How Astrology Helped Me Understand Myself Better
And How You Can Use It Too
In the past few months, I've been very interested in the Zodiac signs. Okay, I admit — not just the past few months... since I was little would be more accurate. I remember my sister and I getting a small book about our signs and being very interested in what it said about "us". Astrology always fascinated me and I often alternated between believing in it or not. To this day, I couldn't say, really, but it goes along the lines of believing being born under a certain sign can really determine personality traits to a certain extent, but not believing it can actually predict our future.
Anyway, what I mean is in the last few months, I thought more about the subject and it all started because I met some friends online and — I don't know how — we started talking about our signs.
It was a light and fun conversation at first, but it really got me thinking about who I am and it got kinda deep (for me at least). Then I became really passionate about the subject (as most Scorpios would, aha) and I started digging deeper into what it means to be a Scorpio and comparing my sign even more with those of my friends. I can tell you it's really fun to talk about and would really encourage it, as you'll discover later in my article.
Oh and also... I got so passionate about learning about my sign that I got a tattoo of the little symbol on top of my left index. Because it represents who I am — well, a part of who I am.
A little disclaimer before I continue though: I'm by no means an astrology expert; this text is about how I understand the subject and what I get out of it — and how you can get something out of it too, whether you are into it or not.
This text is not about if astrology is real or not. As I said, I'm not even sure to what extent I do believe this works. I'm just here to tell you that it can be a way to get to know yourself better, but also to accept yourself better. Because it's easier to love ourselves (from a personality standpoint I mean) when we do understand that everyone is different and that it is okay to act or be different. Not just because of the movements of celestial objects, but because we are humans. Some humans have similar personality traits, while others are very, very different. And that's okay. We all have our way to be. We are no better or less than anyone.
I'll give you a few examples of myself. Scorpios are known to be secretive people, very loyal, passionate, persistent, emotional; and when they want something, they really go for it. Sometimes at all costs, because their expectations are so high. These are traits I do relate to. Though, when I first read that Scorpios were supposedly secretive, I laughed because it seemed like the opposite of me. Let's say that if you ask me a question, I'll answer almost without a filter. I can talk about my feelings easily if I get asked and I really have great difficulties lying. You could probably see it in my face. Then I told myself: at least I got to "learn" that I am not secretive. I know myself a little bit better now because I took the time to think about it.
But that word — secretive — stuck in my head and I began to observe myself more. Maybe, after all, it was a good word to represent me... did you get that I wrote earlier if you ask me a question? If you don't ask me how I am doing, if you don't ask me if I like something or not, what I'm thinking at that present moment or whatever, I probably won't tell you. I have a tendency to keep things to myself in front of most people. I say most people because I have no problem talking to my boyfriend, my best friend, or my mom. Sometimes I'll maybe say too much. (Like in this text aha.) So in conclusion, yes, we might say that I am secretive at some level.
Another thing. When I love someone... I deeply love someone. Whether it's my boyfriend, a friend, a colleague, a member of my family that I get really close to. I invest myself at more than 100% in that relationship, sometimes at my depends. I'm so loyal to that person that I have great difficulties saying no when I should. My passion for that relationship makes me feel sometimes jealous when that individual gives about the same attention to another than me. And because I'm secretive, I often keep these feelings inside of myself until I can't anymore. And sometimes I hate that about myself.
Not to say that I cannot change or grow, but thinking that it might be because I’m a Scorpio — in other words, that I have the personality that I have, astrology or not — helps me accept myself more. And knowing that I'm probably not the only one that feels and acts and thinks like that makes me feel less alone. And the fact that I know myself a little bit better means that I can improve in certain areas more easily.
As I said earlier, I sometimes have long conversations with my friends about our astrological signs. We compare ourselves to what our Zodiacs are "supposed" to be, we compare ourselves to each other but not to say that one is better than the other. More to get to know each other at a deeper level. When a friend acts in a way that, in my eyes, totally confirms his or her sign, I’m so amused by it. When a friend says or does something that doesn’t align with what I would say or do, knowing that he/she has a different sign than me helps me accept their behavior better. It’s okay that she/he doesn’t do or say or think the same thing as me, he/she is not the same person.
I love astrology, not because it can predict my future or tell me if I'm a good match with someone. I love it because it gives me a new perspective on life, on myself but also on others. It helps me accept my own person and my friends better. It helps me accept that we are all different and that is so, so okay. We all have our ways to react to something, we all have our own unique personalities that may or may not be related to a Zodiac sign. Whether this is real or not, it helps me get to know myself better. It makes me relate to other Scorpios, it helps me bond with my friends. So I encourage you to do the same. What sign are you?
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