The Diving Instructor 3

After staring at the screen for 11.5 hours from 2:40 to 14:06, I gave up again.

He was online many times, for a long time, but he never contacted me again after 7:34. I was waiting for his message, showing his love and missing me. But he didn't. Maybe I'm not the only one that he likes. Maybe I'm not as special as he said yesterday. When I saw him online, I was so glad, even excited. But finally, I found I'm stupid. It seems that I only want to exist on the same platform at the same time.

Anyway, I can understand. After all, I've already rejected him. He needs to go on with his life, his love, and even his future family. I have no excuse to hold him in my hand. He has to hold others. It was I who gave up the opportunity, even though he really doesn't know how to use the map. I know, in my mind, I need him too. If I go, we can have a very romantic, exciting moment together. But I know I can't. I already have my lover who loves me a lot. His sacrifice even makes me feel heartache. I love him, I can't hurt him even a little. I can only love one person.

Then, ok, that's the end. A very short love story. I hope everything goes back to peace. Everyone would enjoy their lives chosen by themselves.