Silent treatment

Loneliness: it’s has become the order of my day, nothing feels funny to me anymore

Of late have been losing interest in everything that once made me happy

I don’t want to be around people anymore because at the end everyone leaves

The worst part is they come into your life, make you feel so safe, comfortable, you enjoy their company and you think to yourself and say finally have found my happy place and the next thing you know they’ve left you after making so much promises to you, all the adventures y’all plan to do together, the creating of many memories and the long lasting relationship.

Now you by yourself wondering what to do next, if you should move on or hoping they come back and say they just needed a break or space.

Nothing feels the same anymore, I didn’t know just one person could make you loose interest and it’s not even up to a week, when he was your favorite person for 9 months and now you don’t know to let go because you have difficulty with Closures.

Closure: The processing of letting go of what once was.

How hard it is for you to let go one of my major problems, because I hold on to memories, everything plays afresh in my head makes it difficult to let go

The more reason the Pain stays so fresh.

pain is defined as an emotionally based extremely aversive feeling which can be experienced as torment: How have grown acoustic to it, always there but have gotten use to the facade of covering it over the years it’s has become a part of me, because I never really heal from it I just got to live with it and act so strong then I gradually tend to forget about it but it’s has always been there and never throughly left me. But this particular pain hurt so bad that my heart can feel it but I don’t think it’s can contain the pain that comes with this one, it’s hurt because I never saw it coming, because we never did had a fight before our little incident or let’s say my insensitive behavior and now days have gone bye without communication which kills me the most, have called and I have texted but still no response or reply. If you really want to kill me give me a silent treatment and you have automatically made me a dead person because I can’t even stand or bear it. Funny how that’s the easiest way to kill me lol

Love: Its has different meaning to different people well I would brief the meaning of my own definition of love to you. It’s the way a mother loves her child, the way she looks into the eyes of her child and there’s this unexplainable joy in her heart, it is the way no matter the offense of the child she still love the child. That’s exactly how I know how to love a person, that’s how I was taught how to love. I see how my dad loves my mom even on bad days he can’t even stand her and vice versa but they never leave each other and always support each other, it’s makes you sacrifice just because you wanna see that your favorite person happy, it’s makes you tolerate them even though they are been very annoying to you. You break rules for them and you bend for them that’s what Love means to me. You love them even in their worst days or your worst day. So what does love really means to you if you can’t forgive them just because of an insensitive behavior?? If all what you’ve been through together doesn’t move you then I don’t know what Love really means if you haven’t felt that way.

This is how much hurt I feel with your silence and if this doesn’t move you then I guess you never truly love me like you always say or claim that you do.