Shrines, Siblings, And The Thin Line Between Annoyance And Harm

My name is Mimi, and I’m 16 years old. If there’s one thing you need to know about me, it’s that I care deeply about my Midori Pawlette shrine, a collection of posters, papercraft, and memorabilia that I’ve spent months putting together, piece by piece. It’s more than just a bunch of stuff to me; it’s a space that’s entirely mine, a place where I can feel happy and at peace. My sister’s name is Alison, and for a long time, our relationship has been defined by one thing: her inability to leave my shrine alone. What started as a simple annoyance has spiraled into a cycle of revenge and conflict that I’m only now beginning to see clearly.

It all began on a day that’s still etched in my memory. I came home to find my entire Midori Pawlette shrine ripped apart, not a single poster spared, not a single piece of papercraft left intact. In that moment, I felt like something inside me snapped. I’d had enough of her bullshit. I was so angry that I didn’t think straight. I pushed her off the balcony, and she fell into our freezing pool below. Looking back, I know how dangerous that was. Pushing someone off a balcony could have caused serious injury or worse. But in the heat of the moment, all I could think about was the destruction of something that meant everything to me.

The next day, I caught her tearing apart my Midori Pawlette papercraft the one I’d spent three weeks making by hand. That’s when I saw red. I decided to get back at her in the only way I could think of: by targeting the things that mattered to her. I changed her TikTok username to alisonion67, which made her lose all of her followers. I told myself it was okay because she steals videos anyway, but deep down, I knew I was just looking for an excuse to hurt her as she’d hurt me. I installed a virus on her phone, watching as she struggled to use it, feeling a twisted sense of satisfaction.

When she came to me crying the next day, asking “WHY DID YOU DO THAT?”, I acted like I didn’t know what she was talking about. “Why are you jumping to conclusions?” I asked her. When she said, “YOU’RE THE CULPRIT,” I removed the virus, but then I deleted her Roblox account, even though I knew she never played it. I wanted to keep hurting her, to keep making her feel as angry and powerless as she’d made me feel. She got mad as fuck, but not as mad as I was when she’d ripped my shrine.

A few days later, she tried to push me into the ice-cold pool to get her revenge. But she slipped and fell in instead, screaming for our parents who weren’t home. I stood there watching her, and then I noticed a neighbor staring at our house as if it were a crime scene. They looked suspicious, and then they left. In that moment, I felt a flicker of fear. What if they called the police? What if someone found out about what we’d been doing to each other? But that fear quickly faded when I went back inside and saw her stepping on the remains of my shrine on the floor.

I decided I needed a new way to annoy her, something that wouldn’t get me in trouble but would still make her feel the same frustration I felt. I searched online for how to annoy people, and I found a video that said to spam someone with a cute voice sound effect. I knew exactly what to do. I spammed her for thirty whole minutes straight, and I could hear her crying through the wall. To my shame, that’s when my mind finally relaxed. Her cries soothed me, and I felt a sense of peace that I hadn’t felt in weeks. The next day, she barely talked to me, so I spammed her again. She cried like before, and I couldn’t help but laugh so hard that I ended up pissing myself, and then I laughed even more while I was standing there on her. Now I wonder if she might have PTSD from that cute voice sound effect.

I’m still 16, and I still care deeply about my Midori Pawlette shrine. But I’m starting to realize that the cycle of revenge I’ve been caught in isn’t solving anything. It’s only making things worse between Alison and me, and it’s putting both of us at risk of getting hurt physically, emotionally, and even legally. Pushing someone off a balcony, installing viruses on their phone, and spamming them until they cry are not okay ways to handle frustration. Everyone deserves to have things that are important to them, and everyone deserves to be treated with respect even when we’re angry with each other.

I don’t know how to fix things with Alison yet, but I know I need to try. Maybe we can talk about why she keeps messing with my shrine. Maybe she’s feeling left out, or maybe she’s just looking for attention. Whatever the reason, there has to be a better way to handle our conflict than hurting each other. My shrine is important to me, but so is my relationship with my sister even if it doesn’t always feel that way.

Note: It's important to recognize that the actions described in this story, including pushing someone off a balcony, installing viruses on a phone, and engaging in repeated harassment are dangerous, harmful, and can have serious legal and emotional consequences. Sibling conflict is common, but it's crucial to find healthy ways to communicate, set boundaries, and resolve disputes. If you're struggling with anger or conflict in your family, reaching out to a trusted adult, counselor, or therapist can help you find safer, more constructive ways to handle these feelings. You can find support and resources at Resources.