Still dream

He is a professor I know, in the academic community has a high prestige and reputation, his disciples, are also an elite. In order to ensure the quality of the professors, he adopted a principle many years ago, that is, to enroll only one doctor per year. But even so, the students who applied for his PhD are still like waves, failing this year and making a comeback next year. And that's how the student, Van, came into his vision.

Those who are rare and resilient have been registered for three consecutive years, and they are ranked second by a few points. In the fourth year, Van came again. When he turned over Van's file, he smiled and thought, this time, no matter what, he will give Van, who is actually a very excellent student, a chance. This time, where the results, as expected, top the list. However, on the night before the interview, the principal personally called him and said, according to the practice, we always have to take care of the students who have graduated from their own school, moreover, the second place is not necessarily worse than the first place, tomorrow after the interview, as much as possible to think about it, then make a conclusion.

He certainly understood the meaning of these words. Every year, there are always some people who try to influence his enrollment vision, but he can be fair every time. This time, however, he hesitated. It was the first time the principal had personally called him to recruit students; And this second place student, and the first place, is indeed the same level. The principal intends to cultivate this student, who has a deep academic foundation, in order to cultivate some reserve strength for the school. Of course, the student's family background should not be underestimated. But what about Van, who took the exam for four years in a row? Is it for a selfish purpose, let is in a great joy of Van, suddenly fell to the cold sea? If this really sets a precedent, how will his prestige among students be diminished in the future?

That night, he tossed and turned over these questions, thinking of a splitting headache, but still unable to sleep. The next morning, he called another professor who had participated in the interview, only to learn that the president had also called the professor in advance. He knew that the resistance encountered is unusual, had to ask in the interview, the first place, can play well, so as to make those resistance, weaken and fade. But the final result of the interview was that the performance of the two students was comparable and difficult to distinguish.

After the interview, he and several other professors had a good debate over whether to admit students based on the results of the preliminary exam or according to the principle of giving priority to the students of the university. In the end, admission is decided by secret ballot. This was the only way to save the principal's face. Before this, the principal had never asked him about the enrollment of students. It was basically his decision. And this time, he reluctantly accepted such an approach under argument. The result, of course, was to be expected, where he had always wanted to recruit as a disciple, under an invisible pressure, was finally PK down.

And that's when he began to suffer from a strange sense of guilt and insecurity. So serious that every time I see this enrolled student, I will think of Van. Think of him in the interview, a spirited appearance; I think of the loss and sadness that flashed in his eyes when he was crowded in the crowd and saw his name on the festive red list. I remembered his embarrassment at seeing him walk away as he approached. That year, he was looking forward to the arrival of the next enrollment than anyone else, and he thought that as long as he passed the exam, in any case, he would recruit him to make up for some mistakes.

But Van did not sign up that year. He spent another long year in trepidation, but Van still did not come. He finally knew that the mistake had completely crushed his confidence and tenacity. This student who is so obsessed with academics may not go down this road unremittingly thereafter. And he could have "ignored" the authority, "ignored" the opinions of other experts, and led the fan into the fragrant journey of longing.

No one knew why his old age had swept over him like a tidal wave. In the two years that followed, his face was tired, his mind was in a trance, and he often forgot what he was about to say when he ascended to the lectern and saw the students below. And walking, but also staggered up, but is 63 years old, but there is an 83-year-old old man, only some can not pick up the decline and defeat. Many people thought that he was in bad health and advised him to go to the hospital for diagnosis and treatment, but he was always scrambling to find reasons to refuse. His memory was rapidly fading, but he could never forget that when he turned around, the indifferent eyes, like a sharp sword, cold into his chest. But his conscience pushed the sword even further; In the end, he couldn't take it.

He spent a long time, through many people, to find a few easy work of the phone. At the moment when he picked up the phone, he did not have time to introduce himself, and he said: Where, you must come to apply for my doctor this year, as long as you pass the score, I guarantee that you will be admitted smoothly. Upon hearing Van's response, he immediately hung up, as if, a second later, Van would have changed his mind.

Van finally became one of his students four years later. Besides, it was his closed disciple. He died of illness in the year of his graduation. He had never told Van what a hard and painful struggle he had waged against the sword of conscience during those four years, and how, in the end, exhausted, he had surrendered himself to this invisible sword.

From beginning to end, he did not know what kind of story happened, so he never told the instructor, in fact, he never hated him, he felt tired that year, just gave up to continue the exam. And when he received the call from his mentor, he was filled with nothing but great surprise and gratitude. And this professor, whom I have always admired, quietly closed his eyes and left, but still knew nothing about it.

What people do not know, the sword of time and conscience, but will clearly remember.

When the ancients created characters, they must have guessed the nature of people, so when people got into trouble with money, they needed to take out contradictory swords and defend money, they also showed the "cheap" phase.

Therefore, people often can not withstand the temptation and temptation of money, every time close, will fall a cheap reputation. For the money interests, fight for a bloody, to the end, only to find that the expensive is money, cheap, is their own.

A friend of mine, one year for a television celebrity hard to write a TV script, friends nature is kind, but also thin-skinned literati, so at the beginning of writing the script, signed the contract, there is no calculation with celebrities, thinking that if this can be a hit, even if the loss point, it does not matter. Anyway, the time is long, don't care about this little profit.

After writing thirty episodes in this way, friends are waiting for the TV series to finish shooting, and their royalties, as written on the contract, are hit by celebrities to their accounts as scheduled. However, left and right, until the TV series hit N times, the newspaper review articles have chewed it tasteless, one hundred thousand dollars, or did not arrive. The friend patiently waited for another six months, but the celebrity seemed to disappear and never contacted his friend again. While writing a new script, the friend considered whether to gently remind the celebrity, perhaps, is too busy, the matter to delay.

Just by chance, the celebrity passing by the friend's city, at the party, the celebrity said haha, said to find a friend to write a new play, and this new play must be more popular than the last one. After drinking two cups of wine, the friend cautiously and tentatively asked the celebrity, that, the manuscript fee this time, compared with the last time, can it be increased? Celebrities bring a glass of wine, bang and friends of the glass together, laughing: of course it will be high, rising tide lifts all boats, you are also famous. His friend's face was slightly red, and he wanted to puncture that layer of window paper and tell celebrities, in fact, he just wanted to ask, when can you pay him for the last time, he can't, he wrote for so long, and finally became "Yang Bailao". But celebrities pretend to have low intelligence and refuse to mention what happened last time.

In the end, the friend did not peel off the face of the celebrity at the dinner table, revealing his naked face corrupted by money. After years and years, finally my friend could not endure any longer, and finally learned the infamous "Huang Shiren" and decided to collect debts at the end of the year. The friend thought, after one two but three, it has been three years, this time, in any case, celebrities will be because of guilt, and have expressed it. So the friend took two bottles of good wine and went to the home of the celebrity.

This time the celebrity was happy, seeing his friend enter the door, immediately got up, said, get him money. Friends in the heart of surprise, but also guilty, thinking that celebrities are celebrities after all, not really dead, but themselves, frequently ask, but appear cheap. When the friend blamed himself, the celebrity snapped and threw two stacks of money in front of the friend. No count, just look, friends also know that it is only twenty thousand dollars. Thinking of the hundred thousand dollars that should have been earned after years of hard work, but finally plummeted to twenty thousand, my friend's heart, like a frozen snow outside the window, a cold and cold.

It happened that the two children of celebrities came over, and the friend was cruel and planned to satirize the celebrities, so he gave 20,000 yuan to the children of celebrities, saying, the New Year, did not bring you any gifts, this money is considered as the lucky money from your uncle. I thought the celebrity would give in and send the money back to the friend's hand, but the celebrity smiled coldly and said to the two children, since the uncle is sincere, you can take it and do next year's tuition. The heart of a friend, like a sharp piece of ice, suddenly across, not only saw the bright red blood, but also frozen to the bones and muscles, can no longer recover.

When he got up to leave the celebrity home, his friend did not look back in the celebrity's "goodbye" voice, and he heard the celebrity laughing two voices behind him, as if laughing at his worthless dignity and backbone.

Since then, my friend has learned to harden his heart and deal with all kinds of cultural merchants on money. He began to learn to bargain, the kind of without blushing, in his words, and the market to buy a pound of pork haggling for three hours, the neighborhood aunt, no difference.

Later, because of the lure of money, he once worked with the cheating celebrity again. But because of his fame, he can take on celebrities this time. After he took over the script, he began to implement the method of writing two sets of accounts, if the celebrity did not pay, then he refused to continue to write, although, inspiration forced friends can not let go, those characters in the brain, in front of his eyes every day, screaming at him, hoping that he would quickly shape them perfectly. But friends have been able to do calm, in a battle with money, friends in this way in time, cultivate into a fairy. Although, his fairy bones, everywhere through the past he disdained the base gas.

However, in the war of holding the shield to protect the money, who is more than who can collect a little bit of the base gas of the left and right rush?