Mental health session one

Zachary – Session 1 – July 25, 2025

Frustration, emptiness and anger. I’ll tell you why.

Because my mom — every time I get a big idea — my mom shuts it down. She said we have to fix the house before I can move in there.All I want is freedom. Even at the lowest level of freedom.Cause that’s a start.

But it’s hard.And I just wanna, like, be free.And later on in the day I was like, well I have it good here… so I just want freedom.That’s all I’ve been fighting for since I was young. But I’ve never got it.And it hurts.⸻If I had true freedom right now,I wouldn’t sleep all day.

I’d be OK with being alone — maybe not at first — because my family made me be dependent from everything they put me through.They shaped my whole childhood and didn’t give me a voice,

Expecting me to wanna do what they wanted me to do.Expecting me to follow the same path that they didWhen I saw the path that they tookAnd I didn’t want anything to do with that type of life.

When I’m on my own —Yes, recently all I do is sleep, eat, watch TV — But if I had to do it because no one else would do it, I would do it.And every time I try to explain this to peopleThey just say “whatever, no you’re not right, that’s how you’ve been your whole life”

But I’m a rebellion.

I’m a rebel.

I don’t follow other people’s rules.

I make my own.

And every time someone gets in the way of my own rules

I shut down.

It hurts me.

So what am I supposed to do?

Just collapse…

Or keep going and get nothing done?