So if you read my last story you know that I decided to leave my moms house after a acid trip šŖ. I didnāt make the decision because of the acid, I made it way before that but the acid helped push me to actually grow some balls to do it. Sooo I basicly left like a couple of days after my 18TH birthday š° bc me & my mom had some problems that just couldnāt be fixed. Well they couldāve but she never tried or at least didnāt try to communicate with me with what she was feeling & stuff. Me & her have had issues since like ever but the last couple months I was at her house I was sad & depressed & would just chill in my room all day just waiting for her to talk to me or come in & check on me which never happened. During this time I had/have a boyfriend & he knew & saw everything that went on with me & her so he always tried making it better by taking me out & just making me smile. You would think that she would be happy I was happy but instead she would find every reason to hate on him. She would mock him, tell me she didnāt want him in the house & when he did take me out she would call me a hoe from the streets bc she said I was never home. But again when I was home she never bothered to check up on me. When I would cry to her about how I wanted to fix stuff between us she would just call me dramatic & sensitive. I love my mom but I just donāt understand what she has against me. Like you only have one mom & I miss her & I havenāt talked to her since October. I thought by moving out I was gonna be happier but itās only made me sadder because she hasnāt reached out. I thought living with my boyfriend was gonna be a blast š„ but hell no. Iām 18 & Iām having to worry about all these grown up things, like rent, taxes, grocery shopping, my phone bill & trying to manage my money. Iām currently unemployed rn so Iām STRUGGLING. Luckily I have a bf that works & can pay for my stuff when I canāt. I feel bad tho bc I feel like he shouldnāt have to pay for everythingš°. I been applying To like 29376392828 jobs a week & literally nobody wants to hire me :/. At my moms house š” I had a lot of space to walk around & a lot of noise in the house. I had my 2 dogs š¶, my bird š¦ & my catš± & my 2 sisters šÆāāļø. So even tho I was sad & feeling alone I still had all them to keep me company & once I moved out to my boyfriends everything changed. Bc now Iām sad & ALONE ALONE like he has no pets & lives in a small apartment, itās always dead quite here. Heās always at work so Iām just here in the room waiting till he gets back. So yes Iām happy I got out of that toxic environment at my moms house but I wish we couldāve worked on it. Because now Iām just alone with nobody but my bf & I hate depending on him for everything but yeah .. But I can only grow from here š± so hopefully I can get a job that will get me out of this room & hopefully I can feel happy again without worrying so much bc Iām WAYY tooo fucking young feeling all this shit. But yeah if your a mom, pls check up on your kids, even if they push you away, find time for them, listen to them & communicate with them & show them you love them even if they say itās annoying.. & if your 18 like me DONāT move out, especially if you have a family that loves you & supports you, stay there .. donāt force your self to grow up, wait till itās your time, so that your prepared & donāt have to go through everything Iām going through rn š„
So yeah thatās my story, hope you enjoyed š¦ & learned something I guess :)
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