A Letter to My Best Friend in Heaven
You saved me, and I'm sorry I couldn't save you.
I never really thought this day would come.
I never thought I would have to say goodbye to you so quickly.
I never thought something like this could happen.
You deserved more; you deserved more years to be happy and to be free.
I'm sorry I couldn't save you, but just know I tried my best.
They say we are supposed to give our animals the best life we possibly can, but in reality, it was the other way around.
You gave me the best life you possibly could.
You were truly my best friend and so much more. You sensed my sadness and pain and made every attempt to ease it.
You reminded me of how loved I was, every day that we were together. There was never a moment that I doubted that. Your unconditional love taught me what the true meaning of love is; something I could never understand before you came into my life.
Although you couldn't talk to me, you always knew the perfect things to do to let me know that you understood, and that you were there for me.
You let me cry on your shoulder and tell you my worries. Your licks and little snorts told me you cared.
When you heard me come home, your excitement eliminated any bit of anxiety I had from the day. If I didn't greet you right away, you searched the house for me to make sure I was okay.
God, I miss you so much. I'm so sorry I couldn't save you.
You saved me in so many ways. There were many times I doubted my existence and my purpose on this earth. I would begin to loose myself. But then I would look at you, with those big brown eyes staring up at me.
You gave me purpose, you gave me a reason to keep going. I couldn't stop because I had you to be proud of me. I had you to keep me going.
Every time I saw those big brown eyes staring at me, my purpose became clear in every aspect.
I would give anything to bring you back, happy and healthy.
I'm sorry I couldn't save you like you saved me.
I am trying so hard to tell myself that you are happy and healthy now, but I know you miss us too.
I know you are up there watching, and wishing you could lick away every tear we have shed for you.
I know you are watching us hold your toys to our noses just to smell you again, and I know you probably want to snatch them right out of our hands to play tug-o-war.
I know that you know we made every attempt to save you from this fate, and I know you are grateful for that.
But I am sorry that we couldn't, I'm sorry that I couldn't save you.
You were everything to me and so much more.
I wish I could turn back time and watch you crawl across the floor to me.
I wish I could rub your ears and watch your head turn in happiness because it felt so good.
I wish I could hear you bark one more time.
I wish I never took for granted the little things that you did and the moments we shared.
Now I understand when people say that you never really cherish a moment until it becomes a memory.
Nothing will ever replace you, and there is nothing I could say or do to thank you enough for all the happiness you brought into my life.
You were the best pup any one could have ever asked for.
I am so sorry that I couldn't save you, but I know we will meet again someday when God calls me home.
And I know you will be barking at the gates until I get there.
I miss you beyond words, my baby girl.
Be good up there, I will see you again someday.
Your Best Friend.