UNBECOMING is returning!
I am. You are. LOVE.
I experience myself to great depths, so I know that it's possible to be met the same way. And so, I honor her.. the one who loves deeply.
As an adolescent and young woman, I settled for less. I accepted "love" that came my way in any form, desperate just to feel *something. Anything.
My worth tied into the way other people felt about me. I outsourced my sense of self and put her in bad places. Further perpetuating the stories of not-enoughness. Telling myself, if I just loved harder, it would all change. Except, it never did.
My worth is now no longer tied into...
- if he likes me
- if he messages me back
-if he wants something more with me
- if he calls
In the past, I have been anxiously attached. I've also played the avoidant. It's an interesting paradox. Wanting the very thing, and then pushing it away out of fear that they'll do it first. I know this pattern well.
It is possible to heal these wounds. To regulate your nervous system. To learn how to hold yourself through it all.
To become your lover, first and foremost.
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Catherine Nyomenda
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Omgggg I've done the same thing too! If I feel that I'm becoming attached to someone, I'll kinda pull away, so that I leave before they leave me. Now I'm just prioritising myself. Sending you lots of love and hugs ❤️