The light

Jolting up from the floor I look around and stand up hastily, looking out the window I see nothing but darkness and a... dim light in the distance? The light almost seems hazy; maybe covered over with a dark grainy film. As I stare hearing a voice in my head: “It’s here”. I shake my head in an attempt to regain control of my thoughts- Suddenly. No. Abruptly, a very loud noise shakes the room I’m in forcing me to cover my ears, my body his the floor and my back presses against something cold and wet; normally I’d be concerned by this odd feeling, but I’m too alarmed to even think about it.

The noise grows louder… Oh, it stopped. I take a minute to recall what the noise was, it sounded almost like a train passing above, but louder. Recalling the cold wet sensation, I jump up in shock quickly swiveling around to inspect the cause of that sensation… there's nothing there, just a wall… I think. I press my hand against the so-called wall, it should be concrete- What is this? The wall slowly melds around my hand like a thick gooey substance and I feel that cold, wet sensation once again. I pull my hand back in such an aggressive manner that if faced with another person it’d be mistaken for hostility. Once again I recall, I should be looking for a way out; Looking around the room with desperation I notice a door. Can it be opened? Correction, Will it open? I grab the handle and push the door open furiously, soon faced with a dark void-like plane.

There's nothing to be seen for miles… I feel a fire burn inside me, quite literally I may add, it feels like a heart attack as I clutch my chest and fall to the ground filled with stress and confusion. This isn’t real, at least I hope it isn’t; I look out at the void once again to see the dim grainy light… It seems… Closer? Where am I? How did I get here? Memories seem to flood back like a waterfall onto a river sending my mind in an endless spiral. This isn’t real! This isn’t real! Echoing in my mind as if I was screaming in an empty room...the solid ground that was once under me suddenly disappears. Turning I reach out to grab something, anything, but there was nothing there; This isn’t real! This isn’t real! Almost like a ticking clock in my mind, actually… it was like a parrot repeating the only word it knows when something shocking happens, but now it’s quiet, or maybe I can’t hear the thought in my mind over the sound of wind flying through my ears as I fall.

I had almost forgotten that I was falling until now, I thought it’d be more horrendous, terrifying or traumatizing but I was only shocked for a moment. An almost hazy feeling washes over me, it’s warm and not the most soothing feeling; I can’t help but let my mind wander and wash away with this feeling... Unfortunately, I’m brought back to cognitive thought as I come to a realization: when was the last time I ate? I don’t feel hungry, in fact I feel nothing at all, physically at least. Suddenly, a sound in my head, almost like a wind chime beckoning me not to think any further, and I oblige. This can’t be real! Flipping over I’m suddenly facing toward the light that had seen before, It didn’t seem real… gradually the light grew clearer: it was real.