ADHD's art

I have always been an artist; whether we are talking about visual arts, audio arts, up to performance arts, I loved it and would always receive high grades or compliments in that area. I think it is important to add that as a child, schooling was never my strong point. Although I have attended more schools than I could count on one hand, I think elementary takes one by itself: this is a whole other story; the importance to take away is that I would always have high grades when it came to art. I have drawn photos teachers asked to keep, I have made oil paintings teachers asked to keep. I even wrote short stories in elementary and high school. On two occasions, my teachers highly complimented the stories. I was also huge in performance arts; unlike dance class, I was the student everyone wanted on their team. I even graduated from an adult school that provided audio and video editing courses; in that course, my teacher used my idea for the entire class. Oh yes, we needed to submit our idea, and from that idea, he created a voice-over, company introduction, and closing summary with his video and audio recording company. The teacher would also often tell the class to pay attention when my work would go onto the screen. Especially for my Tupac- dear mama, music video. Now, of course, we all have our strong and weaker points in arts: I needed a Pencil, Pencil crayons, scissors, cords, scissors, Pens, Paintbrushes, textbook, or canvas boards and sheets, and a stage with a toy mic or my written script. But watch me having to redirect back to the story. In this article, I will discuss how I have tackled most aspects of art and how my, I mean Jessica’s life, took an exciting turn.

It all started in the children’s hospital in Montreal, Quebec. As a child, I would often attend the hospital because of my asthma and later because of my behavior. While living in the hospital, this would be grade one; I had a lady who would come and see me or go and see her. We would have discussions, and one day, when discussing a photo I liked, she put a pencil in my hand, grabbed a projector, and had me trace the photo and color it up. This form of art is what sparked my overall interest in visual arts. I would spend my days drawing things I see or making racetrack courses. My art began to be provided as a gift, during the holidays or my birthday. I became so good at drawing that I many assumed I was still tracing. I was so good that the clinic my grandmother ran asked if I could draw a photo saying no rollerblades were allowed. So yes, whenever you walked into the clinic de Ville-Emard, my photo was the first thing you would see, and I was in elementary. Now to ease into 3D designs, this was not a tremendous interest until I became a teenager. However, in grade two, I and the trusty scissors created a garage for our company project. Yes, my garage looked decent for someone in grade two, just like the 3D house I designed in high school and the television stand I created for my father, who taught me craftsmanship.

Now quick touch on audio arts, my father purchased me a keyboard and wanted me to learn the piano in grade three, but I developed my love for art. So I pushed the piano aside. As a result, my family every birthday or holiday would get gifts art-related, outside of the socks my grandmother gave every Christmas. Therefore, many would perceive that Jessica, I mean I, will stay in visual arts; jessica did push the piano aside; how does she get into audio arts? Jessica, I mean, I graduated elementary in 2004 with an award for outstanding achievements in art, and I quote, “For having the ability to draw whatever you put In front of her,” so you would think drawing and 3D design would be her passions for the future right? What was not mentioned is Jessica loved lip singing with a toy mic and performing since grade one while unwillingly driving her father nuts. Picture a child at the top of their lungs singing, “…Ops I did it again, I played with your heart…” or “I love candy” point is I ALWAYS loved music while having my love for art. In other words, if I enjoyed a song and my toy mic is not around, I will grab a pencil, even a pair of scissors, to create a mic. My dad mentioned to me how he got me so many Aron Cater tapes: a copy for my music class in grade one, and the remainder was to replace whichever he would break.

Now to welcome 2005, Jessica gets introduced to performance arts and writing scripts. Jessica, therefore, pushed art aside, and as much as her father would try to push it back into her life, performance art became life. However, I heard a song in high school that I cannot name that shifted my interest a bit. Lip gloss was one of the songs that kept my interest, but the beat left me feeling like the first time I heard Deborah Cox’s “Nobody supposed to be here” as a child. Now you probably saying, I thought you loved Aron Carter? Yes, I did, but this time the song moved my body and ears instead of my vocals if that makes sense. I began to count the different melodies in the beats. As a result, I got into beatboxing and making beats with my hands or anything hanging around. By I believe 2008, I was writing poetry and stories. I had a project for English class which ended with me having one of the best stories provided. From that point, I got into writing music and kept to it regardless of the number of new interests that would develop.

Now wait a minute, I am confused Jessica, you’re jumping everywhere. Earlier I mentioned my difficulties in school; it’s an ADHD art. An essential highlight because I was pulled out of regular high school and put into an alternative school. My passions remained the same; however, this is when I got introduced to oil painting. I had a French teacher (head of the program) who had a course that enabled the students to paint their emotions or things they like. The teacher loved my paintings and even requested to keep one for the school’s hallway. In other words, my painting would be on the wall every time this course occurred, even when I would graduate.

However, Jessica goes to another school; this time, her father pulled her out because she was 16, and he thought adult school would enable her to take schooling more seriously. It did not happen. However, that is a whole other story. I was skipping school a lot; I would meet many different people while hanging in the parks. I once cut school to hung out in a recording studio, across the bell center, with my former partner. We had music playing and were hanging out, then Kurpt, “we can freak it,” came onto my phone; I began singing word for word, and all eyes were on Jessica. Now all eyes because of what I was singing or how?

My partner was shaking their head as if they were trying to say no, but I kept going. Long story short, my partner and the owner went into another room, and I began to discuss my overall interest in music with the owner’s friend. Did this lead to ghost-writing? In 2010, an artist who was writing for many years saw my passion and told me I needed more structure in my writing and added to try and add rhyming and play with your words. He had a dictionary that allowed me to seek words with the same meaning but said differently. Long story short, he began to show me the industry and its functions. He even found me, someone I could write a song for since I was not comfortable with the singing yet. He was amazing. When I say amazing, you just needed to say his rapper’s name or crew, and the whole school knew him. Picture Chris Brown getting the award for best performance at the Grammys, well he was the Chris brown of our talent shows. My first song was not a hit nor released, but the opportunity left me trying and trying until I got better. Nothing can cut my pride; I would even smile at golden scissors and continue.

I then planned on coming out with an Album, studio booked, and everything, but it never worked out, and I dropped my drive to perform what I write and remained Ghost while getting into creating playlists of music. At the same time, I was known as Dizzy J Fox and started to research different people I could work with: At this point, I meet a DJ who provided me with his CD. The moment I heard the CD, I told myself I would be a DJ on the radio someday and began to create mixes. I would post on Facebook asking people to say their favorite artist, and I would lime wire away. For the new generation, lime wire is what takes money out of an artist’s pocket. Free downloads and maybe a virus came with it. I would continue to write for some people from time to time but being a DJ was my goal. As a result, me and my former partner, who danced and sang, created a crew with me. The unit was called GSC, a bunch of young individuals with different talents to share. Unfortunately, the team never turned into our original goal, so we stepped away from what we created.

In 2011/12, I began a video and audio editing course; my passion grew for performance art. I stopped writing music and got into scriptwriting. Once the entire class planned “my teacher is a zombie,” my love for performance arts grew into filming too. I enjoyed filming so much I took a course in college for my complimentary. So, a big jump from high school to college, right? Jessica, as in I, is graduating high school, and this brought joy to her family because no one thought she would ever complete her sec 5. Further enjoyment is added because Jessica announces that she brought her grades up drastically because she wanted to get into Vanier College SCC or John Abbott theater. I, as in Jessica, was told she required a minimum average of 80%. Jessica, graduating with 95% as her lowest grade, had to decide whether her career would be based on performance arts or health care? It was made clear; as the first grade, both schools would see if 100%, I would have higher chances of getting in. Maybe not the first choice for Vanier, but I had chances of getting in, as I would with John Abbott. However, family and friends said Hollywood is no guarantee like working in health care. Being a youth in difficulty with a minor developmental disability and having a baby brother who is an individual with a serve developmental disability, my overall experiences lead me to choose health care over performance.

In summary, the things I wanted to pursue as a career turned into a hobby. The more and more I got into SCC, I disengaged myself from performance art as a whole. However, in my final year for the third-year project, I had the sister of la voix’s IV Noemie lorzema and a second girl who sings in a church too. Once Noemie’s sister and I were singing Kirk Franklin “melodies from heaven,” and our teacher came into the room to exit through the other door. Why is this important? The teacher watched us smiling and said, “Have a good evening ladies,” after being told by Noemie’s sister, I had a great voice for I forgot the position she said, but the point is if I work my voice, a fantastic singer believes I could be as unique. What is the relevance? Though I was singing, even as a child, especially in grade two, it was just something I enjoyed doing but never really seen as a career. I enjoy being in the background, but I remember that I was one of the promising voices for our American idol show once, at a sleepover camp. I sang Alicia Keys “Fallen,” they said I was perfect, but I know my vocals need a lot of work now.

The most fantastic thing in this entire story, though, would be, during the whole process, I kept up with my hobby of creating keychains with my cords, trusty hands, and scissors. I mention this because I can now differentiate the joy of a hobby and the pleasure of a career. I did not watch a lot of Degrassi, but everyone knows Jimmy’s story. He was in a chair but still pursued his music; I am not saying I am Drake, that is a dream of many years to come, but I am saying I have a story.

In 2019, I lost essential things and broke my ankle; I’d call myself the game if I were a man. I was bedridden for two weeks and had an air boot for 5-6 months. I grew bored and turned back to music. I would lie down and listen to the number of instruments I think were used, listen to the vocals, and when I felt at my lowest, music brought me back up. In summary, I am more than happy to say; I am a registered artist, author, and individual who can work film and video for the government of Quebec.