THE 25 YEARS OLD

ABOUT THE STORY:

Follow the life journey of San in Some Line Some Pains a captivating memoir that takes readers on a journey of self-discovery and transformation. From humble beginnings to the heights of success San shares the story of his 25-year journey through life's challenges and triumphs. At the core of this memoir is learning about life lessons a pivotal moment in his life that changed his perspective forever. Through the beauty and challenges of the natural world, he discovers profound truths about himself and the world around him. In Some Line Some Pains readers will be inspired by San's courage and determination as he overcomes obstacles and learns to embrace life's ups and downs. This book is a must-read for anyone seeking a powerful and uplifting story of hope and resilience this book is a true story about life.

Introduction:

Hello, In this story I would like to share with you some actual incidents that happened in my life. Let me tell you a few instances of how my life turned upside down because I didn't get the help and advice I needed at the right time. As I complete my 25th year, I am happy to tell you the life events this life taught me. So please read each event with patience.

Beginning of Life:

My life journey starts from this. I am the hero of this story. My name is San. This is not my real name and it is hidden in this story for some reason. I am from a beautiful town in the Kanyakumari district in India. I have a mom, dad and a younger sister and a huge beautiful extended family. I am travelling with you on my journey of life and I am taking you with me to travel on my journey of life immediately.

The journey of life begins:

Certain events in everyone's life are bound to happen. That destiny is now going to happen in the life of my mother and father, these two met in the bond of marriage and now the destiny of this life begins. The moment their marriage took place, hardships continued in life, Father had no such thing as owning a house and a permanent job, and after marriage, they left home due to some family problems. Whereas some problems in life begin My mother's family embraces both and the problems never end. At this time life allows them to do what they want to do but they start life without properly deciding the end of life. They rent a house next to their mother's house. Fate was waiting for them because they did not make the right decisions in life. At this moment a shocking thing comes to light. The biggest truth comes to light that my father is not perfect. He is mentally and physically suffering and has a suspicious character. At this moment the problem starts with all kinds of family and personal ties. However, they start living life without any kind of connection and without thinking about it. Their lives begin without thinking that this is a temporary solution. Just as there were some problems in married life at first, they started happening in my mother's and father's life as well. At this moment it seems to Mother that we have chosen someone who is not related to us as a life partner.

My birth:

I was born as the first heir in this joint family after they had overcome some problems in their lives. I arrived in this joint family as the first pet to be loved. It was my mother who gave birth to me but it was the people in this joint family who brought me up and all the problems in the family ended to some extent. Some time passed and I grew up and the moment my younger sister was born, this beautiful family was working together. In this situation, marriage arrangements were made for everyone born in the family including my mother. In the next year, my family's condition did not improve, so both my mother and father had to go to work. My younger sister and I were brought up in this joint family. Life experience was good as a child playing with friends and everything learned at a young age guided our life even though there were some flaws in life without any expectations. Life was full of happiness, only the event of a wonderful life.

Kindergarten Season:

I am old enough to go to Kindergarten now. The first-day school experience was new, new clothes, a new experience that I had never experienced before, and some unexpected happiness in life. I started learning a new lesson. I enjoy my life as a new experience every day. That one moment that made me wonder how many miracles there are in this world is a memory that I will never forget.

My School Life:

In this, I am referring to my school years. I finished Kindergarten at the age of four. The next year, I was admitted to the first grade, and I was not yet old enough to join the school. Although I had many friends in that classroom, I could not study properly and it was very difficult. Finally, I had to write an exam in three months. Because I did not write properly on it, the teacher hit me on the hand with the tip of a pencil and the place became swollen. After the class was over, my mother saw a fight with the teacher and stopped the school. Again that one year I studied in Kindergarten. The next year I was admitted to another school but it was a short walk to that school. A new classroom, new book, and teachers, some of the new things required for first grade gave me a new experience and I started the next phase of life with new expectations. Enjoyed every moment and started learning at a new rate so beautifully this childhood learning continued. Veedu films are very irritating small events and fight some happy moments and this is how I completed my 5th standard. My younger sister and I studied together and kept learning with full interest in the study. The days passed while enjoying some holidays in a good way.

Rift in the Family:

An unexpected life-changing event took place in this. My grandfather left us due to heavy losses in his business and poison. From this moment this beautiful family began to fall apart. We were the only ones in our hometown and everyone else had gone to other areas. Since then every event in life has been full of pain.

A New Beginning of Life:

We always have to accept some events in our life. After some events, life started moving slowly. We bought new land and started building a house on it. Life moved slowly for a few years, a moment in life where all the relationships broke up and there was often suffering and grief, and now the problems in life have started. Debt problems and always fighting between mom and dad without understanding this situation are happening till now.

Middle School Moment:

In this situation, I am studying 7th standard and the family situation has completely turned upside down. The house was without electricity, entertainment, rain and sun and no protection against natural events. Once reduced to a state of poverty with some kind of tolerance, we were living a life of hardship without even the essentials. Despite this hardship, I have completed my 7th standard studies. My father's condition changed so completely that no words can describe it, he was gone. The responsibility of managing the family as a single woman came to my mother. Meanwhile, we both were in a position to take care of the family. Today some people from the neighbouring house helped us. I got a huge group of friends in this new area and this was the happiest moment of my life. No matter how many problems there were in my life, friendship was the only thing that moved my life to the next level. I have started to collect all these beautiful memories in my mind when the joint family visits on their own during the holidays. I have collected all the pranks and school events as pleasant events in my life.

First pain in life:

In this, I learned how a family can be if a woman's life partner is not right. An example of this is my mother's life. At that moment in my childhood, I saw with my own eyes how a girl's life can change direction. This is not an exception in some families at my young age. They take me to work because there is no one to look after them. My family situation changed my life completely. Amma has come as a single woman bearing the entire responsibility. My mother, who seemed to choose the wrong path at that moment, also chose that path. Some wrong friends and started going on the wrong path. The reason for this decision taken by the mother as a woman is that a man is not right. It is considered a big thing in the life of every woman who is the sole person of the family in this society. I was the one who suffered the most in this one incident and there was always fighting and confusion and inappropriate words started ringing in the house. It is a state where you are forced to yearn for your mother's love despite receiving your father's warmth. Till now I don't know whose fault this is, this wrong path will make some changes in our lives and it happened to my mother. Wrong friends, money, lifestyle, society's taunts, and self-forgetfulness all happened in my mother's home life. No matter what this false life offers a new and enjoyable experience, one day it will all come to a screeching halt. There are many people here who are looking for the path of life because of that one day. That's how my mother also searched but they were given another chance and my mother also changed her mind. But there was no change in my father's actions and the situation of the family did not change. The biggest lesson I learned from this is what happens in life if you don't plan. It was the moment when I got the idea of what happens if a man and a woman do not fulfil their duties properly and what should I do in life but what should be done is to go through every event of life. At this moment, I can't forget the school term and my next school term has started.

New School Moment:

I entered the new classroom at the beginning of the new school term when the new building was completed in the school I studied at that time. A few new friends also joined and I must say that there was a way of studying together, always fighting with girls, classroom divisions, small pranks, forgetting everything and being immersed in the events of the school year. Always doing something with friends and getting caught up in some things School pranks Some fights Hating teachers We did everything we could in the classroom. Doing some mischief and getting beaten Falling while playing and getting beaten on hands and feet. At this age, I am enjoying school as much as I should. My one year is completely over and I am starting the first event of my next year. In this I forgot to mention my classmate, her name is Shalini, although I have a sweet relationship with girls, she was with me in every way from my first class till the end of school. I liked her character very much, she would do anything to help me and get along without any discrimination. To be honest, she can be called my best friend. I don't know how the days have passed since I completed my ninth standard.

10th Class School Term:

Stepping out for the first time in my high school years. The 10th class experience was very bitter and new in my life because it was then that a new system of education was introduced. I had to experience the trouble of every class teacher without understanding any subject. Even on Saturday, I experienced the trouble of Exam and Tucson. The time when even the teacher to teach the new subject was studying that course in one way. The time when I was enjoying school life was gone and it always gave me only a feeling of hatred. Because this is class 10th, I have come to the last term of class 10th after going through many hardships. I'm just really bad at maths. That one moment of the final exam of the year is still deeply etched in my memory. Even though it was a joy to finish this class, that moment when we parted from everyone at the end is still a memory that I can't forget. No matter how far we have come in life, I can't forget these memories of my school days. Vacations came, and I went to work to spend some time pleasantly. Those days just flew by, and the final stage of this class came in a way, the news of passing the exam. Although I am happy, I have a strange feeling about this school year. As this school did not have enough sections to continue the next year's studies, I had to go to another school for the next year. My new school was a few distances away and one of my friends was already studying there and I went there and joined the new section.

My High School Period:

In my 11th standard, I joined the electrical department. Joining a new school was a new experience. I was studying with seventy-six students in the department I joined. The first experience was different. New uniforms, a big classroom, and a big peg were waiting for me when I entered. After the discussion on the first day, the teachers took everyone section-wise. But my section classroom was a separate dilapidated building. And above my study area, the students are engaged in the fishing industry. In this, I unexpectedly joined my friend who studied with me. Ivan and my biggest nuisance classes have also started and one thing has come to light in this, students of this section are the first to be taken, no matter what kind of work is done. In this, many students joined NCS to cut the classes. New types of graphing courses, types of maths, method curriculum, the biggest thing in this are that only for maths, we have two teachers who have started the twelfth class. There are classes every day till five thirty in the evening. There is no compulsory class at all. I used to go to school by bus for a few days. In the classroom, they made me sit first based on height, so I sat on the last bench. No matter what I do, my interest in my studies is never lost. But now I have changed my direction and in some films, I lost and my playfulness was more at that time. Fortunately, everyone was seated. I went and told my friend about him because he is not suitable for anything. His name is Duminy, when he was playing playfully in the school where he had already studied, he got a piece of sock peas in his eye, so he could not see and write properly and could not finish writing fast. This is how my 11th class season ended.

Class XII School Term:

Next year I want to say twelfth standard and with this year the schooling will be completely over. Well, I was focused on my studies. Sweetly, my twelfth class is starting now. This happened while I was travelling on a bus. The bus I was travelling in was always crowded. One day I accidentally stepped on a woman's leg and she scolded me. My friend didn't know that he would talk to her, so I went to him and asked him her name and since then he has been driving with her name. Her name is Sana and since this incident, I have stopped taking the bus. I started going to school on my bike this year. It was great. At first, in a few electrical classes, I learned a lot of new things. A few days passed and my teenage years started, going to the site, teenage thoughts, whatever, I did everything. Even today I can't forget my friends and a few classes. The next year started moving with great anticipation and fear. Fortunately, I escaped from my friend that year. In this, a girl told him that she was in love with him and from that day everyone started teasing him. He is the entertainment of many of my friends but he and I were together and he is giving me some experience in my life. My favourite teacher in this school is the maths teacher. He has a unique style that doesn't differentiate between men and women. Everyone is afraid of him. He has many classes. We had another maths teacher who will never forget this teacher but looking at it again seems like an apology to her even though the students had a name for her and caused a lot of trouble. Even though I was happy at that moment, now it seems wrong. I can't forget this school season only because of these little things. Since I joined a different school, my best friend would often find out information about me from my younger sister. But in these two years, I never got any engagement from anyone else. But I had only a crush on one teacher My memorable English class teacher in my life who completely changed my handwriting My 10th class certificate is a witness to how good my handwriting is till 10th class I was surprised when I wrote my first exam and advised me that this is not proper English language writing style The said person was a good teacher who later helped and taught me to write English letters correctly. I often hit the site, that's another thing, now I've completely changed my style of writing, and it's a kind of attraction, but by the end of that year, they got married. They had special classes for us throughout the year and after a few days, they came to school and gave us such joy that we will never forget. I was put in a special class and they observed my writing style and taught me to write correctly. Grammar is not the only thing that is good for me. Even today I can remember if they made a few changes in my life. Only this year there are no steps I didn't buy because I am 12th standard and special care is different. Record books, assignments, drawings and exams were not possible for the whole year. However, school life was beautiful and I was worried that this year would end in a few days. We were only allowed in after the school term was over and the final year exam phase came. Even today I can't forget the last division moment. The first exam started but that event was bittersweet. They made us sit in the same group. Next to me sat a fellow student of the Tamil exam. He sat there without writing anything. I was not even close to a passing score on my exam. The teacher who came to observe us asked me to help him a little and I helped him but he only wrote what I showed him and nothing else. Fortunately, the teacher told me to put it off because there will be a check after some time, so I finished writing at that moment. Now life has passed by for a few days of exams and thus we have reached the last days of the school term. But that last glimpse of unspeakable grief and joy was with us all. One way or another we have performed well and thoroughly enjoyed the school season and finally, the school season has come to an end. Finally, the result came and I passed. My friend failed in one subject but my classmate who wrote the exam after seeing him passed in all. Finally, it was time to say goodbye to everyone including my school days. It's all unforgettable memories in life. I understand that these little joys are what life needs. My school life is like this. My school year is coming and it's completely over.

A wrong decision made by my parents:

The moment I finished school life my parents made an unexpected decision in their life. Little did she know at that time that this one decision would change the direction of her entire life, but the group gave only one lakh to her and told her that they were helping her to build a house from a self-help group. My cousin made a huge wrong decision at the wrong moment in life to say that he can finish the work by then. Next year I have to go to college and next year my younger sister has to finish school and join college. Anyway, the house is an important need so they started housework. But then it seems that they will not be able to do any of the planned work within the expected money. Then, by taking loans, half of the work was done at home. Now I don't like this house even though it is somewhat widespread and now my family is forced to take on a huge debt burden. Apart from that, the work of the house could not be done properly, so they settled in the house immediately. No one thought that this one condition would change their lives so completely.

My college career begins:

Well, since my school studies are over, it has come to the point where I have to continue my college studies. After consulting a few people, I decided that yes, I could continue my polytechnic course. I chose a few colleges, especially the electrical group and I made the right choice because I was in college for two years. I asked some of my friends and finally, I chose a college. It was some distance away and one day I went there and asked for admission. They said that all the admission forms have been completed as I have to join another second year. As I could not pay the money immediately, the college was lost. The biggest confusion was that my friend was studying engineering at another college and a sister in my hometown was also working at that college. With the advice of these two, I talked to my mother and said that since he is the first graduate in your family, you will get a counselling ticket and if you get it, you will have to pay only five thousand per year. They pestered my mother to agree that engineering is better than polytechnic. In my family, it was more about where they got the money than any other college. In one way, I went to the college and all the admissions were done and I applied for all the counselling. This decision was a wrong decision taken by me keeping in mind my family's situation and debt only my younger sister's education. After a few days, the counselling date came and I came to Chennai and attended the counselling. After telling me to wait for some time, they spoke to the college admission committee and called me again, saying that it is fine, I can join our college, but I will have to pay only five thousand more, and they confirmed the admission to the college. After a few days, they sent me a message saying that the college will be open. I have gone through a few events in life and started a new life event with enthusiasm hoping that all the problems will be over. In my college life, the date of college opening also came but those days were very cruel, I had to get ready at 6 in the morning and go to catch the bus. The experience of the first day was very beautiful, although I said that there was no ragging, from the bus to the college, there were a lot of rules to be followed. This college life has been an unforgettable event in my life. For two weeks only pre-classes were held from morning to evening. After that, they put all the students together and divide them into sects. I got a lot of friends in one way and some events. The next two weeks passed and then they separated everyone into sects. My college life was a little bit bitter because I had friends, but this college season was sweet for me because I had friends.

First struggle of my life in college life:

I enjoyed my college life sweetly in the first part of my college life and that was my last happy moment. Part-time my first year is over and my college life is moving well with friends that year. I heard a lot of things. The next part of the year started and we were divided into sections. There is only one subject that is different for everyone, small pranks in college, some new introductions, and I have started working together for college activities. Acts, Music, Canteen Chat, Department, Sidewalk, Bus Breakdown, Exam Hall, College cut, I have done some pranks. One day I went to watch a movie and got stuck at home. Now my college seniors have become close to me. Because everyone was looking at the professor who was taking our class. Everyone became close to us because they talked to us more. Thus this college life gave me some good memories in my life but I didn't know then that my life was about to take a big turn.

College life diversion:

A few unexpected events completely changed the atmosphere of the house and it started to affect me too. There were always unnecessary quarrels in the house, money problems, and debt problems, and these problems made life difficult for everyone. That's why my college studies didn't go well the next year, I always had some unexplainable longing in me and I also faced failure this year. My first year is over and the next year has started. This is the last moment of my college term and I have not completed the college piece in the year I have studied so they allowed me to take the exam because I said that I will do it at the beginning of the next year. But before that, I would have wandered for half an hour to get autographs and I couldn't write these exams properly and that's why I failed. The beginning of the next year started and I went to my department. This sophomore year college season is going well but some unexpected events start happening. There was a call to pay money immediately, they said that money should be paid immediately to enter the classroom and to travel by bus to some other college organisations, including everything. In my house, we both have started college now. As a result of which this situation could not be dealt with this event has changed the situation of the family as a whole. One day at the bus check my pass was expired so they bought my ID card at the bus office and gave it to the college principal. He took it and gave it to me and left saying that I will pay the piece in a few days but I could not pay the full amount within those days. From that day my college life became a battleground for me, not allowing myself inside the classroom for a whole day and wandering around completely. That one day I felt like I was going crazy and my friends were curious to know what else was going on. In the second year, they said that they didn't pay for the exam so they couldn't let me take the exam. Then I developed a feeling of hatred towards my family and after that, all that happened was a horrible incident not to come to the classroom and a compulsion to continue education only by paying for the bus and money One day an unforgettable incident happened when the college class was going on the college head officer came to me my friends and the college professor to my department all In front of him, he said that from tomorrow you should not come to college, only if you pay. He even told the teacher not to allow me in the class and left. Due to the situation, my family was in at that time, I could not say anything in that situation. The next day I was going to college by bus. The officer called the bus driver and asked him to drop me off the bus. He has told the driver that from now on he should bring money only if he has a pass. As the driver is a little familiar, he asked me to drop him off at a bus station and come to the college on another bus. Only my friend knew that people who had travelled by bus also helped him. In this way, in my college life, I was humiliated in front of my friends, teachers, and the department as a whole. One day my college life came to an end. I didn't want to go to college so I took another bus and went home. On that day all the problems came to light in my house, and fights started again in the house. In this situation, my sister's studies, home loan and some other problems were coming together in life. Overall, it was an event that ended my college life abruptly. I was sitting at home for a few days. However, the pain caused by this is very great and it can only be known if one experiences it from that position. Some kinds of thoughts were running through my mind. Due to the crisis at home, I had to stop my studies and the responsibility to deal with this situation came to me. Well, for a few days, I was working in a welding workshop near my home. No one asked me what do you study at home and what do you like. One of the reasons for this situation is that I have been working there for more than a month. By this time my whole town knew that I could not continue my studies. Everyone I saw spoke to me with some kind of sympathy to stop studying. There was some kind of talk because I left. But because I was going to this job, there was more talk and they were talking all over the town. Because of this, I did not like to stay in my town and felt that I should leave the town and move to another town.

My Chennai career began:

Chennai welcomes me to make it live. As a way, my mother received an invitation to work in a restaurant in Chennai through acquaintances. I immediately decided to leave my job and go to Chennai. I have made all the arrangements to come to Chennai and I was waiting for that day. This is the first solo journey of my life and I am coming alone to Chennai. I booked an Indian Railway ticket and left to come to Chennai. I was very scared to come to Chennai by train but some attractions made me come to Chennai. My mother came and sent me to Chennai. I don't know anyone in Chennai. I don't even know who will pick me up. I don't know any place. I am travelling by train in such a condition. Now I have come to Chennai Tambaram via a route and in this, my mobile has switched off without any other power. I was sitting there for a while not knowing what to do. Fortunately, there was a help centre there, so I went there, charged my mobile for a while and came out. After two hours, no one came to pick me up. I was very scared then and luckily I asked someone for help and he told me that there is a place to charge outside. I went there and charged it for a while and switched on the phone and got a phone call from someone who had come to pick me up. I looked for who it was and found him who had taken me and after talking for a while we went to eat as we were very hungry. I said let's go to the workplace after eating and we were walking to the workplace.

My first work experience in Chennai:

Somehow we reached the place but I had no choice but they told me that there is already a job available so the person who picked me up took me to his house. Two days passed and then I stayed at their house to tell them that I would visit the company's office one way or the other. Two days later we went to the office and as I had no previous work experience, I was asked to work in the parcel packing department for a few days. From there, they told me to go to a place called Ashok Pillar, Chennai, where there is a need for a man. They immediately took me and left. I had an unforgettable memory of this hotel experience and immediately asked them to join the job. I went in and saw that it was good. It was my first day of work, so I started with some nervousness. I learned a few things little by little. Let me tell you about the hotel work. The hotel opens at 10 in the morning and closes by 11 at night. There is only a two-hour meal break in between. No matter how many meals are served here, only a few meals can be eaten. The working area has to be cleaned three times a day. The whole body becomes dirty and masala. They would separate everyone separately, mostly the northerners who worked here. Fortunately, there were two Tamil speakers in the section I joined. During the meal break, I was wandering around without even knowing the way to the room. I came back to the hotel and the day ended like that. I am going to experience bachelor life for the first time and what life in Chennai is like. The room was very bad, there was garbage and dirty. Even Tamils, no one spoke to me and behaved differently. I didn't know anyone. I was lying alone on one side. Only the security who came there spoke to me and he gave me a small place to lie down. My second day started with so many conditions that I have to be on time for work, I had to complete all the work there, I have to know all the food, in which section it is available, where it is prepared, how it is, how to prepare the meal and learn how to bake each type of biryani. It was like Because it's like the wheels of a cart turning and this work for me seemed to be enough to start in the morning and end at night. This life was very bitter but what to do in a few situations made me run with it. A few months passed and I learned all the work and started talking to a few people. Meanwhile, two of my fellow workers fought and left the job. Then a new Tamil friend came and we became close friends. But the biggest headache is on Sundays and festival days some people have become my very close friends. My friend got some other friends and one day he was talking about other people in the house and I told him that it was wrong. After knowing this, he calmed down again, but after a few days, he went to another section. I was given new knowledge of Tamil by the people from the north. After many years, I went to see a movie alone because I was a hotel worker. The moment I started living my days by controlling some expenses and freeing myself from some problems, a few people left their jobs. Now I have a new friend who joined us and some people were invited here from another place as our hotel was empty. He was one of them and I got close to him and became good friends and he also got along well. We went to everything from vacations and movies together. I can't tell how the days are just moving here and now I am taking care of some family problems and at that time the summer season has started. Due to heavy work and working in a hot place, I feel sick and diseased, blisters appeared in some parts of my body, and I am not able to work.He had to come to town immediately after asking for money. After coming here and studying medicine for several days, my health was fine. I spread this disease to one of my friends and my mother. After a few days, I came back to Chennai. Now I had to do more work again. I was told to leave work immediately and I left immediately without telling another hotel. If you go there and ask someone who is working in the newspaper department, they told you that you will get a job and told you to go for an interview. But I didn't receive any call and the hotel job I was looking for was also gone. Then they asked me to go to Chennai again. How come I left without telling anyone that I was coming to Chennai, so I couldn't come back to Chennai? Well, I did small jobs in town for a few days, but I didn't like being in town anyway. At that time, my cousin told me that there is a job in a candy manufacturing company in Bangalore and immediately asked me to go there. I didn't know how it would be, but I went to work in Bangalore because of my mother's insistence. But I didn't like working there because nothing was right there, so I left immediately after working there for a month. Although my cousin got angry with me, I didn't like anything there, that's why I came. A few days later the supervisor in the hotel department I worked in became a manager in another department. I called him one day and he immediately asked me to come back to work. I left Chennai again and he told me to work at the juice counter for a few days and then he could look after another department. Again I got a job in the same hotel, that section was in the D Nagar area, next to the room, the hotel is a small section, there is no hassle and work is not too much. Joining this department I have learned all the departments from juice to cash department to supervisor.From my manager to my senior officer everyone likes me and I have become very close to everyone in the workplace. Now I often go back to the old unit where I used to work so I have made friends. Now life in Chennai was going well, one day someone told my mother that there is a job abroad and told her to apply for a passport for work and keep it. My mother called me and said that you should leave Chennai and get all your certificates. After taking leave for a few days, I came back to my town. The next day I went to my college to get my certificate and they made me wander for a whole day. Finally, they checked everything and told me to pay two lakhs. He told my cousin that he knew someone who was a police officer and that he would help if he went to see him and tell him what had happened and he said that he would also help in this matter. After a day we went to college again and he told us to keep some money in hand as we will need anything. We left early one morning and my mother arranged for 20,000 money. Even after going to the college and talking to the administrator, they did not return my certificate. On our way back home, the chairman's house was there. The officer who came with me went to talk to him and spoke to a lawyer he knew. He again called me to the college and told me to wait outside and somehow went inside and bought the certificate. I spent 20,000 rupees as a bribe just to buy this certificate. The next day I went to the travel company and applied for the passport as it would take a few days to arrive so I came back to Chennai and started working. Police verification of the passport application was done, but even though everything was fine, the police officers there asked for a bribe. I was working again in Chennai for a few months. What my mother did was she called me again and said that there was an opportunity to go abroad. When he told me to wait for a few days, they also told me to go abroad with him later they told me that they will take me and I had a chance to tell them that they had told a huge lie and my work which I was already doing was gone. I was just sitting there not knowing what to do. Fortunately, there was another manager's number that I knew and he asked me if there was any job opportunity and he asked me to join. I was working there for a few days because there was no supervisor in the hotel department, so he made me the supervisor of that department. Everything was going well until unexpectedly my manager's son got married and left his job. When the new next manager came, even he did not agree with anyone, so one day he was running the hotel even after the end of the hotel hours, it was almost one o'clock the night. We have already prepared the dishes ordered by the diners. We told them that we cannot prepare any food after this and even for the workers, the food was gummy. Since the next day was Sunday, the master, who was busy with work, got all ready to go to the room. Again, Adar brought a dish and asked him to prepare it, and they prepared it while angry. For this, we got more and more food orders and everyone got angry and everyone came to fight with me and I told the manager about it. But he didn't listen to it so a big problem arose and a fight broke out in front of the customers and I left there. But even though I gave him a valid reason to file a complaint against me in his office, they did not accept it. So I quit my job and left. This hotel job gave me so many experiences. Some new friends. It's time to say goodbye. This is how I end my two years of hotel life.

Here are some of the works I have done:

First, in my childhood, I went to the company where my mother worked and sometimes I would go with my father to work in construction. I used to go on vacation for construction work and in my twelfth standard, I was doing construction work at home. First I worked in a hotel in Chennai and then I worked in a confectionery company in Bangalore. For a few days, I worked at a secondhand shop. So I got a job in a marketing company in Chennai. The job was very difficult. I didn't like the job. I didn't like the job. After doing this job, I got to the point of hiring help at home. Only then did I find out that it was a network marketing company and I didn't like it. I gave up all the jobs I was looking at and not only that no job was suitable for me and I didn't understand why I had to study and be happy like everyone else. I only wanted to do something in life but I couldn't do anything because the family situation was against me. Then I saw my friend who was already working in the department and I told him that now I have no job and I am looking for a job. Then he forced you to work by saying that he works in a health care centre and will arrange a job for you there. My close friend is Ashwant

A new Beginning of my life in Chennai:

In a way, this job was also good. I have started to overcome some of my problems by working with a friend to get rid of the old workload. Life was happy with friendship, work, and some happy events. We used to go to the park often on our days off. At this time, my friend was in love with a girl. I didn't know this. Even after we finished work, he would say he was late and go somewhere. I would take the metro and come to my room early. One day I asked him why he was doing this and he told me that he was in love with a girl and that he was going to see her every day. My friend's name is Abina and he told me the truth that she used to visit that park often and he used to go to see her. She and Iwan had to go to the park every day to say okay. As soon as I came to know about this, he started taking me every day and he didn't want to go alone. Wherever Ivan goes to see her, he starts taking me to all places, parks, beaches, and malls, his girlfriend is also a good character, she will not think anything wrong, and this has become comfortable for my friend. My friend has to do a lot of services to get love, he comes to me for everything, love poems, love letters, and gifts. Why am I saying all this because this is my close friend who has made a huge change in my life and my first love? He is the only one. Both of them were full of love and good understanding for each other. I also forgot all my worries and was happy for some days in life. He was my friend and I have no problem with him. I will help him all the time and even if there is a fight between them, they are good understanding partners, although I am always disturbed by their love for meetings and Valentine's Day. Now let me tell you clearly how these two became the first love of my life. When my friend's girlfriend joined college, a few days later another girl from her area also joined her. The two became friends so the housemates asked them to go to college together. This has become a big problem for her as she was in love with my other friend. So she also agreed to tell everything that happened to her.

My first and last love:

My first and last girlfriend's name is Saranya. How do I know her? She is my friend's girlfriend's friend. When my friend started dating, they both came to college together and went home together. If not, I know that they will get caught, that's why my friend's girlfriend brings her too. Every day they come to that parking area, talk for a while and then leave. Both of them will go somewhere alone in that parking area and I will go alone. She also goes alone and sits on a bench and sometimes my friend calls me and sometimes then I look at her. I have seen her and she does not talk to anyone. No one has ever talked to her and even I do not talk to someone I don't know so quickly. He is a bit shy. Do you know what these two did in this situation? Sometimes I talk a little sarcastically about my friend's love and he goes and tells this to his girlfriend. However, one day they told me that I did not come to attend a program in the college, because I had a lot of other work to do, but he permitted me to come. When I asked what the reason was, my friend's girlfriend had brought a sari that day, so he picked me up a little earlier saying that I must see it. He was standing mesmerised looking at his girlfriend and wondering what the mystery was. In this one moment, mine came to hide me too. At that moment, I forgot about myself and saw only her. It was a moment that we left earlier that day. It was on that day that I stood looking straight at her for the first time. She was so beautiful that I couldn't believe that she was the girl I had seen so far. I was stumbling when I saw an angel for the first time. We all went inside the park and she went alone and sat on that bench while my friend and his girlfriend went to take pictures. I started walking around the park but her memory made me want to go around her instead of going anywhere. Both my legs forgot to move and I went looking for her to stimulate her thoughts more. She was sitting there alone on the bench enjoying nature and listening to the song. I was too afraid to go near or to see from a distance. What to do if I think something is wrong. I had a little courage to go to the side and see her but I couldn't notice her because another lover was sitting right in front of her. Couldn't see properly. After a while, they moved and I felt a sense of relief that I could see her completely. I could almost say that I was side-slapping her but I was looking at her without even realising it was time. In this, my friend is looking for me and his girlfriend has been looking for me in many places to take photos. I didn't see these other two people coming. My friend came near me to see what I was doing. His girlfriend was standing there and came another way to see what I was doing. My friend took a picture of me from behind. After some time I saw both of them coming and they both saw me looking at her and I got stuck with both of them. Fortunately, she didn't see this and this was enough for me to beg them not to go. That's what they know and after that, I hit her often. My friend and his girlfriend laugh at me and she asks them what's up but they don't say anything. One day, without realising it, I teased their love in an old memory. While I was hitting the site, my friend's girlfriend went straight and told her the photo and I watched her from there. At that time I was talking when I got a phone call and then I went to see my friend. I didn't see anything that was going on here. The next day we left a little early. They came in from outside and she didn't see anyone and stared at me.I don't see anything to leave. I just went around the park to tell her there was a problem and came to see her where she was sitting. I mean I like her so much it's the little things she does that make me want to see her every day. That's why I used to see her every day but if I wanted to go there that day and see her, I couldn't find her at that place. But she was sitting somewhere else so I couldn't find her. I just sat there and thought for a while not knowing what happened. I thought it was my friend's girlfriend without even looking to see who it was when a noise came from behind me. But the voice from there said who are you looking for? I am looking for your friend whether she is sitting here or not. She is missing. She was standing to look back. I didn't expect this at all. For a minute, I felt faint. Fortunately, nothing like that happened. When I saw her, I left that place. I went and told this my friend's girlfriend and that's when she told me that I was the one who told her and I fought her. When I searched for where to apologise to her, she was again sitting on the same bench. I slowly went to her and asked her to excuse me and first, she asked me to sit down. Then he asked me why are you looking at me from there for a few days, I had an idea to see you one day and that's why I saw it and after that, I like every little thing you do and that's why I said that I won't do anything like this again and please forgive me. I could not even see her. Why should she apologise for that? It's nothing wrong. You have a crush on me in some way and that's why you're looking at me. It was then that I felt a little guilty about saying that I didn't think anything was wrong, but there was still some kind of guilt inside. I knew that no matter how I saw her from now on, she would think I was wrong because of this, so I left. Meanwhile, the good news is that my friend's girlfriend called me at night and said that she already knows that you are looking at her and when you started looking at her she and I were following you. You help our love, your habits, some practices, some good qualities in you, she sees. But the biggest difference is this shyness between you two. That's when she told me that she has no father and only a mother in a small family. After her father's death, she doesn't talk to anyone about why she never met any man and for the first time, she is only talking to you. She said that she doesn't talk to anyone even in college and apologised for what she had done and cut the phone call. That's all I knew and next mustered some courage and went to talk to her. Then I said that I know her name and only, don't think anything wrong to call her again, I did it without knowing your situation and started moving from there. Then she called me and she asked me if we can become friends, am I ok with you and said it's okay if you don't talk to anyone, we can be friends. I smiled as she held out her hand and said we would become friends and we shook hands with her and became friends. This was the moment I touched a girl for the first time and this was the moment I got a girlfriend in Chennai. Since then we have become good friends, I go to see her every day and she also comes to see me every day for me and we talk and have fun every day. Going somewhere, chatting, joking, sharing what happened every day, all things being nice to each other, snacks and birthdays, friendship day celebrations, etc. Our friendship was going well. Even if my friend doesn't come, I will go to see her. Whatever comes to her mind, I am the same. She is the only person who has always been there in my life as a good friend who is a great treasure that cannot be found in your friendship. It was going on like this, where every moment was full of beautiful memories to think that he had sent an angel here for me. That was the moment in my life when she and I were united in friendship. As I was that day she was my only happiness and at that moment I thanked God.

My friend's problem:

Now my friend has made a huge difference in my life. Since Valentine's Day is coming, we were thinking about what to do for his girlfriend, gift, chocolate, clothes, etc. We were planning something. At the same time, he asked me what was going on with her and I told him that she was nothing but a good friend to me. He then started asking a question suspiciously, maybe there was a secret love between the two of you and to that extent, you both said yes. When I argued with him he again asked me what to do if she had such a thought towards you and told me to get even angrier with him and told me to tell you about her. I told her that she is a good friend and a good woman to me in every way and the next moment she asked me what would she do if she got married or fell in love with someone and I told her that she is the one who gave it to me and that everything should go well for her and she should live her life well. Although there will be a little regret, I will be fine and there is nothing else to do. He asked what would you do if you are the only one who is right for her. I said I don't know why you are asking so many crazy questions like crazy now. He told me that you two are the perfect couple for us and it will be so beautiful if you both join in life and think about it. The next day he took leave to buy everything for his girlfriend and we went and bought it. This madman won't let me go. He asked me one last question. What would you like if she came into your life? I have told you that I am a very lucky person and I have told you not to ask me for anything more. Because I like her a lot and I don't like hearing this about her. Somehow we finished celebrating Valentine's Day and I bought her a ring and a friendship toy chocolate as a form of friendship and we all became very close. At that time there were a lot of WhatsApp chats and our number was also there that night my friend did this thing and we both talked like this and he recorded it. He said he was helping me and sent her the note. I didn't know this and she listened to this. The next day when we both were talking she suddenly went to my friend and asked something. I didn't take anything seriously. She asked me many things about me, my friend and my girlfriend and then started talking to both of us. The friend and his girlfriend took turns teasing each other as me when she wasn't and her when I wasn't. She and I didn't see any of this but she was normal to me. I didn't have any idea about her until one day my friend and girlfriend came to know about us and we talked about them as revenge. They also did the same to take revenge on us and started calling me by her name and her by my name. At first, we didn't take it seriously but in a few days it became a big thing and this game thing we did has now become a verb. It was nothing big to me but she was not like that. Some people didn't like her in college and they harassed her a lot to let them know about this. If she tolerated all this, she would not say anything to anyone and not think seriously about what they were talking about. Even though my friend and his girlfriend said it was just a joke, she couldn't stop talking about people she didn't like. This led to a great unexpected incident which I remember very well. The Kerala onam festival was celebrated in her college that day. My friend and his girlfriend had also gone out I had work till that afternoon She was the only one who came to college When everyone was celebrating She was very happy She was sitting at a place When she was sitting in a place Those who didn't like her and some other people came to her and talked unnecessarily And not only that they pissed her off on purpose and she was sitting there crying because there was no one to help her. She has been calling me many times because I have a part-time job. She didn't even notice the phone call. The last time she called me for the eighteenth time, she was crying without saying anything.

That one moment when love blossomed:

Fortunately, I had money in my hand that day so that I could go to my room after eating. She went to the front of the college but did not tell her classmates what happened. She just came and sat on the bike, and even when I asked she didn't tell me where to go, she said anywhere. There was a restaurant we used to go to and I was very hungry so I went there. She used to always sit in front of me but today she sat by my side even though I asked many times why she didn't tell me suddenly she held my hand and was crying again. I thought she wouldn't have eaten anything as I was very hungry so I tried to get up to order food but she just leaned on my shoulder and cried and didn't let go of me. Fortunately, no one came there at that time because we are friends, even the people who work do not think anything is wrong between friends. I immediately brought water and splashed it on her face and then asked her to get some juice to drink and made her drink it completely. A sister who was working there at that time checked her health and said that her health condition was not very good but she was able to walk a little. Fortunately, there was a hospital next door. I told her to get treatment immediately and I didn't ask for anything else from her. I immediately called my friend and talked to him and also told his girlfriend about this. Once the location was known, her treatment was over and I took her slowly. While coming out of the house she vomited and he took her inside with the help of his sister and put her on the bed and left me to leave. I asked her sister who I was and told her that I was her friend but she just looked at me suspiciously. When I cleaned up a little and was about to leave the house, she even said my name and moaned that I would take care of it. She had called me in the morning of the next holiday and she used to go to the temple and asked me to come there too. I came to know only after going there that she was not feeling well on the first day and when I asked her what happened there, she said that the Basanga, whom she did not like, came to her and talked unnecessarily in a way that provoked her anger. She said that one of them was holding her hand and pulling the saree that she had tied a little. Because of this, she got angry with them. Then I remembered that when I was studying in college, one of my seniors was working as a police officer in Chennai after completing college. I called him and asked him to give me his phone number. I asked my friend's girlfriend to give me the phone number of her friends. All the problems ended when my senior spoke to those people and then she stopped crying a little. After two days, her body returned to normal. Now I understand why all women should have a man in their lives. We told her that everyone should apologise to her before she starts college again and that no one should do that again. But her mother did not know about this but when her younger sister saw everything that happened here, she also told everything and all things passed. But her younger sister was not the only one who was suspicious of me. On top of this incident, she would go to my friend and talk for a long time and would not say anything if asked.

A moment that tried to say, love:

After this event, I saw many changes in her behaviour, if she sits next to me, there is always a small gap but not now, she talks to me for a long time, behaves with care, and talks with some kind of meaning, if not sending love verses, then posting a status is mainly about whether love comes out of friendship. But I don't have any idea and she has come to the extent of touching me and talking to me, nothing is right for me. When I told this my friend, I said that she has heard everything about you and I think she likes you. I was thinking that nothing should happen. As I was with her, a few weeks flew by and she had a few months left to complete her college career. By the time I knew I was going to break up, what I thought should not happen happened. She went to my friend's girlfriend and told me that she likes me. There was a negotiation going on between all of them to tell her that her friend's girlfriend is still a few days away. She has come to tell me her love many times. But in the end, she will say nothing and leave. When she comes to talk about this, I will talk about something else and leave. She will also leave in anger and will not show me anything. It didn't last long and with the help of all these people she decided that I am the right one for her in every way. She even told her sister but till now she didn't tell anything but me because I am going to think wrong. My friend and his girlfriend thought many times with her sister and decided. My friend's girlfriend is scared to tell me that she is only a few months away. My friend thought she wouldn't say anything else, a woman caught him at work and now he often laughs at her, so why would you want someone else when I'm your friend? She has no choice but she has to confess her love to me or I will leave her. This situation, a difficult situation arose in her life. One day, her cousin came to her house to inquire about everything. She was tensed to say that she could see her groom as she was about to finish college and that she had a good boy. Because of this, they told me that she had a younger sister, so she was confused as to what to do. But she had some dreams and again there was a big fight in her house to talk about marriage. We gave her some ideas that marriage is important in life but that is not life after all you can't go to work even if you get married you can't go to work after that you can take care of your mother you can help your family nothing will happen even if you get a job and get married you have to have a child then you have to take care of the child the groom They will put an end to everything and her dream by telling her to take care. It was successful enough to console the mother by telling her to calm down. She got a few more days to do all this just for me and tell me how she told me her love. Her father's memorial day came and when she was a little sad and a little happy, her mother came and said that the bridegroom is there according to your order. That day started with a big fight and it turned into a big deal. I told my friend's girlfriend what happened and she told me that this is her last day and if you call me and tell me what happened, I told her that I will convince her first and tell her that I will finish college and work for two years and get married. The order came and she went and bought a rose flower, a gift card and chocolates. As it is her father's anniversary, she has come expecting everything to go well for her. I went a little early and sat in the park. But if that day was very different, my friend and his girlfriend went alone to see her. If she behaved differently towards me she came near me and sat very close. Suddenly she held my hand together. That one she said when I realised her love (till now I never got my dad's hug even once she asked me to hug you once) I just froze. At that place, she gave me the things she had bought and hugged me tightly and was leaning on my chest and crying. Please don't misunderstand me. She said I want only you with me. I didn't say anything to ask you to answer me. I didn't know what to say to this. I left there. My friend and his girlfriend said please agree to ask what it is. The friend told me that she is a good girl for you and his girlfriend also joined that day. Only the conversation took a lot of time. I have seen her as a friend so far and I am standing in a confused state as to how I can think of her as a girlfriend. I looked back at her and she was crying because I came without saying anything. What did they finally say to make me agree? That one word she said made me agree with her love. Still, she didn't stop crying, she looked at me and started crying again. I went to her side and gave her a small smile, she understood the meaning. Who wouldn't want to find a woman like this in their life? Only after I agreed, she laughed. Finally, they trapped me in the trap of love. My friend and his girlfriend asked me to throw a big party that day. There was one thing hidden in this that people who thought they knew everything about me didn't know and that was the end of my love life.This love moment started going well between the two of us.We would talk a lot and go to many places. I will do whatever it takes to make her happy every second. Friendship turned into love. There was never any fight between us. There was always a good understanding between us. Everything was in harmony between us. She was always helpful and happy and a good companion in my life. Why am I saying this? Only she will find out by looking at my face, how I am, I will never forget anything from her about my situation, I was happy without any thought in life. Nothing in life is permanent for anyone and this life is redirecting me again. Even though I have solved every problem in my life, every responsibility is coming behind me, including the debt burden of the family, then my younger sister's education, and family expenses, and I alone am taking the entire responsibility of the family. Even though my mother works, she only helps with some family expenses and the situation of the family makes me more depressed. Love alone has a power that has begun to completely blind the eye. Time started running fast and she finished college and started working. Now let's meet only a few times. Talks of marriage have started again in her house. Nothing more can be done. She must talk to her mother. She came to me and told me that I need a few more days and she pushed me again for the same thing. That day came one day a small fight turned into a big one. What should I say? Why can't you talk to my mom? What should I say? They will ask everything about my family and work. What should I say? My family situation is depressing me. They have decided to sell the house due to the family debt burden. I have a younger sister. She is studying and getting married. Can you tell me that I am taking care of my whole family? No, I am not studying. Can you tell me that what I am looking for is not a permanent job? I didn't know that she thought she knew everything about me, but she knew nothing about my situation.

Division of Love:

I already know about her dreams. That day there was a big fight between the two of them and she got angry with me that you are telling me about all this now. At that time if you ask a question how many years will it take you to complete this thing that I didn't tell you before is the cause of this big problem so again nothing. I don't want to hide. Because I don't know how many more years it will take. A feeling of guilt in me that maybe I cheated on her and left her. My friend's girlfriend said that after that fight there was no contact for more than a week and her condition now maybe if she chose me her dream would be over and she started thinking about me. One day I got a phone call and I was mature enough to accept whatever decision she made. My friend and his girlfriend were there to support me. I waited for her in the same park and the same seat, hoping she had made up her mind about me. After a few days only now I saw her and she talked for a while mainly here everyone has the right to decide their life. She also has the right to decide her own life and I asked her to please tell me her decision. She made the right decision. I am not right for her. Only some feelings are enough for love but life needs more things. She has taken this decision after considering all this. I accept her decision because I have lost my love life. A man loses his love life when a woman doubts that he is not the right person for her. I also lost her boyfriend at one point, nothing more to say, this is happening in many people's lives here. Without knowing this I am blaming one another here first we need to know what we have. The decision she made for her life was the right one to hold on to those who decided to leave us and to be in a life that is not right for us is a hell of a life. If such an event happens in our life, I don't want to live a false life for someone else, I accept her decision. Next moment she was leaving me. The last time I saw her, her eyes were troubled. Tears started coming out. I told her to go completely but don't look back at me. She walked a few steps and I almost fainted because I couldn't accept that she was leaving me and I just sat there. She came back again but said one last word. I erased all her memories before that I'm nothing special. I'm not going to do anything wrong but that one last word she said still affects me today (I may have accepted you and your life is difficult because I'm the only one if you accept another girl and her life is also difficult). She said that if only another girl accepts you, you will be the only one in her life) She said these words to me at last and I did not understand the meaning of them. The last thing I got was that first kiss she kissed my forehead and I will be born again in this world for you then I will hold your hand then we will live well then she said no now and started leaving me. The last time I saw her was that day and now she made this decision. It's good that she made this decision maybe after life started. I couldn't even imagine it but I cried so much that day. Then my friend came to pick me up. A few people consoled me and told me we can do this and we can do this and it was all over and my friend and his girlfriend were supporting me. But I just couldn't accept that she left me. I cried for two whole days. Her memories did something to me. I couldn't be myself. I don't know what happened to my friend, the freighter. I drank all the beer he bought. That was the day I hit cargo for the first time and after that, I couldn't work properly and had no interest in anything. My friend got upset seeing my condition and didn't go to work for a few days. A few months passed and then I admitted to myself that everything is over but if I am here I can't do anything and every place keeps reminding me of her. Even now I will tell anyone who asks that I have erased her from my mind but she still lives in my memories. This is enough for me and I will live like this but I can't because I can't even tell what life will be like if someone who was with us is suddenly gone. Searched for her more than before but everything is over. Then I decided to come out. I saved only the hair that went first and within a few days I got up every morning and started running. I slowly started coming out of my memories. My friend's girlfriend called one day and told me that they emptied the house and everything and she gave me everything to contact her. All I want is for her to be fine wherever she is. Finally, I deleted all my social media phone numbers. I decided to go to another place for work, then my friend also got a job opportunity abroad and I started looking for another job seriously. I got a job in a company supplying home AC. Then someone known to my friend was working there, fortunately, I got a job in the company. First I went with him and learned about the job and then they told me that I can work alone. Even the salary is fine. My friend and his girlfriend told me and they broke up in regret. A new start to work was very difficult but after struggling for three months I got to know the work completely and started doing that work alone. Sometimes I talk to my friend and he also went abroad in a few days and because I have a lot of work, they gave me someone to accompany me. After my friend's departure, there was a problem with his love too. When the wedding talk came to her house, she told him to come from abroad immediately if she did not ask him to talk at home. Ivan was in a situation where he could not come and there was a huge fight between the two and they found her groom elsewhere. I don't know what happened between the two of them but both of them broke up and contact with both of them is gone. I am forgetting everything and moving on as life takes me. Drinking too much I thought I should quit it but I realised I was addicted to it and quit it too.

Solitude is enough:

Now loneliness was the most pleasant thing for me, everything is empty in my life, but I want to get rid of many things, but I sunk deep into them. Then I made a decision, I started going everywhere again, I will go to that park only one day a year, on the day I parted from her, but only one thing is running inside my mind. The moments that loneliness has given me are sweet and now I love loneliness more. We can only find the sweetness of our life in solitude. At that stage, I made a decision. I went to many places in solitude. A few changes happened in me, I am not meeting anyone new and not looking for anything in my life and my life is starting from scratch again. Singleness is also very happy. It went on like this for a few months and my work has also improved

Betrayed by a friend:

When I didn't even expect it, I met a friend who studied with me in college. I talked about many things with him and through him, I met people who studied with me in college. One day I told him what happened in my life without knowing it and he gave me advice to solve this problem. He is going to do business and looking for new investors. If you want to spend some money he said you will get a good profit after a few days. I also felt that I should do something in life. I said in my house, and then the biggest fight came, no matter how much they said no, it seemed that we could trust him and do business. First of all, we have to go abroad for three lakhs. For that, my mother prepared a total of five lakhs and gave it to me. I said that my life will change. He cheated me and the money I gave him in a network marketing company and he didn't tell me anything till then. After going there I found out that this is a network marketing company so I left my job. In this, money will come only if one joins one after another, and I have created a debt burden for my family. Then I understood that even friends can betray us. This one incident was the biggest blow in my life and it became known to my relatives and everyone in my family. Since then, my sister and I have been fighting and she is not talking to me. He deceived everyone who was with me. The whole thing went too far and I was revealed before everyone else to be a colossal idiot. It was a great experience in life and I couldn't stay there any longer so I got out. But the thing that happened now will be talked about with derision in my life even today. Who is the biggest enemy in life is those who know everything about us only because of them we will face many troubles.

I think to rise again in life:

For a few days, I was doing the same work that I had already been looking after. Then I got a call from the company again and somehow I joined the job. Now I don't trust anyone and don't give any help and don't say anything about me and started living life alone. I don't have anyone but I have friends in Chennai who are not permanent friends. I have left my friends in the city and I have started to disappear from my memory. I was talking to them for some time but they don't talk to me even if I talk I don't have time to talk but I let it go. In Chennai, I remember them only if I need something now it seems everyone interacts with each other only for their needs (more than this I fixed a mask on myself to act in front of others I started acting happy with a fake smile on my face no matter how much trouble I have in my life) now I in my life I think for myself and I don't let anyone else into my life. I have seen enough things in my life. Now I have crossed a part of my life, a deadly disease that I never expected, Corona came, our company got a notification, and the manager asked everyone to leave. This was the moment I spent most of my days in my house and I didn't like it at all. This was the moment when I was out of work. Overall, there was no work anywhere to cover everything. Debt problems were in another house and I couldn't do anything. At home they kept saying something else, they couldn't go anywhere, they couldn't do anything, and there were frequent fights at home. It was only then that I realised that if we have a few things, we can get respect and respect here. It was very difficult. I made a mistake and for that, I lost respect even at home. My mood was completely broken at that time. Somehow after completing the first lockdown, the bus facility came and somehow I ran away from that town. My company was open to doing some work but they told me to get a partial salary. When we started working saying that the salary we get is enough, we worked with the understanding that money was the only thing we needed in life because of the Coronavirus. But we did not expect that there would be a problem here as well. The company did not have enough people and still needed people for the job. The old employees did not come with this disease and did not need to go outside to work. There was only work inside the company and that too they had to know computers. Where 10 people were required, there were only four people, me and the guy who worked with me and two women from the company side. We can only do a few jobs in the department we are working in. The important job is to register the problem with the customers and tell them what they can do through phone calls and video calls. We have left the rest of the work so that we can take care of it if Corona is over. At that point, a woman who was looking for work and her friend came to work for a new job and they were staying in Chennai, so it made us a bit more comfortable. I was relieved that even though the work was hard, we helped each other. However, there is no one to teach computer work to the newcomers and the people working there, so the manager has appointed me for that. Now I have to do both jobs, take care of customers, computer network and many other things, but some people do not understand what I say. The old workers understood but the new arrivals did not understand anything and there was more to teach. A few days went on like this and now everyone has come to a stage where they can deal with anything and meanwhile, we all have become good friends. However, one day the woman I was visiting fell ill and had a slightly different corona symptom. Her friend was the only one here. I told her what she would do in my life.

Before a love wound heals again love calls me:

Her name is Aparna and her friend's name is Suji, she left due to ill health. Aparna was the only one who was working here and some people had come to work again.She came to the section where I was working and her friend told me to take care of her. How close we are, our company is a bit far away and no one knows that much, everyone comes by bike. Since her friend has gone, she doesn't know how to ride a bike, so she has to take a bus first to reach the place where the company is located, and then take an auto. If not, she has to walk for three kilometres. She has been walking to the company for a few days. Due to this disease, there were no facilities at that time and everyone had to work from home. Let me tell you about her, she is pretty to look at, she has been walking in that area for a few days now, so the area seems to have started coming back and then they started doing something. I don't even say anything to her, she is scared and I always come late after work. She used to finish work before me and leave. That area boy has been coming fast behind me on a bike for many days. She didn't tell anyone about this, so one day I had to leave early even though I had work to do, we all left the office at the same time. I had a little headache so I stopped at a shop and had tea so that I could leave. She was walking that way and I didn't talk to her that much. Meanwhile, someone in the lecture hall fell in love with her and told her that he loves her. He keeps bothering her by saying that she doesn't like him, only asking for her phone number. She was walking a short distance ahead of me and I was following behind. Suddenly a bike came and intercepted her and then two people said something to her and left. She walked a little distance and sat down near a bus stop. It was then that I saw what had happened, even if it was okay to leave, it would not be right to leave. I stopped the bike on the side and went to her side and saw her crying. Still, she didn't look at me. She asked me what it was and said it was my problem, ok you take care I will tell your friend then she slowly started telling me what happened. She is threatening that when she comes tomorrow I will see how you are leaving this place without answering that guy. Now I understand how many problems every woman has to face in this society. Even though they are brave on the outside, they still live in fear a lot on the inside. Her friend came to know about this and she told me that our castle is on the way and told me to please take her and leave. I brought her to find a solution to this but she didn't see the snakes in the morning and I knew they would be there in the evening so they were waiting for her to go there at the right time. If you go there, everyone is studying in college and only one of them is a small boy who is older and he is the one who has fallen in love with her. The thing is that Basanga used to work in our company in the upper part of that area. One of the people in the crowd, the younger brother of the worker, saw me and hid. As I was wearing a different company uniform, some people started to retreat. They knew very well what would happen if such a problem arose, so I immediately called his brother. He walked over to the area to call his brother. We told him that it is not good to do something like this from now on, and the problem was solved. In this case, her friend called me on the phone and said that she is very scared, take care of her until I come, the way you are going is the way you are going, you take her and ask me to go, but I made her agree, but there was a small gap between us. Within a few days, she started getting very close. This corona disease lockdown, what else to do, there is no bus facility, and food items are not available properly. We all helped each other with food and she started interacting with me casually. Even if she needs any help at work, she will come and ask for biryaniLet's dive in. This is the treasure of a bachelor's life, for this reason, life is going on in a pattern where there is always a fight. The disease turned life into a nightmare and the situation worsened when the second lockdown came at this time. The symptoms of this disease were mild for me and I suffered from loneliness for 7 days. Fortunately, I got some help from the company and within a few days, I got better and started working again. Then one day an incident made her come closer to me and when everyone in the company was working hard, she suddenly started getting periods. But the day for that did not come and therefore the necessary material was not in hand. The pain and bleeding were profuse and she didn't know how to tell anyone about this. So a woman who was also working came and told me that she came to me reluctantly to tell me this matter and ask for leave and I agreed. But she must be sent to the room, I can't let her go, I asked her what kind of help she wanted, please tell her to buy a napkin. I read somewhere that if you eat something sweet, the pain will be reduced, and I called the driver of the car to take her safely, and he came after a while. When she hesitated to go, I asked her what if her friend who worked had blood stains on her back. Ok, I went inside and asked her to take off my shirt and tie it around her waist, putting on the bunions to wear while working in the company. She said it was okay to call her at lunch and ask how she is. Her friend called me and told me what happened and thanked me. Again it took two days for her to come to work and I even had to do her work. Somehow she came to work and smiled at me and thanked you. I asked her where it was my favourite shirt and she said she couldn't do anything because it was stained with blood. Also, some new people came to work but the work started to slow down a bit and I worked a little bit more and was vaccinated then my health got bad. I worked despite being told to take a break, so I became completely unwell. So I called the company and told them that I have taken leave and told them to call me if I need anything. She called me early in the morning and told me to book a car and go to the office. Leave and she didn't know that I was sick and my friend called me to ask for leave from the company and he didn't get it. He bought the pills in the morning and went to work. I could not eat and after eating I vomited. When I get a cold, I become unwell. By then, she called me to ask me about this. I am not feeling very well. There is no one. Then I told him to make a phone call and left the phone, I couldn't take a proper break. My phone is out of charge and I fell while trying to charge it. Suddenly a phone call came in the afternoon to see who I was. She had my phone number and came to the office in the afternoon to ask what I was doing. She called a friend and asked for my address to inquire about my health. She has come. I must have gone to the hospital in my condition. But she said that she can't go without someone's companion and my friend can't come either. She asked me why she came. She looked at me and asked some questions and other nice words. came After going to the hospital two injections and glucose along with one injection and some money was spent in the hospital for a total of three hours. They said that they cannot admit her because of the high number of corona cases. The hospital has told her that they will only allow her to ask who you are if he is a relative. Also, a nurse asked her again who you are, to see the doctor and tell her how to give the medicine. In what way are you related to her?When asked again, she said that I am going to get married. I left my money purse and came here to send a few things to the doctor. If you want to see if you want to pay, then you can pay online. Money has already been paid and pills have been bought. I asked the nurse who was there and they said that the woman you are going to marry had shown up. She was standing there to look back at who I was and asked why I said that. She said that only then would she allow me to say that. I didn't see anything serious in the situation I was in. We left saying that my health was not good. At that time there was no house owner and many rooms were empty and no one would notice. I was not able to walk much and while getting down from the auto, I got down with difficulty and many people were calling on the phone. This friend called me on the phone and told me not to say anything. She came to help me and told me that she was here in the room. My room was on another third floor and when I tried to go up I tripped and when I tried to go up I couldn't sit down. She went ahead and opened the pill and the house first. When it was time I didn't come up so she came down to see what happened and seeing me sitting down I told her I couldn't come up to ask what happened. When I tried to stand up, I couldn't stand, so I put my hand on her shoulder and immediately took it off and asked her to forgive me. She didn't understand and put her hand on her shoulder and told me to come up slowly. She took me even though I told her not to. My body part was very shaky. I slept well and she kept porridge for me. After a while, she woke me up and asked me to take some porridge. She asked her mother to ask how I was and she had prepared it. I called her to the hotel to drink some porridge and bought biryani. She eats with a smile and always fights for biryani. Today it is only for her. I couldn't do it at that time. I vomited because the pills were too strong and I couldn't bear it. The doctor has told her that if something like this happens to her, another pill should be prepared immediately in hot water and applied to the body. She got ready in a while but I couldn't figure out how to show her body to a girl so please leave it alone. I said that I can't tell her to take off her t-shirt immediately when she gets sick and she tries to take off the t-shirt. After giving the dressing, I felt a little sick and slept for a while to wait for me. After an hour I woke up. She made tea for me and drank it. Then I asked her to leave saying that her condition had improved because it was already evening. She said that she will not go, my friend will come and I will take care of her. She called at night and was talking to me. My friend found out that someone had come. I told him that she is the one. The next day I did not go to the office and took leave. My health has improved enough now. She called me in the afternoon and inquired about my health. My manager told me to come to the office the next day as I am busy with work. I went to work without knowing what to do because of what he said. As soon as I went to the office, she smiled at me. I said thank you. But everyone has seen many changes in her, she is very close to me and I take care of her many things. I couldn't do anything more than this, fortunately, her friend has come, even if she comes, she will only come with me and wait for me till I come to eat and finish all the other work. If I ask why, she will say that we are the same team, and I don't see anything big. Everyone except me saw her change and no one told me or asked me after that she was in need she said something to see me and left. Even if I take leave, wherever I go, she also takes leave and comes there. We did not understand some of her actions and immediately her friend managed to say that her actions are not right, saying that I am his close friend. I started moving away from her as she came closer to me. She fought me for it and asked me to be her friend because I don't have any friends, to which I told her that I don't trust anyone and asked her to go to her friend and ask her to be my friend. I said that I will only be a friend, and I agreed, then she started by saying best friend. But this is not true. I was doing some things to take care of her every day. As this corona disease ended, the work was a bit too much. She often asks her friend something to know about me. Although I was a little suspicious of her, I was the only one who didn't know where the problem would come from. Then she had to mail all the work completed on the last day of the month. She sent them one by one. She made a huge mistake. To change the information, she had to copy and paste. If she did the copy-paste, all the information was messed up. Nothing can be done, she has to record all the information from the beginning. On that day, she got angry with the entire higher authorities. The manager told her to complete the work and leave. No one came forward to help her and finally, I was the one who got stuck. The manager told them to finish the work together and leave because it is very important to work and must be sent in the morning. I was angry with her but didn't show it. This is a good time for her. She can't spend as much time with me as her friend does now. It's time for me to finish work so she will go with her. She used this opportunity very well. Our work started at 6 pm and it took 11 pm to finish the work. If you work for a long time, your body aches and your arms and legs are tired. The whole body has become hot and the eyes have turned red due to working on the computer for a long time. I couldn't see anything properly and she did the work for a while. After sleeping for ten minutes, we went and washed our faces and got ready to leave the room and came down to the office. Although we knew very well that she was not feeling well, we got on the bike and started to leave. Her friend called me and told me that I will collect her safely but I don't know what happened to her that day. She was weird. I couldn't drive properly because of a headache. Tea and coffee are also available in Chennai at night and at that time there was a tea shop on the bicycle. I stopped the cart to drink coffee and took the headache pill in my bag. She also came and sat beside me while buying coffee but I knew that she was sicker than me and she had never done the same work before, I knew that her sleep and health were not good and she needed help when she got up. I helped her get up and sat on the bike. I got ready to leave as soon as I could drop her in the room. As the carriage was moving she held her hand on her shoulder and then she leaned back and put her hand on her waist and held her tight and said nothing to ask what I said. When she started to say yes, she almost fell off the bike. I stopped the bike one way and I was very scared. I gave her all the water and waited for a while and took her slowly. I went to her room as she already knew that I was not a man. Dropped her down and got ready to leave she said please wait for a minute. I asked why she came to tell me something and asked me what to say and then she told me that she likes me a lot and I said ok. Don't you understand what I am saying? I love you, definitely you are suitable for me. Please think about it. By the time she asked for my answer, her friend came downstairs to pick her up as she was not well. But she kept on asking her friend to come near and I could not say anything in that situation so I left. But I could not answer her as she was going to the room looking at me till the end. The next day I took leave because I was so sick that I definitely needed a day off. She was on leave because she was not feeling well that day, so I got up late that day. I didn't pay attention to my mobile phone that day, the phone was in silent mode and she was calling me many times. I woke up in the morning and went back to sleep and woke up in the afternoon. I am a little clearer now, I remember everything that happened yesterday to a certain extent. She was talking on the phone without knowing what to do. To talk to her, the phone was on silent mode, I didn't notice, why are you calling so many times, she said, didn't I tell you yesterday, I asked what you said. I asked her to get away from her She asked if I could remember. I said no.

Second love In My Life:

She says I said I like you. I immediately told you that I like you too, but you don't understand what I'm saying. I told you yesterday that I love you, I didn't say it for a while, so I thought I'd repeat it. Then I said to her that she doesn't want all this, I'm not used to you like that and hung up the phone. I told her that if she keeps on calling again, I will not be able to finish it. We left it to her friend to tell her about this matter so that we can talk about it later. She comes after work and asks her what's up and says I really love him and want to live with him. She is also crying in deep sadness because I said I can't. No one knows a thing about me, only I know what's behind my mask. She got a phone call from her friend saying she really loves you. She said that we can definitely see and talk in person once. Please come and see me in person once. OK, I got a phone call again to ask why, they told me to come to the place where there is a park next to the room. Earlier her friend asked why do you love him and she told me all the incidents that happened, his love, warmth and behaviour. I totally like him and I want all these for the rest of my life. She took my shirt for safekeeping and a few other things from me without my knowledge. As far as I remember she told her friend the whole truth and asked him to please come and meet her. I had to leave that day so I did not go to work the next day I went to work but I did not see her even for a moment. She came to talk to me but I left without talking to her. Her friend could not see her condition and asked her to please come to the park after work. I also wanted to get rid of this so I said I will come. I left first and they also came. She ran and sat by my side. I never saw her immediately. She started crying.Her friend called me and spoke alone. She was mad at you and said why are you behaving like this. Please tell me. I can't say anything I said I don't want all this love. Ok come and talk to her and she also wants to know the answer and is very worried. She said that you have done one thing to make her fall in love with you. I told her that please forgive me and that I didn't think like that. Okay, let's talk to her and make her understand. I went and sat next to her. She was angry with me but as soon as she sat next to me she held my hand till my hand hurt. Then I got some blows crying. Why are you saying you don't want me? I tried to leave her but she didn't let me go. She keeps telling me that she always wants me. Her friend came to help me and I was about to leave saying that it won't work. They asked why and I said again that I can't say anything. Then I brushed off her hand and asked her what she knew about my life, but she didn't get an answer. Now I understand why I don't want to tell them things about myself when I have to take off the mask I've been wearing. I have even told them things about my life that no one knows about so that now you both will understand. Her friend was saddened to see my condition, she was looking at me and wondering if so many events had happened in his life. I may be suitable for her but I am not perfect and I cannot accept her because of these reasons. I have a lot of things to complete in my life. I can't do anything for myself in my life. I live my life only for my family because of some reason. I'm not the same person she knows this is not okay. She has a different life ahead of her and she needs to live well. I didn't want to cause trouble in her life and asked her to please take her away. Her friend understood my situation then but she didn't understand. I told her that I can only be a friend and she said that I made her fall in love even more. Her love covers her eyes and according to her, she doesn't want to lose me in her life. Her friend tried to talk to her but couldn't. I was about to go and even then I didn't let go. If her friend tried to stop her, she wouldn't listen at all. I started walking a little distance. She grabbed my hand and hugged me in front of everyone. I didn't want to cause trouble. There were a lot of people in that park. I called her friend to pick her up and told her to go to her room and think calmly and sent her away. But nothing I said was enough for her and she didn't seem to think anything and definitely left me. She got a phone call from her friend saying she wants you, she says she can take care of it for whatever reason, I told her to please make her understand. I went to the office again and they didn't let me in. Even our behaviour got suspicious among the workers and it even went to the manager. I didn't listen to anyone and I couldn't do my job properly so I said that I would work for a few days when I was at home. No matter how much she says, she doesn't listen, then it becomes clear to everyone that she is a very rich housewife who is pampered and brought up as the only woman in the house. When she came to Chennai, she couldn't stay idle after studying at home, so she was sent here because she wanted to visit other places just to see around Chennai. Whatever she says in her house must happen there. She has never seen any problem in her life till now money is not a thing about her and her whole expenses are taken care of by her housemates. She spends the money she earns well and buys her favourite things. She has many people to take care of her. She has a brother who is married. She grew up with a lot of wealth and no matter how luxurious she wants to live. She grew up not knowing what it would be like to be in trouble. She enjoys life. This was after I asked her friend to tell the truth about her and I was not ready to accept whatever she knew about her. Even though I was working from home, she called me frequently and disturbed me. She asked me what are your duties. I told her a few things. I know this will take almost years to complete and I said please leave me alone. In the evening I got a phone call again asking what is the matter, my father will take care of everything and she urged me to agree to marry her. Her father is doing a big business in town and after marriage, if you want you can take care of it otherwise you can do business alone and my family will provide all necessary help to your family and she talks needlessly. I'm not bad enough to take advantage of her, I don't want any help and I can't accept anything. She is living her life and I am looking for my life.I hung up the phone and I didn't agree with anything she said. On top of that she started threatening me. She said that she will kidnap you and marry you. I also told her that I will not eat or sleep if I do not talk to her. She did what she said. She started making various threats saying that I will write a letter again, I will cut off my hand, and I will commit suicide, if you do not agree, I will even say that you have cheated on her and spoiled me if I do not agree to marry me. Her friend was scared and I was a little scared too. She does this because of her friend's insistence, so I only talk to her often. Even then there was a fight and she would do her work only if I spoke to her. There was also a problem waiting for me, my superior engineer was working at a place where he and I had a problem and he was also waiting to take revenge on me. No matter where I turn, trouble awaits me. I knew for sure that I would be trapped and the time came for that, while the engineer was waiting to take revenge on me, she also decided not to leave me. This practice of hers only made me hate her. The right time came for both of them to take revenge on me. A few things about me and this love affair were reported to the higher authority and he arranged a complaint commission to investigate these events against me. Her anxiety was so unbearable that I knew right away that I was well and truly hooked. I proved that there is no wrongdoing on my part in the complaint commission and gave some proof and told to take Axon if needed. They asked about the love issue and I told them that it was my matter. By that time they had started visiting her groom at her house to talk to her about this. After finishing work that day I got so many phone calls. I picked up the phone without looking for a video call, then they were talking about my marriage from my house and she asked me to please agree to marry her. If not, she kept a knife in her hand and kept saying that she would commit suicide. In my anger, I said do whatever you want without knowing why you are killing me. She cut her hand in a short time and only one photo came to WhatsApp, I was very scared. She called her friend and she immediately called the hostel warden. They opened the room with a different key, applied first aid and went to the hospital. The warden called her father out of fear and told me that I went to the hospital not knowing what I had done. Her friend also came and the doctor said that a lot of blood has gone and we are giving blood and the faintness is still not clear. They told me that there was no harm to life, and only then did I feel relieved. Her friend said that her father is coming from town, you don't have to stay, I will tell you if there is no problem. They came to the hospital the very next morning saying that they could solve the problem. Her friend said that there were two carts of people coming and asked me not to come. She wakes up in the morning and asks what happened, then she tells them everything that happened. Then they decide to see me for who I am and do something with me. My manager also gets to know what is going on here and then a phone call comes from an unknown number asking who I am, I am her brother, and I want to see you, they said to come to the hospital. They are also inquiring with her friend and she is also supporting me and has already called me in front of her. She said if you are coming then come here with people to help you. My manager also helped me by saying that he was going to get a police officer to help me and go to the hospital with him. I went to the hospital with the police officer to report these events to the engineer's superior officer. I knew that many people who were helping me would be in danger and would be caught in my problems so I quit my job. After going to the hospital, her brother came first and grabbed my shirt immediately. The police officer stopped the bike and came out and told him that no matter what happens, he will let him all inside. She said that she can only talk to her mom and dad if there is no mistake on me and please come. They also came to ask about the things that happened and I told them everything. I told her not to ask her even if she had doubts but to go and see what I told her. They were angry with me but later understood and asked her friend and even the work people and no one said anything against me. They went to her and asked her what she wanted and she said she wanted me. Not knowing what they thought, they asked if you would marry our girl. They asked if you can marry her because you look like a nice guy. They said we are helping you. They said why are you saying no? They said she wants you. I am not the guy you want for your girl. I said I have many duties to complete in my life. They asked me what to do next (get a house, get my younger sister married, take care of my parents, settle the family debt). I don't have any qualifications that you expect your girl to marry a boy. It is from your position that I am giving this answer that I cannot accept her and that you are doing all the things for her. But I'm not like that and even if we get married we won't live happily ever after. I don't want to be a problem in anyone's life and I have forgotten that I have a life to live like this. I have seen many difficult moments in my life (now my job is gone, I am married and can't take care of myself. You will say that I have a child. All my problems will come together. Finally, this love will disappear and life will be a problem. only exists and after that state of division only comes as permanent) and to use a woman to advance in life I am not that cruel I do not need anything like that I like her she has a good life. She will find a better boy than me. I am not right for her. Get married and don't regret it. Life takes more than just what you expect from a guy to be good here. Please tell me what life is and guide them. They understood my situation and it seemed right. They went and talked to her and she didn't understand and at last, they came to me and said you should go and see me once. I asked why and they said she says she wants to see you but at last, I said I can't. She asked why I couldn't see her in such a condition and everything was over after I went inside. I said yes and she asked me to please forgive her for causing me so much trouble. She asked if she could be friends with me and I said no. There are a few reasons for that and finally, I told her to live her life well and don't worry about anything. To that, she said that no girl would think of leaving someone like you in her life who needs a lot of time to forget you and said that she doesn't know who you are. I felt that I would not be able to stay here any longer, her condition made me sadder, so I prepared to leave the hospital. When I opened the door, she called me by my name for the first time, San, and then something struck me. This name is only called by people who are very close to me. Old memories came back. Only one person has used this word more in my life and she called me. Those words came to my mind and I understand the meaning of the words my ex-girlfriend said when she broke up. I looked back at her with small tears in my eyes and left the hospital with a small smile on my face.

A few old memories:

It has nothing to do with it and I want to get rid of my memories so I erased all her memories. I have gone so far away that no one can contact me so no message can reach me. Every event in life is an experience and we meet everyone for a reason. I had a lot of trouble because I quit my job. In between this, I happened to meet my friend's girlfriend one day. I didn't see her and she found me. We both met in a shopping mall and she was married then she told me her story and when I asked her how was her married life she said something was going on and we talked about a few things. She started saying a few things about her ex-girlfriend even though I didn't listen. The two of them do not talk but once met in college and are seeing her groom who works in an IT company and agrees to her orders. She said marriage soon but I know that both of them will talk when this matter is over. There was no point in talking about it anymore so I talked to her for a while and left. But inside I had a little regret, I wanted a job, so I started looking for a job. I got a job in another AC company. The job went well. It took exactly a few months and the doctor told me not to lift heavy objects. I can't do this job anymore and I've been sad for days thinking about life.

The moment I started living a new path:

Now I already got a job in a company because I already had work experience in a healthcare company. I put all my wishes and dreams aside and started to complete the duties to be completed in life one by one. I have completed the debt problems of the house. One by one I start doing all the duties of a boy. My sister's marriage also ended and till now there is a rift between us. I Helped her with a few things for her wedding. I am also a reason for some things that happened in my life and now I like solitude a lot. A few questions are buried in my mind and I am now looking for answers to them. I now understand that nothing is permanent in life. I have discovered my weakness and it is clear that many people here are betraying me by using the same. It is from this age of 20 to 25 that life begins and we can learn what life is at this age. We have the full right to live life. Now I am starting to learn new things. Relationships are all new until it gives us pain. Among those who enjoy solitude, I have developed a habit of listening to songs more and more. Indeed, the end of relationships is always separation in the end. Everything in life cannot be told to everyone and the wind carries tears without anyone to comfort them in many people's lives. I have stopped looking at others, there is medicine for the hurt, and there is no medicine for the mental pain of one's life, till today I do not understand why this changed in me. I have kept everyone away from me. I have enough pains in my life and I will bear pains for no one else but for me. I have met many people in my life and they have taught me life. These events are an example of what a person's mindset and life will be like if they don't get what they need at the right time in life. I have heard that everyone will change in life. Life is like stairs. We can climb them slowly but we can't climb fast or we can't go beyond. We will fall. I am writing this here for one reason only. I have many questions in my life and I am looking for the answers and I am starting to get them. Live your life for yourself and not for others!

End of story:

I have finished telling all the events that happened in my life. Here everything that happens in other people's life is fun until it happens in their own life. Even now my life has not changed and the problems have not disappeared but I have to live my life and be myself. I have learned many good things as far as my life is concerned and I have gained a lot of thought about life. A few memories are enough for me and I will live with my memories till the end. There is no rule in this world that we should live our lives like this. Everything has an end and when our hard work gives us success one day all the pains of life will disappear.

The lines written in it are full of pain so I have named it appropriately.

Some lines are painful!