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Old age, where has the time gone

Old age, where has the time gone

By Tamara DennisPublished 3 years ago 4 min read

Where did the time go?

When I was young, I hope to grow up quickly, grow up can get rid of the shackles and self-reliance, to experience the youth of a little sour little bitter and began to have some ability to decide their own choice of sweet, slowly understand the mood of their loved ones, because we seem to have no began to tell the children to study hard, ask them to take a few points. To one day inadvertently found parents black hair has not covered the white silk, then pour sad, far less than a little violent, we began to look forward to time time you slow down, don't old age.

As I chat with my father said, I said a hundred years later you die I will not cry, but enjoy some good days when you are old, I give you the money you spend, want to eat and buy, want to go for a walk and go, do not want to walk and take a taxi, don't always think of saving a few money, money to me is not wasted, as you eat good drink fun good finally satisfied walk good. Fortunately, my father is reasonable. It is estimated that the general Lao Zi will beat his son when he hears this: "You don't cry when Lao Zi is dead. Filial piety is eaten by dogs?"

Chinese traditional pay attention to raising children for old age, the so-called old will just prevent a disease, easy disease, to eat food to take care of the basic life is to enjoy old age, and finally died inviting distant relatives and neighbors not scenery but for decent burial will feel a complete life. Healthy old people, most always want to tough planting a piece of land, solve their own rations and even raise a pig, the New Year to children more than half, happy. It is gratifying to have plenty of food and clothing by ourselves, but we have no worry about food and clothing for more than 20 years and always return for more than 10 years. Most people still do not want their parents to work in the bottom of their hearts, so the old man does not have to leave a surprise after leaving to give his children a fortune, and should also be sad.

Every time I said it, my father was happy and relieved. He said that no matter where he wanted to go and what he wanted to eat, he asked me for money. This is the best, but things will not be like what he said, for example, he said that it is better not to fall in love in college and study hard, but after learning that his girlfriend loved me like a daughter, just like when he heard my saying that he would take care of the child by himself, he readily agreed not to interfere, let me experience the hard work of being a parent, and then revealed in our next chat that of course I want to have grandchildren. Also like my grandmother in the sick bed for ten years, watching the pain of eating can not eat, sitting can not sit, sleeping can not sleep, hope that she can end the pain as soon as possible. At that time, I thought that the early departure of her old lady was to get happiness as soon as possible, and I decided not to cry but should encourage her. However, in front of her death, I cried until I could not sit still for a long time. At that moment, I still felt that she was relieved, but emotion prompted tears, which was hard to explain. It suddenly occurred to me that even if most of them were false, they were true.

So my father said, at that time, naturally will cry. This is the feeling, the connection.

Although emotion is not a truth, but can control the brain, far greater than the truth. The dependence of feelings and the closeness of consciousness, the habits of behavior and subconscious, are the straight line that can not be pulled back by much reason, even the rampage of inordinate stupidity can not stop the emotional discomfort and outburst.

We're at this age, the paradox of time. Forward is a strong self, can earn money can support a family can become more mature can become more attractive also brings more freedom of control; Going forward, there is no stopping the white hair of their parents, wrinkles and low backs.

Mom said, the fastest time is 20 years old to 30 years old, before the age of 20 years old feel not big, after 30 years old feel the same lack of passion, only this decade, a flash from the fingers slipped away, to their own son and daughter on the old hand for money under the small eat, drink and spread around the cost of time.

Work is very long, overtime is very troublesome, the crying of children at night is very irritable, the twist between couples is very distressed, so trivial is to elongate life, life is to slow down the time, but the time is not locked aging, aging is very fast.

Old time, will only be more and more old as the embankment, such as frost, wrinkles a song Li, no longer stand straight back, can not afford the strength of the skeleton like erosion hollow out. Only when I hear the good news of my children and grandchildren in front of my knees will I feel that time is slowed down by happiness. The rest of the time, when the father sitting in the field watching the farmers, the mother with reading glasses under the sun stitch by stitch knitting, or they are old only dialogue, words are full of waiting and looking forward to, but time is lengthening their loneliness and loneliness, put the pace of aging.

So, when we can not pull the aging, don't in the years outside the old parents time.

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    Written by Tamara Dennis