave me.

But sadly, a dog may never bite me in my lifetime—while my relationships and the people I cherish won’t stay forever.

Still, I refuse to let my fear win this one. Never.

I won my race; If not my fear— Against the Dogs

I want to win, Again this time—I fear the loss!

Author's note:

Losing family is at the top of the list of my people. More precisely, my parents. And then all my friends.

What is your UNLOCKED FEAR? I'd love to know~