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“Finding a Voice”: Chapter Ten

A Fleeting Moment

By Nicole Higginbotham-HoguePublished 2 years ago 7 min read
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Lana walked briskly out of her class, determined to get back to the dorms before Ziggy came back from her morning class. She hadn’t spoken to the woman that morning, making an effort to get up before her, dress, and leave before Ziggy’s alarm even had gone off. The night before had been wonderful, filled with passionate sex, snuggling, and quiet conversation, but now that the moment was over, Lana felt awkward and a little embarrassed that she had let herself go that far with the other woman. She had never had an emotionally close relationship with anyone that she had dated, and from what she could gage, Ziggy was an emotionally based person. She didn’t know how to handle that or what to say to the other woman, especially after everything had happened between them, and she needed some time to think before moving forward.

“Lana,” a voice called from behind her.

Lana turned to see Gracie rushing up behind her. “Hi,” she said, mustering a smile.

“Hi,” Gracie beamed. “I just wanted to thank you for last night. Sam and I had a wonderful time. How did everything go with Ziggy?”

“What do you mean?” Lana inquired.

“Well, did you tell her how you felt?” Gracie asked, feeling her out with her eyes.

Lana could feel a blush creep to her face as she thought about the night before. “I suppose I did,” she finally responded. “Not in so many words, but I think that she got the point.”

“What do you mean…” Gracie asked, but Lana could see the lightbulb appear above her head. “Did you…did you sleep with her?” Gracie whispered, a smile crossing her lips. “Lana, I didn’t think that you were going to go all in.”

“Well, it wasn’t the plan,” Lana replied, looking at the other woman. “One minute, we were sitting there having a conversation, and the next minute, well…”

“And the next minute you were all over each other, weren’t you?” Gracie finished.

“Yeah, I guess I got lost in the moment,” Lana replied. “I really shouldn’t have been so impulsive.”

“Having second thoughts?” Gracie asked, walking alongside her down the hall.

“I don’t know,” Lana replied. “I guess I’ve never trusted anyone enough to get serious.”

“Well maybe it’s time that you started to,” Gracie replied. “It couldn’t hurt, and who knows, what if Ziggy turns out to be the person that you spend your life with?”

“I don’t know if I’m ready to think that far ahead,” Lana said. The future seemed a ways away and seeing that the situation with Ziggy was so new, she hadn’t really incorporated the other woman into any of her future plans.

“You can’t think like that,” Gracie told her. “If you are going to get together with someone or date them, then you should be thinking about the future. A lot of people end up in crappy relationships because they hang on to a person that they know that they can’t build a future with, or just the opposite, they don’t give the right person a shot, and by the time they figure out that, that person was the one, the other person moves on.”

Lana thought about this for a moment. She certainly didn’t want to lose Ziggy, but she also wasn’t sure that the other woman would be the one person that she spent her life with. Sure, now that they had gotten over their initial irritation with each other, they got along, and they had slept together. Nevertheless, Lana could just see the looks on her parent’s faces if she ever decided to bring the other woman home. Ziggy was polite, but she certainly didn’t have a conservative dress code or have any idea how to behave around the circles that Lana and her family spent their time with.

“You sure zone out a lot,” Gracie said, lightly nudging her.

“Sorry,” Lana said. “I just don’t know what to do. I like Ziggy, and I want to get to know her, but I’m just not sure how she would fit in with my life.”

“Maybe, you’re thinking too hard,” Gracie said. “She seems to be fitting in just fine right now.”

“Yeah, but I won’t always be here,” Lana said. “Eventually, I’ll probably move back in with my parents, and life with them is very different than the life that I live here.”

“Well, if you are worried about how she will get along with your parents, then why don’t you just set up a dinner with them and invite her to come?” Gracie asked.

“I don’t know if she’s ready for that,” Lana said.

“Well, it’s now or never,” Gracie said. “Anyhow, I have to get to my next class, but call me later. Let me know what happens.”

“I will,” Lana replied, waving as Gracie walked to her class door.

LANA SIGHED AS SHE exited her last class and headed down the hallway to the exit door. She knew that she was going to have to confront Ziggy soon about the night before, but she still didn’t have anything to say. She did, however, call her parents and set up a dinner for that night, knowing that Ziggy didn’t have to work. She figured that if she asked Ziggy to come to the event right before it started, then it wouldn’t give the other woman enough time to back out, and though doing that wasn’t very nice, she really was curious to see how well Ziggy got along with her parents.

Lana bustled out the door and towards the dorms, still not sure how to approach the sensitive subject of the night before. She had never felt so emotionally connected to another person before, and she wondered what was going through Ziggy’s head. She entered the dorm building and walked up the stairs, entering their floor. She was so nervous that her hand shook as she turned the knob to their door, and she sighed a sigh of relief when she found that Ziggy wasn’t there. Lana dislodged her books and backpack and sat down on the end of her bed. She was grateful for the extra couple of minutes and used that time to think more about her upcoming conversation with the other woman. Lost in her own thoughts, Lana almost didn’t hear the door to the room open and Ziggy enter.

“Hello,” Ziggy said, a blush creeping over her face. “How was class?”

“Good,” Lana replied, feeling the awkward tension between the two of them. “How was yours?”

“Good,” Ziggy stated bluntly.

“So, I wanted to…” Lana began.

“Talk about last night,” Ziggy said with a sheepish grin. “I figured you would.”

“Yes, talk about last night,” Lana confirmed. “Everything happened so fast. I’m not sure what to make of it. I don’t know where it leaves us. Are we friends? Are we dating? What are we?”

“That’s a good question,” Ziggy responded. “I wondered the same thing. I didn’t want to make any assumptions, so I figured that I would ask you.”

“Well, I’m not sure,” Lana told her. “I mean, I like you, but I’ve only known you for a matter of weeks, and I still have a lot to get to know about you.”

“That usually comes with time,” Ziggy said. “And it’s usually part of the dating process.”

“So, are we dating?” Lana asked. “Do you like me in that way, or was this all just a one-night stand?”

“I do have feelings for you,” Ziggy replied. “And if you want to make it official, then we can put a title on it. However, if you aren’t comfortable with moving that fast, then we can just be friends. It’s up to you.”

“Well, I do have feelings for you, and I wouldn’t mind getting to know you better, and I certainly don’t want you dating anyone else,” Lana said.

“Then, I guess we’re dating,” Ziggy replied. “Where do we go from here?”

“You still need to meet my family,” Lana said, thinking about the plans that she had already made for that evening.

“Cool, set it up, and we can have dinner or something,” Ziggy replied.

“It’s funny that you say that,” Lana told her. “Because I already set up a dinner for tonight, and I thought that you might want to come.”

Ziggy looked at her with a surprised look and then a grin formed on her face. “You prepared for this,” she stated.

“Somewhat,” Lana said, diverting her eyes. “I didn’t want to be too presumptuous, but I figured that it would be good to be prepared. So, will you come?”

“Yeah, I’ll come,” Ziggy smiled. “What time is this dinner?”

“In an hour,” Lana smirked.

“That’s not much time to prepare,” Ziggy commented, eyebrows raised.

“Consider it payback for the last-minute notice on the party,” Lana replied.

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Nicole Higginbotham-Hogue

Nicole Higginbotham-Hogue is a lesfic author at amzn.to/36DFT2x. Sign-up for her newsletter at higginbothampublications.com

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