I SAVED A CAT, WHO SAVED ME RIGHT BACK!
Teddy the talking cat!
I am holding my mother's lifeless hand . I am staring at her big toe nail, which is jagged .
Her ECMo machine swirls on and her body is bloated unmoving.
I tell her ," I love you Mom , Its Julie , please can you hear me ,"
I squeeze her hand three times.
I look for a sign but see nothing.
This massive room is a Horror room,
all the 30 or so patient's are together displayed , one tragedy after another. Some are young, looking like living dolls, I think it must be a car accident.
Most are in vegetable states.
My mother is the only one on this hideous machine .
I regret allowing the doctors to put her in this forced coma . She had blood clots in her lungs , the doctors had promised this would be temporary, allowing her body to heal and they would eventually wake her up.
I cannot believe how badly these doctors have injured my mother she has a simple UTI treatable with antibiotics , but they changed her long time blood thinner from Coumadin to Xarelto, causing a bleeding session.
Till she wakes one morning unable to breath.
The staff are perched in the middle of this room , they carry binders and pens, they look like students , none look me in the eyes.
They shuffle past me talking in hushed tones . I stare out looking for compassion , only one student a male asian student meets my stare
He looks at me with very sad eyes and does a bowing gesture.
I feel like dying also , My strong capable mother .
My brother and I get a call three weeks later the doctors saying They will need to remove our mother from the machine ,she is brain dead.
I think of my mother , her aristocrat personality, her high check bones, her amazing turquoise eyes hinted with emerald and yellow.
My mother , my North star .
Her last words to me
" Julie, you always figure things out"
I am immobilized by grief .
I am unable to control my rage .
I blame the greedy healthcare system bleeding my mother's health insurance dry , while she lay in a recovery hospital , when she could of been released weeks ago .
But in her case she gets massive blood clots in her lungs .
I have no patience , I am rage filled, I also can't sleep well and when I do sleep, I don't want to wake up .
My body is shocked by grief into instant menopause.
I am beyond tears , I have a emptiness that is filled with Anger .
I am too depressed to even get up and drive to a mental health clinic.
The treating hospital won't help me even though I try to explain I am too depressed to come to my appointments.
Two months after my mother's death I am driving and inside my head I head I hear
" There is a black cat at the humane society you must get him , He is very smart "
The thought is strange and consistent I am already heading home but the thought is in my head.
I pull off the exit and turn my car around and get back onto the freeway.
I arrive at the Humane society, It's raining , but it's warm out and the rain feels refreshing .
As I enter the building a small cat wind chime on the door chimes softly.
I enter the Cat room, My heart sinks in this place, all these gorgeous animals in need of a home. I admire the volunteers helping all these beautiful animals.
I stare at dozens of cages.
I look into a cage the cat sees me and closes its eyes and then continues sleeping .
Other cats blatantly ignore me .
I look at one cat after another none of them even open their eyes to see me .
Suddenly I look down and a small black paw is literally grabbing my Boot from inside a lower cage.
I look down and see a long haired black cat with bright alien yellow eyes.
"Excuse me ,I say can I see this one?"
A humane society volunteer smiles
" Oh thats ,Teddy"
She carries Teddy into a small visitation room and I follow.
"He is a very nice cat she says "
She leaves the little room and I look down and Teddy is purring loudly and rubbing against my legs .
He is a gorgeous long haired black cat with a dark auburn tone and underbelly .
Teddy stares up to me
His yellow eyes are magical and searching.
I smile at him and He immediately jumps onto my lap purring loudly .
"Ok Teddy boy, I am getting you out of here"
I pay my adoption fees and buy Teddy a license , and a few cans of cat food and a large bag of dry food .
The volunteer puts Teddy inside a large cardboard animal transport case she smiles at me and says
" I am so happy Teddy has found a forever home."
I leave The humane society and put Teddy on my front seat.
It is still raining but the sun is shining bright.
I play classical music while driving to try to calm him if he is nervous .
Yet I hear him purring through the box long and guttural.
"Your a very pretty Boy Teddy " I say..
The Angels told me to come get you , they said you were very smart"
I arrive home and carry Teddy inside, I open the box and he pops out and stares up at me .
I fetch his cat food and Pour him a bowl of cool water and another bowl of salmon with dry food .
Teddy gracefully sways around my knees ,flapping his lush long tail cross my calves.
"Hello Teddy Boy .. Hello"
My boyfriend Rich comes home from work I say exuberantly,
" Look babe We have a New family member !"
He smiles looking at the large long haired cat .
" Wow , that's a huge cat"
"His name is Teddy and I swear I heard a voice in my head telling me to go the Humane society to adopt a smart black cat"
"Maybe it's your Mom "He says smiling.
Rich Kneels down to get a good look at Teddy " Wow such incredible eyes, I never saw a cat with eyes like that" Rich pats Teddy and says
"Is Momma feeding you good?"
Teddy stares, twitching his face with a quizzical look.
" Wow, Babe that's Great !"
I smile and It seems like it's been months since I actually really smiled, I think of my Mother, her huge beautiful smile, I think she would love this cat .
Teddy assimilates well to living with us .
It's been over a few weeks now and having this lovely new family member is helping my depression.
I open the back door, Teddy and I go outside.
Teddy is languishing in the bright sunshine , he is stretched on his back and paws spread open , he is twisting delightfully in the sun .
I say" Teddy" come on " and Get up to meander to the woods behind my house ,Teddy follows behind and we sit peacefully together in the woods . The sounds of a woodpecker and the squeal of blue jays filter the air .
Teddy and I relax and close our eyes.
Teddy looks up at me, His quizzical yellow eyes searching mine and says clear as day
"Momma"
I blink and shake my head .
What the hell? am I losing it?
Did this cat just talk???
That Evening I tell my partner Rich .
" Babe, I swear to you Teddy looked directly at me and said Momma!"
He looks at me deadpan , His large green blue eyes wrinkle in laughter.
"Babe, your worrying me, Have your stopped taking the antidepressants or something?"
" No, the cat can Talk!!"
" What did he say? Your a Moran?"
I shake my head Laughing at Rich's deadpan humor.
" He said Momma"
Rich smiles" Well that's weird , Every morning when I leave for work and Your still sleeping I tell Teddy
" Take care of Momma!"
Teddy looks up at us and says clear as day
"Momma"
Rich and I burst out laughing
" Oh my God, WTF , We have a talking cat"
Rich and I burst out laughing and literally fall to the ground giggling.
As the days pass I find that
I love to take Teddy for long walks in the woods behind the house
Teddy and I stare at each other
His yellow eyes shift to bright green in certain shady areas of the woods.
I think
" I miss you Mom"
"Come on Teddy , Follow Momma, Let's go lay in the Sun"
I get up and slow jog back to my sunny hammock in the backyard, "Come on, Teddy boy"
I smile as I notice the large furry cat pouncing right behind me.
We lounge out under the warm Sun
The heat is intoxicating.
I stare mesmerized into the eyes of this otherworldly creature .
I am calm in his presence and I say
" You saved me too didn't you Teddy Boy?"
I wonder if my mother sent me This beautiful boy ?
I see a sunbeam spread slowly across the sky and I feel certain
For the first time since losing my Mother
I feel that somehow I will survive !
About the Creator
Julia Lindsay
I am a hard rock musician. filmmaker and writer. I am an Endangered Species Advocate and Environmentalist.
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