Dear Mama

Mama, I can’t say I love you

Just know that I do

All the wars I fought have destroyed me

I’m not the person that you once knew

The roads I’ve walked, no man should see

And parts of me were left behind

It’s why I don’t see beauty anymore

There’s only darkness on my mind

Mama Mama, can’t you see

What the military has done to me

Mama Mama, I need you to see

I’m not who I used to be

All the feelings that I ever had, have been destroyed.

My emotions all but erased

I really don’t like the way I feel

what I’ve become I completely hate

So Mama, I beg you

Don’t look at me with those eye’s

I remember the days when I felt something

But now I’m just broken inside

Mama Mama, can’t you see

What the military has done to me

Mama Mama, I need you to see

I’m not who I used to be

Mama please understand

I’d say I love you if I could

My feelings have been repressed for so long

And the world isn’t ready for the flood

Mama Mama, can’t you see

What the military has done to me

Mama Mama, I need you to see

I’m not who I used to be

Now they say that all your scars will heal overtime

But I can tell you that just isn’t true

Some nightmares can’t be left behind

Nor the faces draped in red, white, and blue

That’s the reason why I can’t ever sleep at night

And why I’ll randomly cry

And I’ll carry this emptiness with me

“With Me” Until the day I die….

Mama Mama, can’t you see

What the military has done to me

Mama Mama, I need you to see

I’m not who I used to be

Mama Mama, can’t you see

What my service has done to me

Mama Mama, I need you to know

That this kills me right down to my soul