Recipe For Life

Astrology is one of the ingredients that make up my spiritual journey. Periodicals offer many predictions of how your day or life should or will be unfolding. To actually get a true summary of your soul's makeup there is much more to explore than your general birth sign. It is a developed science and couples with numerology. I have dabbled in many of the metaphysical studies throughout my life. I have never become an expert in anything other than my own personal compass that spans seven decades. I am a Taurus in Sun, Ascendant in Gemini, and my Moon is in Leo. I am an eight with four and five.

I imagine some know exactly what I am talking about and others just find it a bunch of airy-fairy fodder. I know for me that the accuracy of what makes up my unique soul is pretty right when I delve into the complete science of astrology and numerology. My spirituality which is constantly changing and learning believe that we all choose to come down here on this planet for a karmic experience and we choose that formula of time and birthplace as well as parents to create that journey.

My personality reflects the strong and determined part of Taurus. Gemini gives me the ability to see dual possibilities, and Leo makes me want to be noticed and loves attention. I have experienced the cosmic laugh and have vivid memories from explorations in past life memories. I have been to psychics and spiritualists and have had some ho-hum readings and some astounding ones. I read and affirm many teachers from many points of religious beliefs. Some ring true. others make me cringe and question.

To share one such journey into my past life memories I will tell you about what my memory of what I believe to be my life before this one. The one thing about my experience in past life regression is that you see past memories through the eyes of the body you were in when these memories are recalled. I was looking down at my boot on the bough of a boat looking out at the expanse of ocean before me. When asked by the woman guiding me where I was going. My strong male voice said, “I am going to The America’s.” My present self was aware that this was not a term I would ever use in this lifetime. When I got off the boat I was met by my wife and I put my arm around her and walked away from the dock. I could see her perfectly platted braid down the back of her head. I was aware that she was pregnant with our child. My next memory was the billowing white sleeve of my shirt as I wrote on a blackboard. Teaching class for a group of boys. I recognized that one of the students was my young son. The woman guiding me moved me forward to my death. I began to remember being attacked by Indians and knowing that my wife and son were dead when I felt this sharp pain in my chest as an arrow pierced my heart. My guide pulled me into the present and I remember thinking am I imagining this pain in my chest or was I really feeling those last moments. The pain dissipated immediately as I came back to the present. The woman asked me if I recognized anyone in that life from my present one. At first, I said no then out of what felt like nowhere. I said, “Oh, my wife is my oldest daughter, and my son is my boyfriend.”

My higher self has a peace that often gets stirred by the reality of the hard challenges that I have experienced in my life. Many times, I have used the card of freewill to ignore my own guidance because of impatience or stubbornness. I have also been able to be still and listen when life has felt unbearable. In the depths of my soul, I know that I chose to come here to this planet to experience joy and with that loss that has brought me to my knees. I did not realize until over twenty years later that the connection of the identity of my daughter and boyfriend would reveal itself. My daughter and my boyfriend were diagnosed with cancer in the same week and both lost their battle within a year of each other. I will leave it to the reader to decide the relevance. The cosmic joke is to question, analyze, and know only faith in something beyond our understanding. I believe that we are testing ourselves and ultimately there is no such thing as failure in our quest for enlightenment.

In a world of continuing challenges and the illusion of control. The tools of science and metaphysics help us navigate and perhaps explain our tendencies. My advice to any who travels the path and study of Astrology should delve past the simple daily sun advice and explore the depths of connection to your journey on this planet.