HEART THROBS

I want to leave.am dead sure i will. Probably today or tomorrow. I kept entertaining this thought. For years have wanted to leave my once thought angel. Now he is the spawn of Satan

Six years ago your face shone in the moon light .the smile that once light up my heart cannot today .what happened to change what we had between us cannot be explained in words? We used to be so perfect or so I thought.

For days have been looking for u in every nook around the town. Scarce is the news on your whereabouts.Your friends don’t talk to me anymore. Everytime I pass by they spat and stare at me.am hurt. It is painful, I can barely walk... The soles of my feet are full of blisters but are holding on.

The thought of finding u keeps me moving. It has been days still no sign of you .I have not bathed .Yeah am smelly but dear u must be okay. Today we must find each other. I trend downtown toward the one person I know. I thought she was the last one to see u. probably she might tell me what happened. She is well connected socially. She knows.

I negotiated the corner and came to a wide space. This is the place we loved to visit you used to carry me on your back. I miss that .Nowadays you don’t anymore. I still don’t know why. I knock at your friends’ door thinking she would have some news for me but she declined knowing your whereabouts.

Am pissed and famished at the same time. As I stood at the gate wondering what to do next I heard his laughter .It was exactly the vocal laughter that made me fall for him at first. I couldn’t believe my ears. But Jane said she didn’t see you.

Wish I knew.my conscience had been telling me there is something going on between u two. even our neighbor’s gossip about you two. Me being the loyal kind I ignore these stories when my friends bring them up. Wait, I thought I gave u everything u need .I cook, clean do your laundry, brush your shoes, warm bath and this is how you repay me?

How in hell did I pick someone like you .Sure today I must leave?