“Stay inside longer”

Grim took a look at Gnarly’s new one bedroom apartment. It was clean, small and comfortable. Minimal furniture and no mess. Not like how they were used to living. They usually lived together in different places with a vagabond type of environment wherein nothing was ever really homey, secure or even close to being cozy.

This place felt different than any of the other places they’ve lived in. This place felt more like a real home.

“Pim helped me find this place. Helped me apply,” Gnarly said. He pointed to the couch, “Make yourself at home.”

Grim gulped. “Gnarly, this place is kinda nerdy. Like you have plants and pictures on the wall…” Grim tried not to sound rude. He just wanted to say how he felt which was, “I really like this place,” but he couldn’t reconcile his usual survival instincts of repression over honesty.

“Pim and Charlie helped me. I flat out refused this shit, at first, Grim. I thought it was just a bit much. But now I see why people dress up their homes. It makes you feel kinda… weird. Weirdly weird,” Gnarly said, getting out two sodas for them.

“Yes. It’s weird. Uh..” Grim started to say as Gnarly handed him a cold soda. “Lemme guess. You have coasters and stuff?” Grim asked.

Gnarly frowned, pointing to the coasters that had decorations of farm houses on it, saying nothing.

Grim frowned, sipping the soda before putting it on coaster, admiring the coffee table.

”Yeah it’s all set up. I guess. Just needed you to take your spot here too,” Gnarly said with a blush. “I mean, you know. If you want to. Only if you want to.”

Grim sighed. “You really want me to live with you here?”

Gnarly gave him a confused look. “I mean, yeah, mate. You closed down shop at our office. That’s over now. Right?”

Grim shrugged. “It’s over.”

They both sat down next to each other on the couch.

”Well, that’s that. I guess,” Gnarly took a gulp of soda, putting it on a coaster. “Grim, I know I am terrible at this. I don’t even know if I’ll ever be good. However,” Gnarly started to say, turning to look at Grim. Gnarly gently took Grim’s hand in his. 

Grim took in a shaky breath. “Gnarly?”

Gnarly leaned down to kiss Grim on the hand. “Fuck it. I really want you to live here with me. I missed you so fucking bad. I know I said this already. But I don’t think I could have survived much longer without seeing your face. Your big sad eyes. Your mean old frown. Your cute snarl. I….” Gnarly took in a deep breath. “You’re my partner. My heart. My soul. My mind. My… fucking everything. I love you like you have no idea. You’re my bo… my boyfriend,” Gnarly stuttered. Grim’s eyes widened.

They had never called each other their boyfriend before. Now it felt aching real. 

“I am your…. Your boyfriend?” Grim repeated, a little smile on his lips.

Gnarly leaned in closer, kissing Grim on the cheek. Grim smiled bigger.

”Hell yes, you are. And I’m your boyfriend. Do you want to make this happen? For real? No matter what?” Gnarly squeezed Grim’s hand in his, looking at him excitedly and smiling.

Grim was so overwhelmed with joy, but he didn’t know how to act. He waved his hands back and forth near his face, then covered his eyes with his hands.

”Oh fuck, fuck, Grim, are you okay, did I say anything wrong…” Gnarly went over to hug him.

Grim was softly crying as Gnarly held him.

 
“Grim, you’re such a softie,” Gnarly teased as Grim laughed then cried harder.

Gnarly gently wrapped his arms around the smaller man as he pulled him on his lap, stroking his back softly as he sobbed.

Gnarly held him close, leaving soft little kisses on Grim’s face. It was helping Grim calm down slowly.

”Gnarly… God, you’re a big softie too…” 

Gnarly laughed. “I like being your… boyfriend,” Gnarly said, the last word sounding so familiar yet foreign. He liked the way it felt to be so open about it. It felt so natural and so good.

Grim snorted, his face splotchy from the crying. “I look hideous. How can you be my boyfriend, after all?”

Gnarly leaned in, looking at Grim in the eyes. “You’re fucking gorgeous, you idiot,” Gnarly said, kissing him on the lips.

Grim sighed happily as he kissed back. Grim needed this level of touch and affection, he just didn’t realize it until Gnarly held him and kissed him so admiringly. He held onto Gnarly’s face, and said what he said out loud in public just the other day. Something he only said during sex but he wanted to say it to Gnarly now, for no reason other than to say it.

”You’re my love, Gnarly, I love you, fuck do I love you more than your greedy guts say they do for me, I can’t stand how much I love you…” Grim whispered passionately as they kissed over and over. “Oh, my love. My love,” Grim repeated as Gnarly blushed, pressing his body against Grim’s with increasing intensity. Hearing Grim say, “My love,” in the context of just kissing was so powerful to Gnarly. Not to mention Grim publicly calling him that. That blew him away.

“I love you too, you cute little gremlin…” Gnarly’s voice cracked as they continued to kiss.

Grim chuckled, “I like it here. I think I’ll stay inside longer,” Grim teased.

”Oh yeah? Stay inside longer? How long?” Gnarly teased back, kissing Grim’s neck.

”As long as I damn well please,” Grim said with a faux anger.

Gnarly laughed. “You naughty minx.”

“Stay inside longer… longer than a day? Week? A minute?” Gnarly continued to ask as he kissed Grim’s neck, shoulder, then up towards his face.

”One minute,” Grim gasped, wrapping his arms around Gnarly’s neck as they kissed again.

“I’ll take it,” Gnarly said simply. “I’m your boyfriend, after all.”

Grim grinned. “Agh, whatever,” he scoffed jokingly.

”You was just crying a moment ago,” Gnarly said as he kissed Grim’s face in light, soft touches.

”Cuz you made me… I used to think that before all this mess feeling bad was all there ever was. But I don’t think my body…” Grim tried to explain, and Gnarly gave him a sympathetic nod.

”Your body only knows stress and pain. Is that right?” Gnarly added helpfully.

Grim nodded. “What I mean is… this stupid body of mine can’t handle peace and quiet. It’s dangerous,” Grim said.

”Dangerous is good. We need that more, I say,” Gnarly said as he cuddled their faces close. They both took in a tremulous breath.

”Gnarly?” Grim asked in a quiet tone, trembling in Gnarly’s arms. 

“Yes, my little pigeon?” Gnarly said.

”I need…. I need you…” Grim bit his lip as he kissed Gnarly on the mouth.

Gnarly looked at Grim, noticing how badly Grim was quivering and shaking.

”You need me?” Gnarly repeated, gently touching up and down Grim’s arms, chest and legs. 

“Oh God, I need you so bad, Gnarly. How long has it been? How long my love?” Grim almost cried out as he gripped onto Gnarly’s shoulders, closing his eyes tightly.

”Months. It’s been months. But it’s felt longer. An eternity maybe,” Gnarly said in a raw voice, his eyes stinging.

”Fuck me, Gnarly. Fuck me. I need you inside me,” Grim got on Gnarly’s lap, straddling him.

”Mmm.. fu-fuck,” Gnarly moaned as Grim started rubbing their hips together. Even being fully clothed, the familiar feeling of grinding against each other was so powerful, so intense and Gnarly was so enraptured by being so close to Grim again, he almost felt this was a fever dream.

”Why did we stop, Gnarly? Why? Why?” Grim cried. Gnarly paused a moment and looked directly at Grim, their eyes searching through the darkness and the pain. 
Gnarly gently pressed his lips to Grim’s forehead.

They both took in a breath and let it out. Gnarly laid his head near Grim’s. 

Gnarly grabbed Grim’s ass, pulling their hardening erections closer as he thrusted into Grim’s wanting inner thighs.

“Don’t worry baby, I’ll never let you feel like that again. Ever. Ever,” Gnarly moaned as they collapsed into each other’s arms.

They kissed deeply, then started taking off each other’s clothes. As each piece of clothing was pulled off, they began to get up, still on between kisses and pants, feeling each up in breathless movements. They went to Gnarly’s bedroom.

”Ever. Ever,” Grim repeated. They were naked and wrapped up in each other’s bodies as they pulled the covers up to their necks.

”Ever,” Gnarly wrapped his legs around Grim’s lower waist.

“Is this your bed?” Grim asked, his hands holding Gnarly’s face.

Gnarly smirked. “No it’s yours. Yours and mine, mon petit pigeon,” Gnarly said softly.

”Oh and in French? So sexy,” Grim cooed. “So this is my bed. Huh?”

Gnarly winked. “Sure it’s yours. What? You wanna defile it?”

Grim thought a moment, then he sighed, getting closer, their bodies tangled up in a hot, naked sweat.

“No,” Grim said. Their tongues met as they kissed, hotly flicking against the other in a warm, fast pace.

”How should I take care of mi amor?” Gnarly asked.

”I want you… to stay inside me longer…” Grim said as he turned around, making Gnarly the bigger spoon.

This was the only way they ever had sex. Spooning. It was the only way because this was how they could love each other with no hesitation.

“Stay inside you longer?” Gnarly repeated as they got into familiar position.

Grim’s whole body was pressed into Gnarly’s, as Gnarly kissed Grim on the back and neck, and massaged Grim’s shoulders.

”How long?” Gnarly asked.

“As Fucking as long as I please,” Grim teased.

”Forever?” Gnarly asked.

”Yes, forever,” Grim answered.

Grim grabbed Gnarly’s hands and pulled them over against his chest, kissing Gnarly’s fingers.

“Need me to.. uh… you know, get you ready?” Gnarly asked softly.

“You mean… get me ready to take your big cock?” Grim asked seductively. Gnarly let out a groan as Grim pressed his ass into Gnarly’s groin.
Grim moaned involuntarily, the familiar feeling of Gnarly’s hard member pressing against his ass, begging for entrance, made him shiver with anticipation.

Grim decided to be more blunt, turning slightly to grab Gnarly’s member and rub it against his ass.

They both moaned, Gnarly moving his hips in a desperate effort to feel some friction against his hard, painfully aching dick.

“I literally can’t wait. I’ve.. I’ve been waiting for you for weeks. I have been …” Grim gulped, ready to confess. “Making sure I’m ready for you. I’ve been trying to fill that need… but it was too difficult.. I was never satisfied…” Grim added. Gnarly started to sweat, hearing that Grim had been painfully pining for him this whole time in such a physical manner.

”Fuck that’s hot, holy shit…” Gnarly got excited and started stroking Grim as they kissed briefly with tongues.

”Is it .. hot? Really?” Grim moaned as Gnarly tugged at his pulsing erection.

Gnarly couldn’t speak as he stroked Grim, while also stroking himself.

Grim moaned, grabbing onto Gnarly’s arm. “Oh baby, oh yeah…” Grim moaned. Gnarly let himself feel good for a moment then stopped. Grim whined from the halted contact.

”Lemme get some lotion. I got some next to my bed…” Gnarly said as he turned around to find the lotion.

”Did you use it on yourself thinking of me ever?” Grim asked, red in the face and highly turned on, touching his dick as he looked at Gnarly.

Gnarly turned, “Oh baby, you’re touching yourself? So hot. But…That’s my job…” 

Gnarly leaned down and put Grim’s dick in his mouth, sucking on it for about a full minute.

Grim was in heaven, throwing his head back and moaning Gnarly’s name.

Gnarly stopped but kissed the tip of Grim’s dick in apology.

”Sorry baby, but if you want to make love, I got to get myself lubed up. And I know you said you’re prepared but I am going to see for myself first…” Gnarly said, looking concerned. “I don’t wanna hurt you.”

Grim growled. “Fine,” Grim said petulantly.

Gnarly smiled at him sweetly. “Go on cutie, lay on your back, or else I call it quits. I swear to God.”

Grim frowned but did as he was asked to do.

Like a muscle memory, Grim spread his legs, while Gnarly put a pillow under Grim’s back.

Gnarly got some lotion and applied it liberally to his hands and fingers.

”Do me, baby,” Grim whispered as Gnarly got in between his legs. He started making gentle circles around his entrance, making Grim gasp.

”You tease me too mu..much…” Grim stuttered as he moaned.

Gnarly grinned. “You like me teasing,” Gnarly replied as he leaned in, looking at Grim with a sexy glare before going between his legs. Gnarly held both of Grim’s legs up in the air, kissing Grim’s inner thighs, licking his ass in circles and flicking against the hole. 
Grim started crying out loud, almost wailing. Gnarly had done this to Grim before as he knew the perfect way to give his partner the most pleasure.

He went higher, licking and sucking Grim’s balls, and licking his dick up and down, putting one finger inside of Grim to start.

“Oh Gn—-Gnarly! Oh God!” Grim moaned in an almost scream.

”God you’re so beautiful like this,” Gnarly said in a tight whisper, putting in a second finger as Grim rocked back and forth against his movements.

Grim was a bright apple red, biting his lip as he let out airy moans.

“Breathe, Grim, breathe,” Gnarly said, leaning forward to kiss Grim on the cheek and lips. “You’re doing so good, so good… good boy, you’re so pretty,” Gnarly praised Grim as he added in a third finger.

“Am I… your.. your good boy?” Grim said in a breathless voice, his eyes longingly focused on Gnarly’s face.

“Yes. Oh fuck yes you are,” Gnarly caressed Grim’s face and kissed him all over his face.

“Just finger fuck me all night,” Grim teased.

”Nah, I need to feel you, mi amor,” Gnarly said in a hungry voice, making Grim shiver with anticipation.

“Feel me then, you big French man… teach me French…” Grim flirted, moaning at every ministration.

Gnarly nodded, saying, “J'ai envie de toi.”

Grim tried to repeat it but it came out awkwardly. Gnarly chuckled lovingly.

”What.. what’s it mean?” Grim asked.

Gnarly whispered near his ear. “I want you.”

Grim smiled. “Another one?”

”Continue comme ça,” Gnarly answered.

”It sounds like you said continue..” Grim said tilting his head back in a low cry as Gnarly continued to finger him. 

“It means… don’t stop doing that…” Gnarly said. 
Grim started rocking back and forth harder against Gnarly’s fingers. 

“On s'envoie en l'air? Tu me fais craquer.J'ai envie de t'embrasser. J'ai envie de te faire l'amour,” Gnarly said in an impulsive bout of French.

Before Grim could respond, Gnarly scissored his fingers inside of Grim, making Grim almost scream in pleasure. He repeated the move two more times, then stopped fingering him.

Grim was gasping, still shaking from the intense excitement and pleasure he received, trying to recover in a dizzy euphoria. 
“Viens plus près,” Gnarly whispered, motioning his hands to get Grim to come closer to him. Grim was so stunned by the powerful force of the pleasure he felt that he silently listened to Gnarly, getting into the spooning position again.

“Tu es ma joie de vivre,” Gnarly whispered as Grim nestled himself into Gnarly’s arms and whole body, spooning again as if their bodies were painted that way, melting into a warm, soft place that their bodies felt like home in.

“You are my joy of living. You are my love. My one true love. Come closer, closer, more…” Gnarly said. The switch from French to English gave Grim a strange sensation of linguistic whiplash.

”I wish your skin was my skin,” Grim said and Gnarly melted, moaning Grim’s name as he grabbed his hard cock, teasing Grim’s ass.

Grim got impatient and turned slightly, gently taking Gnarly’s dick and having it start going inside his ass.

”Oh fuck, fuckkk… Grim,” Gnarly’s breath became uneven and fast as he slowly started fucking Grim. 

“Fuck I missed you… you being inside of me…” Grim said breathlessly.

Once Gnarly was fully inside of Grim, Grim grabbed Gnarly’s hands, pulling them over his chest.

”Gnarly, don’t move, please. Stay inside me longer. Stay inside as long as you can without moving. Please. Please,” Grim said.

Gnarly put one leg over Grim’s hip feeling Grim holding his arms and hands so tightly.

”Anything for you my darling,” Gnarly said passionately.

They spooned in their naked heat, not moving. The only sound was their uneven breathing. The quiet cloud of smoky love that was enveloping their lusty position, and their intense desire, and their soft, sweet love.

Gnarly accidentally thrusted even as they had been still for some time. It was too hard, making Grim scream in a heated point of pleasure and intense excitement. Gnarly had hit his prostate immediately.

“Oh, oh, oh, fuck! Fuck! Harder! Ahhh, ah!” Grim gripped Gnarly with all his might as gnarly thrusted into him with intentional intent to get his g spot every single time.

“Cum, cum baby,” Gnarly said in a shaky voice, moaning along with Grim’s increasingly aggressive orgasm.

They came together. This was the first time they ever came together. 
They collapsed in each other’s arms, breathing fast and kissing each other passionately.

They had a tired euphoria hit them as they now faced each other.

”My love, my love,” Grim said to Gnarly.

”My heart,” Gnarly said back.

”I think I will stay inside longer,” Grim smiled.

”Longer than forever?” Gnarly said with a wink.

”Longer than even that,” Grim said. They kissed until they fell asleep together.

Staying inside longer was the plan. Now it was their first way to say, “I’m home.”