A story within a story

Little fat this year 29, can also be said to be after 80. I didn't know Xiao Pang's name, job title, marriage status, residence and other personal questions, and I didn't bother to ask. In short, the following story is only related to Xiao Pang, but has nothing to do with his name, title, marriage or residence. And this past is talking with the little fat drink chat, a little fat school time memories.

It was the autumn of the September 11th terrorist event in the United States. The reason for this is that Pang had a very ordinary year. Only the September 11th event and Xiao Gao were archived in her memory of that year. At that time, Xiao Pang had been in a third-rate university for two years and had nothing to do in the afternoons. This may also be the case at most third-tier universities in China.

In the afternoon, the classroom is mostly empty. Students usually spend this time in dormitories, playgrounds, libraries, computer rooms or Internet cafes at the school gate. In the dormitory, most of them are sleeping late or playing computer games, while in the playground, in addition to playing football, playing basketball and other other sports, the rest of them are basking in the sun. In that part of the world, the autumn sun is very popular. Little fat does not like to stay in the dormitory, but he is not a strong athlete on the field, at this time he is usually in the library or the computer room, according to little Fat is like the quiet library and computer room keyboard sound and a strange laughter from time to time. "Something special, you." When the little fat said this liking I couldn't help but return a sentence, the little fat just hee hee ground smiled and said: "I don't know why, just like that feeling. Maybe that's why I like it. I noticed her in the library, Xiao Gao." "Continued the fat man.

Xiao Pang said that Xiao Gao is a graduate who has been a teacher for five years. He is more like a librarian than a teacher. In the autumn sun, Xiao Gao's figure by the window was a little more beautiful because of the small southern girl's figure. At that time, Xiao Peng thought Xiao Gao was one of the students who spent a boring afternoon in the library like him. So Xiao Pang began to introduce Xiao Gao by saying "he has graduated and worked as a teacher for five years". Xiao Gao looked out of the window in a daze. The sun had dyed her hair pale yellow. The leaves of the poplar tree outside the window had faded, leaving only its withered torso. But small fat said, small high back side to see the past feeling can only experience, can not describe, really, a little like the photography industry now popular that small fresh style. I Kai a sentence: "I also LOMO", little fat a little urgent, said, you still want to listen to the TMD. Ha ha, sorry, buddy, look at your beauty, can not help but XX you.

Don't have the heart to disturb and destroy the little fat heart that beauty. When the library closed, Xiao Gao stood up from the seat by the window and said, "Dear students, it's time today. Please put your books back on the shelf. Thank you." When Xiao Gao talks, she sounds like the little sister next door in a Japanese art-house movie. In the following days, Xiao Gao always sat by the window where the sun shone in the afternoon, often staring out of the window in a daze, sometimes listening to music or reading with headphones. And small fat also fixed sitting on the back of small high, reading at the same time, have time to raise his head Xin Chang that beautiful scenery. The days in autumn are always short, but the sunset in autumn is beautiful. I really like that autumn sunset, red. Little fat gets emotional. I haven't seen such a beautiful sunset glow for a long time. "Hey, man, can you hurry up and get to the point? I'm dying," I yelled. Little fat white I said at a glance, do not understand amorous feelings. Crazy dizzy. Is this the everyday fat?

Maybe everyone sat in a fixed position and did similar repetitive actions every day. In order to attract Gao's attention, Xiao Pang was also the last one to leave the library every day, so Gao noticed Xiao Pang. On a night when the sunset was gone and the stars were shining in the sky, Little Pang was also the last to leave. "This student, can you help me close the shake head window?" Chubby knew it was Gao calling him behind his back, but he couldn't help looking around before straighting his head at Gao and saying, "Tell me? Well, the weather budget says there might be light snow tonight, so please. Gao looked at Chubby and smiled. Fat looked out the window at the stars twinkling in the night sky and answered, Oh. Will it snow in a night sky full of twinkling stars? "Thought Fat.

But then the story does not unfold, as usual, class, lunch break, library reading or computer room Internet. When leaving the library, Xiao Gao would nod to Xiao Pang, or Xiao Pang would smile to Xiao Gao and other eyes or verbal greetings. There was a question that Pang had been keeping in mind. Finally, on the way out with Gao, Pang couldn't help asking, "Miss Gao, why do you sit by the window every day? There seems to be nothing to see except the sun shining." "Really? Oh, get used to it! "Xiao Gao replied casually, but Xiao Pang thought there must be a reason. The story about Xiao Gao can be learned from a male teacher's mouth, the male teacher is the supervisor of the computer room, and little fat in the computer room for a long time, became the male teacher's half assistant.

Xiao Gao, who graduated five years ago, comes from a small coastal town in the south. Just graduated when came to this third-rate university to apply for a teacher, a Chinese teacher. In the first year, she met her husband, who is also a Chinese teacher and a local. One year after they met, they got married naturally. On the wedding day, Xiao Gao did not have any relatives or friends to attend. People except her husband knew that Xiao Gao was an orphan and had no relatives at this time. She had a fat son less than seven months after her wedding. Maybe happy people have the same happiness while unhappy people have their own unhappiness. The husband died of lung cancer at the end of last year. Last year, the husband's family tried to win the custody of their son through their relationship. The reason was that Xiao Gao, a foreigner, had no other income except his salary, and had to work so that he had no time to take care of the child. And he had an uncle who could take care of him. Last year, because of grandma's neglect, grandma and grandson went to the park, the child lost. Xiao Gao did not believe it, in addition to crying, she did not believe that the child is lost, think that the husband's family in order to not let her see the child just said so. She always thought the kid was somewhere else with the in-laws.

The child's loss to Xiao Gao's oppression is too great, finally fainted in the classroom, in the hospital when he woke up with eyes in a daze silently looking out of the window. Later, the school administration arranged for her to go to a local psychiatric hospital. After six months, she was discharged and seemed to be back to normal, except that sometimes she still stared out of the window for two hours in a daze. As this affected teaching, the school arranged for her to work as a librarian in the library. Xiao Gao quietly accepted the job offer. Perhaps because of the quiet environment in the library and the care of other library colleagues, Xiao Gao slowly stepped out of the shadows, but the habit of staring out the window has not changed. After listening to the little fat about Gao a little can not believe and at a loss, he can not believe that Xiao Gao experienced these, at a loss because I do not know what can be done for Xiao Gao. Only dare not ask "Miss Gao, why do you sit by the window every day? There seems to be nothing to see except the sun shining. "and help Xiao Gao close the Windows and clean up when the library closes every day. Xiao Gao silently accepted Xiao Fat's help. Sometimes Gao brings some snacks to him, and he accepts them silently. They're like brother and sister.

The fat man fell silent and took a sip of wine. "And then?" I asked. Little fat head to sell the cup of wine said, then the third year, the last semester does not have to go back to school, asking for the internship unit. When I was ready to leave school, I didn't dare to go to the library any more. I didn't know how to say goodbye to Xiao Gao. I felt very sad and stayed in the dormitory all day. But three days before leaving school, Xiao Gao found my dormitory through my classmates. I couldn't believe it when I opened the door, but for a split second I started crying when I saw Xiao Gao. I fucking cried. Xiao Gao brought me eight pairs of those thick socks you only have in the North, and a few other things.

Fat turned his head to look out of the window. Neon lights were flashing outside. I also saw neon lights flashing in Fat's eye frame. "At that time, I wanted to hold Xiao Gao and tell her that I could take care of her and let her forget all her unhappiness. I wanted to tell her: Let's go together, let me take care of you. But at that time because there are other roommates in the dormitory and their own timidity, did not Sue Xiao Gao had their own heart everything. The day I left school, Xiao Gao came to see me off. On the platform of the train station, Xiao Gao told me, "Don't worry, I'll be fine. I'll take care of myself." You want to know the real answer to that question you asked me earlier? Because looking out the window in a daze, I seem to see my husband and children, I believe that tomorrow will see you, ha ha. But don't worry, I'll get on with my life.

As the train moved, Xiao Gao turned and walked off the platform. I waved to her from the train. She just raised her hand and didn't look back. I knew she was tearing up like me. The sun slowly set in the west, and the sunset glow was beautiful. Xiao Gao's figure grew smaller and smaller as the train moved, disappearing around the bend.

I silently picked up the bottle to the little fat wine, said, do not say, drink! Wine into the throat, hot, like those hot life, choking tears.