Dyspraxia, Dyslexia, Dyscalculia

Dyspraxia, Dislexia, and Discalculia: I have all three.

Dyspraxia is a spacial disability that makes it hard to tell where you are within a given space. I accidentally run into the sides of walls a lot because I cannot tell where the true ending of the door space is. I am also terrible at platform games and have a funny time playing them, but of course still enjoy. This causes me to be naturally worse at balance than other people so I practice balance every week with a balance board.

Dyslexia is trouble with reading and writing. I mix up letters and used to write G's, D's, and B's all backwards. It took me longer than other young students to learn how to read. I remember trying to learn how to read and feeling frustrated I was behind. I spent a lot of extra time reading to be able to pick up on comprehension. I was sad when other peers were reading a particular series they would talk about and I couldn't join them. I was so happy I learned and actually started to enjoy writing and grammar. I remember a really horrifying time was having to spelling bee in front of the whole class. I would constantly misspell words and people would laugh at me.

Dyscalculia is an issue with math learning. Mine is more specifically correlated with my dyspraxia because I have issues with mostly spacial math. All math can be a struggle, but reading graphs was particularly hard for me to be able to grasp. They just looked like strange lines and dots all ramming into one another. The fact they were supposed to make linear sense felt out of reach to grasp. Geometry was another struggle because why were they so obsessed with triangles anyways? Just pick up a measuring tape, yeah?

Despite this, I learned well enough to gain a high GPA and go to college while graduating with honors. I have come across people who call me smart and that is great for me to hear! Especially after such a struggle in younger years. It is interesting when people tell me they are jealous of someone like me where it comes naturally.

There is even people who will tell me they couldn't get the grades I could because they have dyslexia or dyscalculia. Little do they know, so do I! What people are jealous of is the underlying they don't see of how much I studied and worked to be able to be called smart after being laughed at in elementary school for my bad handwriting and spelling. I at first would not say about it because I didn't want it to define me or take away from someone else struggling with the same, but I realize now it will always be what I decided for myself was best.

I wanted to better myself and push past anything that could be a hold back. I kept going and pushed past all of the voices that tried to tell me ugly things like I couldn't do any better than a C in math. I definitely smashed the dyslexia because I got an almost perfect score on the English section on college admissions testing. Obstacles are difficult frustrations to deal with, but I didn't let it hinder me or used any of this an an excuse. I wanted to be able to be right up there with everyone else and really went after that. I'll still accidently jumble up a word and continue to think graphs are the enigma machine, but I at least made it this far!